I want to appreciate life the way Ivan Denisovich Shukov does.
I want to take pride in my work; I want to taste every bite of
sausage, suck the marrow out of every fish bone, enjoy every puff
of every cigarette, bask in a sunset, watch the moon cross the sky,
fall asleep content; I want focus on the necessities of living, but
I have too much. It's not much compared to most everyone I know,
but it is still too much.
And because it is too much I can't appreciate life the way Ivan
Denisovich Shukov does. Reading about it is not enough, but right
now it is what I have.
I'll keep trying.