Helen Vardon's Confession by R Austin Freeman

Helen Vardon's Confession

byR Austin Freeman

Kobo ebook | November 16, 2013

Pricing and Purchase Info


Prices and offers may vary in store

Available for download

Not available in stores


To every woman there comes a day (and that all too soon) when she

receives the first hint that Time, the harvester, has not passed her by

unnoticed. The waning of actual youth may have passed with but the

faintest regret, if any; regret for the lost bud being merged in the

triumph at the glory of the opening blossom. But the waning of womanhood

is another matter. Old age has no compensations to offer for those

delights that it steals away. At least, that is what I understand from

those who know, for I must still speak on the subject from hearsay,

having received from Father Time but the very faintest and most delicate

hint on the subject.


I was sitting at my dressing-table brushing out my hair, which is of a

docile habit, though a thought bulky, when amidst the black tress--

blacker than it used to be when I was a girl--I noticed a single white

hair. It was the first that I had seen, and I looked at it dubiously,

picking it out from its fellows to see if it were all white, and noticing

how like it was to a thread of glass. Should I pluck it out and pretend

that it was never there? Or should I, more thriftily--for a hair is a

hair after all, and enough of them will make a wig--should I dye it and

hush up its treason?


I smiled at the foolish thought. What a to-do about a single white hair!

I have seen girls in their twenties with snow-white hair and looking as

sweet as lavender. As to this one, I would think of it as a souvenir from

the troubled past rather than a harbinger of approaching age; and with

this I swept my brush over it and buried it even as I had buried those

sorrows and those dreadful experiences which might have left me

white-headed years before.


But that glassy thread, buried once more amid the black, left a legacy of

suggestion. Those hideous days were long past now. I could look back on

them unmoved--nay, with a certain serene interest. Suppose I should

write the history of them? Why not? To write is not necessarily to

publish. And if, perchance, no eye but mine shall see these lines until

the little taper of my life has burned down into its socket, then what

matters it to me whether praise or blame, sympathy or condemnation, be my

portion. Posterity has no gifts to offer that I need court its suffrages.

Title:Helen Vardon's ConfessionFormat:Kobo ebookPublished:November 16, 2013Publisher:WDS PublishingLanguage:English

The following ISBNs are associated with this title: