Always and Forever, Lara Jean by Jenny HanAlways and Forever, Lara Jean by Jenny Han

Always and Forever, Lara Jean

byJenny Han

Hardcover | May 2, 2017

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A Vulture Best YA Book of 2017

Lara Jean’s letter-writing days aren’t over in this surprise follow-up to the New York Times bestselling To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before and P.S. I Still Love You.

Lara Jean is having the best senior year a girl could ever hope for. She is head over heels in love with her boyfriend, Peter; her dad’s finally getting remarried to their next door neighbor, Ms. Rothschild; and Margot’s coming home for the summer just in time for the wedding.

But change is looming on the horizon. And while Lara Jean is having fun and keeping busy helping plan her father’s wedding, she can’t ignore the big life decisions she has to make. Most pressingly, where she wants to go to college and what that means for her relationship with Peter. She watched her sister Margot go through these growing pains. Now Lara Jean’s the one who’ll be graduating high school and leaving for college and leaving her family—and possibly the boy she loves—behind.

When your heart and your head are saying two different things, which one should you listen to?
Jenny Han was born and raised in Richmond, Virginia. She graduated from the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill and earned an MFA in writing for children at New School University. She lives in New York City. Jenny's books include The Summer I Turned Pretty Series, To All the Boys I've Loved Before, Shug, and Clara Lee and The A...
Title:Always and Forever, Lara JeanFormat:HardcoverDimensions:336 pages, 8.25 × 5.5 × 1 inPublished:May 2, 2017Publisher:Simon & Schuster Books for Young ReadersLanguage:English

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ISBN - 10:1481430483

ISBN - 13:9781481430487


Rated 4 out of 5 by from Always and Forever Re-Reading this Series This book wasn't my favourite out of the trilogy but I was satisfied with the realistic ending. What I love is that Jenny Han did not set out completely unrealistic expectations for her fans. I felt everything Lara Jean had gone through and this book took me back to my teenage years. My heart throughout this series fluttered and melted. Recommend this series to everyone! We all deserve to feel our hearts grow, break, fix, and love with Lara Jean.
Date published: 2018-08-25
Rated 5 out of 5 by from A Strong Finish To A Fantastic Trilogy There was a bit of a time gap between when I first started reading this book and when I finished it today, because for the first hundred pages or so, nothing's happening. It's all peaches and cream and sickeningly sweet love stories that just kind of put me off wanting to read this for a while. But I picked it up again, and finally, the plot started to gain momentum, and once Han hit her stride, it was a nonstop roller coaster of emotions. Jenny Han just about gave me a heart attack here - and I say this because there was so much drama happening, and there just didn't seem to be nearly enough pages left in the book to give the story a happy ending. But somehow, she accomplished this. She fixed everything, and gave the book a perfect, rounded ending without it feeling rushed or thrown together. My beloved characters will have their 'happily ever after' ending and I will shamelessly admit that I bawled (again). Lara Jean and Peter K. have officially become one of my favorite bookish couples, and without a doubt, I would read their story over again in a heartbeat.
Date published: 2018-08-05
Rated 4 out of 5 by from love the series Seriously love this series of books from Lara Jean, all of them and every one of them come from a true story and feels so familiar
Date published: 2018-07-17
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Great end to a great series! I just loved this series and I'm sad it is done now. Lara Jean is one of the most believable characters that I have read in a long time and I thoroughly enjoyed her story. I feel like her story could have been mine in high school and I feel like she is one of the few protagonists that I could connect with so easily. There story and I highly recommend it.
Date published: 2018-03-14
Rated 2 out of 5 by from It was ok I found this series okay, but really not that exciting. Especially this one, seemed to drag on and on. I probably won't be reading them again.
Date published: 2018-03-09
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Review posted on Fafa's Book Corner! Beware spoilers ahead! Lara Jean and her boyfriend Peter are in their last year in high school. Lara Jean is hoping that she'll get into UVA. As she'll be with Peter but also remain with her family while she's at college. Her father's relationship with Ms. Rothschild is going well. In fact Ms. Rothschild has become apart of the family. Lara Jean is preparing for her classes trip to New York City, college, and the inevitable good-byes to her teachers and classmates. Unfortunately not everything goes according to Lara Jean's plan. Throughout this book Lara Jean has to decide what she wants in life and how will she and Peter navigate their relationship. When I heard that this book would be released I was overjoyed! This is my favourite contemporary series! I am glad to say that it was wonderful! Just like the previous books it is written in first person all in Lara Jean's point of view. And there are chapter numbers. There are text messages, admission emails, and a letter of sorts at the end of this book. I loved everything about this book! From the trip to New York City, the wedding, as well as Lara Jean and Chris's spontaneous road trip to North Carolina. I especially love that in every book Lara Jean develops. There's no reset button just growth. Like the previous books there is such a large emphasis on family. Margot, Kitty, their father, and Lara Jean are a very close knit family. Ms. Rothschild and Peter are additions to their family. Partway in the book their father proposes to Ms. Rothschild with Lara Jean, Kitty, and Peter's help. Margot doesn't quite like that Ms. Rothschild has such a huge role in their family. As she was in university for most of this book, Margot gets the shock when she sees how close her father is to Ms. Rothschild. For the majority of the book Margot has a very strained relationship with Ms. Rothschild. Margot doesn't have a problem with Ms. Rothschild as a person, just that she didn't expect her father to ever get married. Despite this Margot remains supportive of her father and his decisions. The two do make-up and it was beautiful! Applying for college was a huge part of this book. All of Peter and Lara Jean's friends are going their separate ways. The seniors all plan to have one last get-together before that happens. They have the trip to New York City, seniors week, and some plans after graduation. It was so much fun to read about, but also had a bittersweet feel to it. Kind of reminds me of my high school days.  As foreshadowed in the synopsis Lara Jean doesn't get accepted in UVA. This obviously puts a strain on her relationship with Peter. The two come up with another plan instead. They plan to spend their first year apart but in their second year Lara Jean will transfer to UVA. Peter's family is actually a huge part of this book. His father actually make's an appearance and it attempting to get back into Peter's life and good graces. Due to his insecurities with his father Peter felt that Lara Jean would dump him  Further proven to him when Lara Jean made a scrapbook so that he could take it to him in UVA. Peter thought that this was Lara Jean's way of saying good-bye. The two make-up (of course) and decide to face any obstacles that come in the future together. I was actually happy that Peter's family life came in. And that this time it was his insecurities that drove them apart rather than his relationship with Genevieve. It has been heavily implied that Peter has many insecurities. And I have always assumed that his parent's divorce had more of an effect on him than he implied. I felt that it was done well. Lara Jean is really upset that she didn't make it into UVA. She won't get to be with her family nor will she be in school with Peter. Once Peter lays out the new plan to Lara Jean she has a purpose. Though she is very depressed and instead of meeting with her future peers (one of the those college freshmen get-together's) Lara Jean puts all her energy into planning the wedding. Surprisingly Lara Jean gets accepted into UNC. When Lara Jean tells Chris, she (Chris) tells Lara Jean that they should go a on spontaneous road trip to North Carolina. The road trip was a blast to read about! Chris and Lara Jean saw UNC (which was beautifully described), they meet new people, ate new food, and just had fun. Of course when the two arrive home they get into trouble. Lara Jean's family is overjoyed that she got into UNC. Her family urge her to choose what she wants and that they'll always support her. Now I know that there were some people that weren't happy when this book was announced. But I personally felt that this book was necessary. Unlike P. S. I Still Love You, Always and Forever Lara Jean felt like a conclusion book. Lara Jean has a last hora with Chris (I like to imagine that they'll still keep up in the future), has last conversations with Lucas, John, Genevieve, and Stormy (who sadly passed away in this book), and her father gets remarried (the wedding planning and the wedding itself was awesome). Even the drama was realistic and well done.  Overall Always and Forever Lara Jean was a beautiful conclusion to the series. I recommend this series to everyone. 
Date published: 2018-02-15
Rated 4 out of 5 by from A lovely finally This third book concludes so well Lara Jean's story. I found the family dynamic so emotionally written and the sweetness of Jenny Han's writing is still there. This is my favorite of the three books. I'll miss Lara Jean and Peter so much. There are more mature topics mentionned. I recommend it but for 14+. I want to read more books by her.
Date published: 2018-02-03
Rated 5 out of 5 by from love love love Jenny Han is such an amazing writer and this series is incredible! such a cute twisted love story
Date published: 2018-01-02
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Great conclusion to the series I was worried that this one wouldn't be as great as the first two since it wasn't planed to be a three book series starting out but was pleasantly surprised with how much i loved this book and didn't know how much i would want this book in the series until it was out. #plumreview
Date published: 2017-11-30
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Perfect I read this back in May when I was a month away from graduating high school. Exactly what I needed in that moment. I read this series throughout high school and it'll always have a special place in my heart.
Date published: 2017-11-26
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Wonderful Very happy to have read it
Date published: 2017-10-17
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Must read Love this author and this series!! Must read
Date published: 2017-10-09
Rated 5 out of 5 by from oh my god this is the best YA romance ever If you have the first two books, then this is a no brainer. You'll read it and you'll love it.
Date published: 2017-10-06
Rated 4 out of 5 by from A lovely story It keeps you in thought long after you have finished reading the book.
Date published: 2017-09-29
Rated 4 out of 5 by from WOW!!! I feel completely in love with the series!
Date published: 2017-09-21
Rated 5 out of 5 by from absolutely LOVE it Jenny Han is a GODDESS. She has delivered. This book is my favourite romance YA novel. It's perfect - in character arc, plot, writing style, and conclusions. Obviously. Need those perfect endings that aren't too perfect to the point of unrealistic. THat's what makes it perfect.
Date published: 2017-09-13
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Cute Ending This was the worst book in the trilogy. I didn't think that there was a need to write this book. However I did like it a lot. #plumreview
Date published: 2017-09-13
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Such a good book A great way to wrap up a great series. Absolutely a must-read!
Date published: 2017-09-12
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Perfect The first one will always and forever be my favourite (pun intended) but this book ended the trilogy perfectly.
Date published: 2017-09-04
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Loved jenny han is a goddess, i swear to god. she has a special talent to hook you into one of her books with the first page. this series was so cute, lara jean and peter k are literal goals, mm k? i'm sad that this is the last book of the series, i could read about these two for the rest of my life.
Date published: 2017-09-01
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Loved the whole series Jenny Han has hooked me ever since the first book
Date published: 2017-08-31
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Hooked since the first book in the series I've been hooked since the first page of the first book in the series. After reading the second book I was sad to find out it was the last book and the series... I was totally stoked when I found out Jenny Han was writing a third and final book in the series. I love Lara Jean's personality and while reading this book I would sometimes imagine myself in her shoes. I loved seeing Lara Jean and Peter relationship grow from pretend to something special. I wish Jenny Han would write another book about how Lara Jean and Peter's life has changed since starting college.
Date published: 2017-08-28
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Perfect The perfect conclusion to one of my favourite series.
Date published: 2017-08-24
Rated 5 out of 5 by from A Gorgeous End to the Trilogy! I’ve been dreading to write this review, mostly because I am physically unable to let go of it all. I cannot, cannot, CANNOT leave Lara Jean and all of her glory behind in my bookshelf for someone else to explore. I mean, YEAH, I’ll recommend this trilogy to my friends, explaining that I have almost given all of Jenny Han’s books a five star rating, but my emotions are currently all over the place, thanks to this gorgeous finale. Always and Forever, Lara Jean is a book that wasn’t supposed to exist, according to the lovely Ms. Han, but she kept feeling that something was missing, that we Lara Jean fans needed more closure. And I’m telling you, this provided lots of closure. *But not nearly enough for my poor, broken heart!* “Peter is my cocoa in a cup, my red mittens, my Christmas morning feeling.” THIS BOOK IS MY CHRISTMAS MORNING FEELING. I honestly do not remember the last time a book made me feel this way, made me obsess continuously to the point that I could identify myself as a freaked-out fangirl. This finale means so much to me because I could relate to it; I am currently approaching similar events that Lara Jean, in this story, was dealing with, like university applications and discovering what we would like to do with our lives. I grew up with this series, and so many things have occurred in my life in between the releases of all of the novels, and the ending was extra special because of that. This finale is about Lara Jean basically trying to configure what is going to happen to her relationship with the amazing Peter. Everything seems perfect, and her life is progressing in the way she wants it to, but suddenly, so many surprises pop up in her life, and Han just writes about it all in the best way ever. I feel that she knows her character and protagonist, Lara Jean, so well, that this seems so valid… so true. Lara Jean begins to rethink about wear she belongs, how she and Peter will be able to be together amidst all of the drama that surrounds them. And let’s just talk about how Lara Jean and her sisters’ relationships bloom here. As if they couldn’t progress and bloom even more, right? They all begin to understand each other as they are growing older, dealing with new situations, seeing that their father is moving on after their mother’s death. My heart just fluttered throughout the whole journey. I LOVE, NO ADORE, KITTY AND MARGOT. “I’ve heard people say you meet your best friends in college, and they’re the ones you’ll know your whole life, but I’m certain that I’ll know Chris my whole life too. I’m a person who saves things. I’ll hold on forever.” NOW — I guess you’ve figured out that I love Lara Jean and Peter’s relationship SINCE I fangirl too much about this series as a whole. I wasn’t too much of the BIGGEST fan of Peter’s in the past two novels, but because of his caring for Lara Jean and how MUCH their relationship has progressed in this novel, I am officially in love with him. PLEASE FIND PETER FOR ME. NOT ANY PETER, BUT THIS PETER. Thank you very much. *winks* But jokes aside, the two’s chemistry is unbelievable. I love how their relationship is not JUST about the physical aspects of falling in love, but about emotions and talking to each other like important individuals. Sometimes, books tend to get a little too much about sexuality instead of the real aspects of romance, and this was it. BUY THIS WHOLE SERIES AND SIT ON A COMFY COUCH AND READ ALL OF THE BOOKS. You won’t regret it. Even if you’re the last person who would read a contemporary romance, DON’T HESITATE TO PICK THIS UP. It’s absolutely gorgeous.
Date published: 2017-08-21
Rated 5 out of 5 by from I LOVED IT I loved seeing Lara Jean's and Peter's relationship grow more throughout this book. It was a nice conclusion that left less to be wondered about the future of the characters.
Date published: 2017-08-14
Rated 5 out of 5 by from LOVED IT! Loved this book. so sad it's the last one... would love to know how it goes in college... or down the road.
Date published: 2017-08-08
Rated 3 out of 5 by from Nice conclusion The thing that I liked about this book is the ending. The rest, I must say, is mediocre. I think if I were to choose between a duology and a trilogy, then I would pick the duology. This book doesn't really have much of a storyline, but it does have some substance. Peter and Lara Jean's relationship is further developed in this book as well. But I still prefer to end it in the second book, because it ended so strongly. This book's ending was very heartwarming as opposed to strong, and I prefer the latter.
Date published: 2017-08-06
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Cute I loved this book it was cute and funny. A great end to this trilogy.
Date published: 2017-08-05
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Clear writing This is one of those novels that draws the reader in from the very beginning and maintains interest.
Date published: 2017-08-05
Rated 1 out of 5 by from Not a huge fan I loved the idea behind this book. But I found the writing style childish and not enjoyable. I know it's supposed to be told form someone young's perspective but..... way too "much" "sissy" and "daddy" And don't get me wrong I love middle grade Novels which this should have been.... but I wasn't grabbed or interested. I got 100 pages in and had to DNF this book. not a fan at all.
Date published: 2017-08-04
Rated 4 out of 5 by from A great conclusion! Really love all the characters in this story!
Date published: 2017-08-04
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Amazing Finish! This book made me cry and laugh at the same time. I'm sad that this is the last book but i enjoyed reading all 3 books. This ending was the perfect finish to the 3 books.
Date published: 2017-07-31
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Solid Read Great finale, very good conclusion.
Date published: 2017-07-31
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Perfect Ending I absolutely loved this book. It was the perfect ending to such a sweet series.
Date published: 2017-07-27
Rated 5 out of 5 by from My favourite I love this book so much! I was so excited when they announced there would be a third book. The story was relatable and I really liked the ending. My favourite of the trilogy.
Date published: 2017-07-25
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Lovely and absolutely perfect I've always loved Jenny Han and so when I heard that this series was getting a third and final book, I was over the moon!!!! This was an amazing book. I had read every one of her other books and this one didn't disappoint. The ending was cute and satisfying and perfect. The story hooked me immediately, the characters were real and the writing was oh so amazing. Highly recommend as a cute summer read. Also, Lara Jean and Peter are perfect. And Kitty is adorable.
Date published: 2017-07-23
Rated 5 out of 5 by from A perfect ending! I read this whole trilogy in the matter of about 2 months and I loved almost every second of it! I'm not saying that this book doesn't have its flaws, but it was so cute and I just found myself smiling the whole time while reading it! Since the first book, I haven't really been a huge Peter Kavinsky fan. I was actually kind of hoping that Lara Jean would get back together with John Ambrose McClaren in this book. But after reading about all the sweetest things that Peter did for Lara Jean in this book (especially the part with Lara Jean's birthday) I was sold on him! What I liked most about this book was the ending. The list that Lara Jean and Peter made was so cute! It was kind of like an homage to the first book where they made a list when they first started "dating." Tears of joy were brought to my eyes after reading that! All in all, I think EVERYBODY should read this finale to the trilogy if you have already read the first 2!
Date published: 2017-07-17
Rated 4 out of 5 by from A nice relatable book Maybe it was just me but I was a little annoyed with Lara Jean in this one. She just felt extra young to me and I had a hard time listening to her sometimes. I really really glad for this story though. Glad to see an author wrote a character who didn't get into her first choice of university and struggled with the decision of what to do. I was also really glad that she made a great choice without following her friends or boyfriend. We need ore books like this, though Lara Jean made it look pretty easy. All the characters we loved are now grow up and I think it was a lot of fun seeing that. I'm sad this series is over but happy that it ended the way it did.
Date published: 2017-07-11
Rated 4 out of 5 by from loved it!! I loved this book! I thought it was cute and fun to read however, I didn't think the book was necessary to end the trilogy.
Date published: 2017-07-11
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Loved it My sister and I read this together and we both loved it
Date published: 2017-07-08
Rated 4 out of 5 by from A good read! I liked how I could relate to the main character. It shows the tight bond between sisters and how special it is.
Date published: 2017-07-02
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Wonderful Conclusion The main character progresses so much in this series, and I loved reading about it. I would definitively recommend reading it if you've read the other two. I also loved all the Hamilton references, and found I could relate to a lot of the little things in this novel. For example, the Lara Jean watches Romeo and Juliet in the book, and the day I read that, I watched that movie in my English class; it was so cool. Overall it was super cute and fun to read.
Date published: 2017-06-30
Rated 5 out of 5 by from I am EMOTIONAL Reading this book just made me feel so warm and fluffy inside and I loved every page of this book. Saying goodbye to Lara Jean and Peter was bittersweet but this was the conclusion we deserved. I loved this book, I love these characters and I can't wait to see what books Jenny Han comes out with in the future.
Date published: 2017-06-28
Rated 5 out of 5 by from My favourite series I didn't even know there was a third book to this series until I saw it online and I went to the store asap to buy it! I forgot how much I missed and loved Lara Jean's universe and her relationship with Peter. After finishing the third book, I re-read the first and second one and then re-read all my favourite moments in the three books. This series is definitely in my top 3 of my favourite books!
Date published: 2017-06-28
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Well done Enjoyed the plot and characters, job well done
Date published: 2017-06-23
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Great End What a great ending to the beloved trilogy of Lara Jean. Jenny Han has a way of making fiction seem like real life, with also just a bit of whimsy.
Date published: 2017-06-20
Rated 5 out of 5 by from All wrapped up with a shiny red bow Jenny Han put the perfect ending on a series that has always made my heart warm. This final chapter in the story of Laura Jean and her world puts a perfect ending on a beautiful, truthful, and genuine series.
Date published: 2017-06-14
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Great book I found Laura Jean to be slightly annoying at times but a good story as a whole
Date published: 2017-06-12
Rated 4 out of 5 by from interesting read! Very elaborate on struggles of teen into adulthood
Date published: 2017-06-12
Rated 4 out of 5 by from A great ending! Maybe it was just me but I was a little annoyed with Lara Jean in this one. She just felt extra young to me and I had a hard time listening to her sometimes. I really really glad for this story though. Glad to see an author wrote a character who didn't get into her first choice of university and struggled with the decision of what to do. I was also really glad that she made a great choice without following her friends or boyfriend. We need ore books like this, though Lara Jean made it look pretty easy. All the characters we loved are now grow up and I think it was a lot of fun seeing that. I'm sad this series is over but happy that it ended the way it did.
Date published: 2017-06-09
Rated 5 out of 5 by from A Happily Ever After to a Great Series I started "To All The Boys I've Loved Before" a few months ago, and fell in love with Lara Jean and Peter. They made me feel nostalgic for highschool (who would've thought that), fall in love with first love all over again, and was generally a lovely YA read. I'm glad Han didn't stop with the sequel and decided to write another because even though I had only a short time with these characters I feel like I needed more and needed this ending. If you loved the first two, you'll get those feels all over again. Lovely work Jenny Han!
Date published: 2017-06-02
Rated 5 out of 5 by from LOVE This series is awesome and I love this novel. It was a great addition to the Laura Jean stories!
Date published: 2017-05-30
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Great Series Ending! I'm officially in love with all of Jenny Han's series! It had the perfect conclusion that will leave you smiling from head to toe. I read it so fast that I couldn't put it down and it took me less than 24 hours. When Jenny announced that there was to be a third book I was so excited because the ending to the second book left us wanting more. Lara Jean and Peter are an adorable couple! Just love them so much. This series had family, sisters becoming closer, good pop culture references that will bring you back, Lara Jean and Peter preparing for college and the marriage of their father. I loved being back in their world. It was like any normal teenager waiting to be accepted into the university of their choice. For Lara Jean it was UVA. Peter already had an early scholarship to play lacrosse, so they had started to make plans together in hopes she gets accepted. But some things don't always go as planned. To All The Boys I've Loved Before, series is a recommended series for all to read because its one of those books that you can connect with the main character and how she is going through emotionally. If you haven't picked out this series start them because you definitely want Peter as your book boyfriend! Jenny Han's writing is flawless like always and I'm looking forward to what she has next for us readers!
Date published: 2017-05-28
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Good Read A good way to pass the time
Date published: 2017-05-25
Rated 5 out of 5 by from jenny han ten out of ten so amazing, wonderful ending. could not have been more perfect in my opinion
Date published: 2017-05-22
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Beautiful Such a beautiful ending and is worth the money
Date published: 2017-05-22
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Great! Such a cute series, great ending.
Date published: 2017-05-19
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Great Conclusion Such a great book with a satisfying ending!
Date published: 2017-05-17
Rated 4 out of 5 by from GREAT BOOK Amazing book; truly wonderful!
Date published: 2017-05-12
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Love Jenny Han's book I'm a huge fan of Jenny Han's books. I was super excited when Jenny revealed she wrote a 3rd book of Lara Jean. This final book is quite different than 1st and 2nd book. It's more of the challenges and changes that we all go through in Grade 12; especially for those who fall are in love in high school. I refuse to write down spoilers. I highly recommend reading this book. Honestly, I know Jenny Han said this is her conclusion to Lara Jean but I really hope not. I just love the characters.
Date published: 2017-05-08
Rated 4 out of 5 by from AH!! I just finished the first two and I can't wait to get my hands on this one! The characters are just ahhhhhh~~~ Love LJ&P together! #plumreview
Date published: 2017-05-07
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Liked the first more I liked the plot and characters, not my favourite book though.
Date published: 2017-03-09
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Loved the first books more I love the series but this one has a different theme going on
Date published: 2017-03-03

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Always and Forever, Lara Jean 1 I LIKE TO WATCH PETER when he doesn’t know I’m looking. I like to admire the straight line of his jaw, the curve of his cheekbone. There’s an openness to his face, an innocence—a certain kind of niceness. It’s the niceness that touches my heart the most. It’s Friday night at Gabe Rivera’s house after the lacrosse game. Our school won, so everyone is in very fine spirits, Peter most of all, because he scored the winning shot. He’s across the room playing poker with some of the guys from his team; he is sitting with his chair tipped back, his back against the wall. His hair is still wet from showering after the game. I’m on the couch with my friends Lucas Krapf and Pammy Subkoff, and they’re flipping through the latest issue of Teen Vogue, debating whether or not Pammy should get bangs. “What do you think, Lara Jean?” Pammy asks, running her fingers through her carrot-colored hair. Pammy is a new friend—I’ve gotten to know her because she dates Peter’s good friend Darrell. She has a face like a doll, round as a cake pan, and freckles dust her face and shoulders like sprinkles. “Um, I think bangs are a very big commitment and not to be decided on a whim. Depending on how fast your hair grows, you could be growing them out for a year or more. But if you’re serious, I think you should wait till fall, because it’ll be summer before you know it, and bangs in the summer can be sort of sticky and sweaty and annoying. . . .” My eyes drift back to Peter, and he looks up and sees me looking at him, and raises his eyebrows questioningly. I just smile and shake my head. “So don’t get bangs?” My phone buzzes in my purse. It’s Peter. Do you want to go? No. Then why were you staring at me? Because I felt like it. Lucas is reading over my shoulder. I push him away, and he shakes his head and says, “Are you guys really texting each other when you’re only twenty feet away?” Pammy crinkles up her nose and says, “So adorable.” I’m about to answer them when I look up and see Peter sweeping across the room toward me with purpose. “Time to get my girl home,” he says. “What time is it?” I say. “Is it that late already?” Peter’s hoisting me off the couch and helping me into my jacket. Then he pulls me by the hand and leads me through Gabe’s living room. Looking over my shoulder, I wave and call out, “Bye, Lucas! Bye, Pammy! For the record, I think you would look great with bangs!” “Why are you walking so fast?” I ask as Peter marches me through the front yard to the curb where his car is parked. He stops in front of the car, pulls me toward him, and kisses me, all in one fast motion. “I can’t concentrate on my cards when you stare at me like that, Covey.” “Sorry,” I start to say, but he is kissing me again, his hands firm on my back. When we’re in his car, I look at the dashboard and see that it’s only midnight. I say, “I still have an hour until I have to be home. What should we do?” Of the people we know, I’m the only one with an actual curfew. When the clock strikes one o’clock, I turn into a pumpkin. Everyone is used to it by now: Peter Kavinsky’s Goody Two-shoes girlfriend who has to be home by one. I’ve never once minded having a curfew. Because truly, it’s not like I’m missing out on anything so wonderful—and what’s that old saying? Nothing good happens after two a.m. Unless you happen to be a fan of watching people play flip cup for hours on end. Not me. No, I’d much prefer to be in my flannel pajamas with a cup of Night-Night tea and a book, thank you very much. “Let’s just go to your house. I want to come inside and say hi to your dad and hang out for a bit. We could watch the rest of Aliens.” Peter and I have been working our way down our movie list, which consists of my picks (favorite movies of mine that he’s never seen), his picks, (favorite movies of his that I’ve never seen), and movies neither of us have seen. Aliens was Peter’s pick, and it’s turning out to be quite good. And even though once upon a time Peter claimed he didn’t like rom coms, he was very into Sleepless in Seattle, which I was relieved for, because I just don’t see how I could be with someone who doesn’t like Sleepless in Seattle. “Let’s not go home yet,” I say. “Let’s go somewhere.” Peter thinks about it for a minute, tapping his fingers on the steering wheel, and then he says, “I know where we can go.” “Where?” “Wait and see,” he says, and he puts the windows down, and the crisp night air fills the car. I lean back into my seat. The streets are empty; the lights are off in most of the houses. “Let me guess. We’re going to the diner because you want blueberry pancakes.” “Nope.” “Hmm. It’s too late to go to Starbucks, and Biscuit Soul Food is closed.” “Hey, food isn’t the only thing I think about,” he objects. Then: “Are there any cookies left in that Tupperware?” “They’re all gone, but I might have some more at home, if Kitty didn’t eat them all.” I dip my arm out the window and let it hang. Not many more nights left like these, where it’s cool enough to need a jacket. I look at Peter’s profile out of the corner of my eye. Sometimes I still can’t believe he’s mine. The handsomest boy of all the handsome boys is mine, all mine. “What?” he says. “Nothing,” I say. Ten minutes later, we are driving onto the University of Virginia campus, only nobody calls it campus; they call it Grounds. Peter parks along the side of the street. It’s quiet for a Friday night in a college town, but it’s UVA’s spring break, so a lot of kids are still gone. We’re walking across the lawn, his hand in mine, when I’m hit with a sudden wave of panic. I stop short and ask, “Hey, you don’t think it’s bad luck for me to come here before I’m actually in, do you?” Peter laughs. “It’s not a wedding. You’re not marrying UVA.” “Easy for you to say, you’re already in.” Peter gave a verbal commitment to the UVA lacrosse team last year, and then he applied early action in the fall. Like with most college athletes, he was all but in, so long as his grades stayed decent. When he got the official yes back in January, his mom threw a party for him and I baked a cake that said, I’m taking my talents to UVA in yellow frosting. Peter pulls me by the hand and says, “Come on, Covey. We make our own luck. Besides, we were here two months ago for that thing at the Miller Center.” I relax. “Oh, yeah.” We continue our walk across the lawn. I know where we’re going now. To the Rotunda, to sit on the steps. The Rotunda was designed by Thomas Jefferson, who founded the school, and he modeled it after the Pantheon, with its white columns and big domed top. Peter runs up the brick steps Rocky-style and plops down. I sit down in front of him, leaning back and resting my arms on the tops of his knees. “Did you know,” I begin, “that one of the things that makes UVA unique is that the center of the school, right there inside the Rotunda, is a library and not a church? It’s because Jefferson believed in the separation between school and church.” “Did you read that in the brochure?” Peter teases, planting a kiss on my neck. Dreamily, I say, “I learned it when I went on the tour last year.” “You didn’t tell me you went on a tour. Why would you go on a tour when you’re from here? You’ve been here a million times!” He’s right that I’ve been here a million times—I grew up going here with my family. When my mom was still alive, we’d go see the Hullabahoos perform because my mom loved a cappella. We had our family portrait taken on the lawn. On sunny days after church, we’d come picnic out here. I twist around to look at Peter. “I went on the tour because I wanted to know everything about UVA! Stuff I wouldn’t know just by living around here. Like, do you know what year they let women in?” He scratches the back of his neck. “Uh . . . I don’t know. When was the school founded? The early 1800s? So, 1920?” “Nope. 1970.” I turn back around and face forward, looking out onto the grounds. “After a hundred and fifty years.” Intrigued, Peter says, “Whoa. That’s crazy. Okay, tell me more facts about UVA.” “UVA is America’s only collegiate World Heritage UNESCO site in all of the United States,” I begin. “Never mind, don’t tell me more facts about UVA,” Peter says, and I slap him on the knee. “Tell me something else instead. Tell me what you’re looking forward to most about going to school here.” “You go first. What are you most excited about?” Right away, Peter says, “That’s easy. Streaking the lawn with you.” “That’s what you’re looking forward to more than anything? Running around naked?” Hastily I add, “I’m never doing that, by the way.” He laughs. “It’s a UVA tradition. I thought you were all about UVA traditions.” “Peter!” “I’m just kidding.” He leans forward and puts his arms around my shoulders, rubbing his nose in my neck the way he likes to do. “Your turn.” I let myself dream about it for a minute. If I get in, what am I most looking forward to? There are so many things, I can hardly name them all. I’m looking forward to eating waffles every day with Peter in the dining hall. To us sledding down O-Hill when it snows. To picnics when it’s warm. To staying up all night talking and then waking up and talking some more. To late-night laundry and last-minute road trips. To . . . everything. Finally I say, “I don’t want to jinx it.” “Come on!” “Okay, okay . . . I guess I’m most looking forward to . . . to going to the McGregor Room whenever I want.” People call it the Harry Potter room, because of the rugs and chandeliers and leather chairs and the portraits on the wall. The bookshelves go from the floor to the ceiling, and all of the books are behind metal grates, protected like the precious objects they are. It’s a room from a different time. It’s very hushed—reverential, even. There was this one summer—I must have been five or six, because it was before Kitty was born—my mom took a class at UVA, and she used to study in the McGregor Room. Margot and I would color, or read. My mom called it the magic library, because Margot and I never fought inside of it. We were both quiet as church mice; we were so in awe of all the books, and of the older kids studying. Peter looks disappointed. I’m sure it’s because he thought I would name something having to do with him. With us. But for some reason, I want to keep those hopes just for me for now. “You can come with me to the McGregor Room,” I say. “But you have to promise to be quiet.” Affectionately Peter says, “Lara Jean, only you would look forward to hanging out in a library.” Actually, judging by Pinterest alone, I’m pretty sure a lot of people would look forward to hanging out in such a beautiful library. Just not people Peter knows. He thinks I’m so quirky. I’m not planning on being the one to break the news to him that I’m actually not that quirky, that in fact lots of people like to stay home and bake cookies and scrapbook and hang out in libraries. Most of them are probably in their fifties, but still. I like the way he looks at me, like I am a wood nymph that he happened upon one day and just had to take home to keep. Peter pulls his phone out of his hoodie pocket. “It’s twelve thirty. We should go soon.” “Already?” I sigh. I like being here late at night. It feels like the whole place is ours. In my heart, it was always UVA. I’ve never really expected to go anywhere else, or even really thought about it. I was going to apply early when Peter did, but my guidance counselor, Mrs. Duvall, advised me against applying early action, because she said it would be better to wait so they could see my senior mid-year grades. According to Mrs. Duvall, it’s always best to apply at your peak moment. And so I ended up applying to five schools. At first it was just going to be UVA, the hardest to get into and only fifteen minutes from home; William and Mary, the second hardest to get into and also my second choice (two hours away); and then University of Richmond and James Madison, both only an hour away, in a tie for third choice. All in state. But then Mrs. Duvall urged me to apply to just one out-of-state school, just in case, just to have the option—so I applied to the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill. It’s really hard to get into out-of-states, but I picked it because it reminds me of UVA. It has a strong liberal arts program, and it’s not too far away, close enough to come home in a hurry if I needed to. But if I had the choice, I would still pick UVA every time. I’ve never wanted to be far from home. I’m not like my big sister. Going far away, that was her dream. She’s always wanted the world. I just want home, and for me, UVA is home, which is why it’s the college I’ve measured all other colleges against. The perfect storybook campus, the perfect everything. And, of course, Peter. We stay a bit longer, me telling Peter more facts about UVA and Peter making fun of me for knowing so many facts about UVA. Then he drives me home. It’s nearly one a.m. when we pull up in front of my house. The downstairs lights are all off, but my dad’s bedroom light is on. He never goes to bed until I’m home. I’m about to hop out when Peter reaches across me and stops me from opening the door. “Give me my good-night kiss,” he says. I laugh. “Peter! I have to go.” Stubbornly he closes his eyes and waits, and I lean forward and plant a quick kiss on his lips. “There. Satisfied?” “No.” He kisses me again like we have all the time in the world and says, “What would happen if I came back after everyone went to sleep, and I spent the night, and left really early in the morning? Like, before dawn?” Smiling, I say, “You can’t, so we’ll never know.” “But what if?” “My dad would kill me.” “No, he wouldn’t.” “He’d kill you.” “No, he wouldn’t.” “No, he wouldn’t,” I agree. “But he’d be pretty disappointed in me. And he’d be mad at you.” “Only if we got caught,” Peter says, but it’s halfhearted. He won’t risk it either. He’s too careful about staying in my dad’s good graces. “You know what I’m really looking forward to the most?” He gives my braid a tug before saying, “Not having to say good night. I hate saying good night.” “Me too,” I say. “I can’t wait until we’re at college.” “Me too,” I say, and I kiss him one more time before jumping out of the car and running toward my house. On the way, I look up at the moon, at all the stars that cover the night sky like a blanket, and I make a wish. Dear God, please, please let me get into UVA.

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