Himself: A Novel by Jess KiddHimself: A Novel by Jess Kidd

Himself: A Novel

byJess Kidd

Paperback | October 10, 2017

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A charming ne’er-do-well returns to his haunted Irish hometown to uncover the truth about his mother in this “supernaturally skilled debut” (Vanity Fair) and turns the town—and his life—upside down.

Having been abandoned at an orphanage as a baby, Mahony assumed all his life that his mother wanted nothing to do with him. That is, until one night in 1976 while drinking a pint at a Dublin pub, he receives an anonymous note implying that she may have been forced to give him up. Determined to find out what really happened, Mahony embarks on a pilgrimage back to his hometown, the rural village of Mulderrig. Neither he nor Mulderrig can possibly prepare for what’s in store…

From the moment he arrives, Mahony’s presence completely changes the village. Women fall all over themselves. The real and the fantastic are blurred. Chatty ghosts rise from their graves with secrets to tell, and local preacher Father Quinn will do anything to get rid of the slippery young man who is threatening the moral purity of his parish.

A spectacular new addition to the grand Irish storytelling tradition, Himself “is a darkly comic tale of murder, intrigue, haunting and illegitimacy…wickedly funny” (Daily Express).
Title:Himself: A NovelFormat:PaperbackDimensions:384 pages, 8.25 × 5.31 × 1 inPublished:October 10, 2017Publisher:Washington Square PressLanguage:English

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ISBN - 10:1501145185

ISBN - 13:9781501145186

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Rated 4 out of 5 by from Enjoyable read, great characters This book was funny and interesting. A whodunit in a small town where gossip and truth mix often. Except for a bit of a rushed romance, it was a happy read with good characters. I'm glad I picked up this book.
Date published: 2018-01-18
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Pure whimsy! I LOVED this story of Mahony and how he takes on the small Irish town of Mulderrig to find his mother's killer. This woman is a true story teller and some of my favourite aspects of it were the language--so lyrical, you could hear the people saying their lines--and how everything, from the tea kettle to the river water is personified some way or another. It literally brought the book to life, which is a direct contrast to the theme of the novel (Mahony's dead mother) and the fact the dead pepper this story with their own touches of insight. I liked the fact there were ghosts among the living in this book. It added a depth and magic to it that really brought the whole thing home for me. The mystery of the killer, the mother, the town (a character in itself) and who Mahony's father is was well-written and well told, with thoughtful and three-dimensional players. Well done, Himself.
Date published: 2017-10-08
Rated 2 out of 5 by from Not worth the hype For whatever reason, I had incredible difficulty getting through this book. It had a bit of a storytelling feel to it with the fantastical aspects but otherwise left me with nothing to write home about. At times I chuckled, what with the many fart references, but I was mostly confused with the number of characters, how they related to one another and whether or not they were dead or alive. Overall, this was a disappointment.
Date published: 2017-06-24
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Great Book! I enjoyed this book. I loved the way it combined a murder mystery and crime with supernatural elements, without it feeling hokey. The characters were also very intriguing. But, any book set in Ireland is sure to steal my heart :)
Date published: 2017-06-16
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Beautiful. What a story! Great addition to your library.
Date published: 2017-04-24
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Amazing I was really impressed with this book.
Date published: 2017-04-22
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Excellent book I found this book to be so enjoyable it was so creative and I loved the main character. Really recommend it #plumreview
Date published: 2017-04-19
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Creative and compelling! Himself is such a good read! The mystery is well plotted and the characters are well developed - I particularly liked two distinctive ladies who, in my opinion, steal the show.
Date published: 2017-04-11
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Really good An interesting book to read. I really enjoyed it!
Date published: 2017-04-04

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Himself 1 April 1976 Mahony shoulders his rucksack, steps off the bus, and stands in the dead center of the village of Mulderrig. Today Mulderrig is just a benign little speck of a place, uncoiled and sprawling, stretched out in the sun. Pretending to be harmless. If Mahony could remember the place, which he can’t of course, he’d not notice many changes since he’s been gone. Mulderrig doesn’t change, fast or slowly. Twenty-six years makes no odds. For Mulderrig is a place like no other. Here the colors are a little bit brighter and the sky is a little bit wider. Here the trees are as old as the mountains and a clear river runs into the sea. People are born to live and stay and die here. They don’t want to go. Why would they when all the roads that lead to Mulderrig are downhill so that leaving is uphill all the way? At this time of the day the few shops are shuttered and closed, and the signs swing with an after-hours lilt and pitch, and the sun-warmed shop front letters bloom and fade. Up and down the high street, from Adair’s Pharmacy to Farr’s Outfitters, from the offices of Gibbons & McGrath Solicitors to the Post Office and General Store, all is quiet. A couple of old ones are sitting by the painted pump in the middle of the square. You’ll get no talk from them today: they are struck dumb by the weather, for it hasn’t rained for days and days and days. It’s the hottest April in living and dead memory. So hot that the crows are flying with their tongues hanging out of their heads. The driver nods to Mahony. “It’s as if a hundred summers have come at once to the town, when a mile along the coast the rain’s hopping up off the ground and there’s a wind that would freeze the tits off a hen. If you ask me,” says the driver, “it all spells a dose of trouble.” Mahony watches the bus turn out of the square in a broiling cloud of dirt. It rolls back, passengerless, across the narrow stone bridge that spans a listless river. In this weather anything that moves will be netted in a fine caul of dust. Although not much is moving now, other than a straggle of kids pelting home late, leaving their clear cries ringing behind. The mammies are inside making the tea and the daddies are inside waiting to go out for a jar. And so Tadhg Kerrigan is the first living soul in the village to see Mahony back. Tadhg is propping up the saloon door of Kerrigan’s Bar having changed a difficult barrel and threatened a cellar rat with his deadly tongue. He is setting his red face up to catch a drop of sun while scratching his arse with serious intent. He has been thinking of the Widow Farelly, of her new-built bungalow, the prodigious whiteness of her net curtains and the pigeon plumpness of her chest. Tadhg gives Mahony a good hard stare across the square as he walks over to the bar. With looks like that, thinks Tadhg, the fella is either a poet or a gobshite, with the long hair and the leather jacket and the walk on it, like his doesn’t smell. “All right so?” “I’m grand,” says Mahony, putting his rucksack down and smiling up through his hair, an unwashed variety that’s grown past his ears and then some. Tadhg decides that this fella is most definitely a gobshite. Whether the dead of Mulderrig agree or not it’s difficult to tell, but they begin to look out cautiously from bedroom windows or drift faintly down the back lanes to stop short and stare. For the dead are always close by in a life like Mahony’s. The dead are drawn to the confused and the unwritten, the damaged and the fractured, to those with big cracks and gaps in their tales, which the dead just yearn to fill. For the dead have secondhand stories to share with you, if you’d only let them get a foot in the door. But the dead can watch. And they can wait. For Mahony doesn’t see them now. He stopped seeing them a long time ago. Now the dead are confined to a brief scud across the room at lights-out, or a wobble now and then in his peripheral vision. Now Mahony can ignore them in much the same way as you’d ignore the ticks of an over-loud grandfather clock. So Mahony pays no notice at all to the dead old woman pushing her face through the wall next to Tadhg’s right elbow. And Tadhg pays no notice either, for, like the rest of us, he is blessed with a blissful lack of vision. The dead old woman opens a pair of briny eyes as round as vinegar eggs and looks at Mahony, and Mahony looks away, smiling full into Tadhg’s big face. “So are there any digs about the town, pal?” “There’s no work here.” Tadhg crosses his arms high on his chest and sniffs woefully. Mahony produces a half pack of cigarettes from his jacket pocket and Tadhg takes one. They stand smoking awhile, Tadhg with his eyes narrowed against the sun, Mahony with a shadow of a smile on his face. The dead old woman slips out a good few inches above the pavement and points enigmatically down towards the cellar, muttering darkly. Mahony increases his smile to show his teeth in an expression of considerable natural charm altogether capable of beguiling the hardest bastard of humankind. “Well, the last thing I need is work. I’m taking a break from the city.” “It’s the city, is it?” The dead old woman draws close enough to whisper in Mahony’s ear. Mahony takes a drag and then exhales. “It is. With the noise and the cars and the rats.” “Rats, are there?” Tadhg narrows his eyes. “As big as sheep.” Tadhg is outwardly unmoved, although he sympathizes deep in his soul. “Rats are a very great problem in the world,” he says sagely. “They are in Dublin.” “So what brought you here?” “I wanted a bit of peace and quiet. Do you know on the map there’s nothing at all around you?” “It’s the arse end of beyond you’re after then?” Mahony looks thoughtful. “Do you know? I think it is.” “Well, you’ve found it. You’re on the run in the Wild West?” “Seems so.” “A lady or the law?” Mahony takes his cigarette out of his mouth and flicks it in the direction of the dead old woman, who throws a profoundly disgusted look at him. She lifts her filmy skirts and flits back through the wall of the pub. “She was no lady.” Tadhg’s face twitches as he curbs a smile. “What are we calling you?” “Mahony.” Tadhg notes a good firm handshake. “Mahony it is then.” “So will I find a bed tonight or will I have to curl up with those antiques on the bench there?” Tadhg withholds a fart, just while he’s thinking. “Shauna Burke rents out rooms to paying guests at Rathmore House up in the forest. That’s about it.” “That’d be grand.” Tadhg takes a thorough glance at Mahony. He’ll admit that he has a sort of bearing about him. He’s not a bad height and he’s strong looking, handy even. He’s been into his twenties and he’ll come out again the other side none the worse for it; he has the kind of face that will stay young. But he could do with a wash; he has the stubble of days on his chin. And his trousers are ridiculous: tight around the crotch and wide enough at the bottom to mop the main road. Tadhg nods at them. “They’re all the rage now? Them trousers?” “They are, yeah.” “Do you not feel like a bit of an eejit wearing them?” Mahony smiles. “They all wear ’em in town. There’s wider.” Tadhg raises his eyebrows a fraction. “Is there now? Well, you wouldn’t want to be caught in a gust of wind.” Tadhg can see that the girls would be falling over themselves if this fella ever had the notion to shave himself or pick up a bar of soap. And Mahony knows it too. It’s there in the curve of his smile and the light in his dark eyes. It’s in the way he moves, like he owns every inch of himself. Tadhg stakes a smile. “You’ll need to watch the other guest who lives up there, Mrs. Cauley. The woman’s titanic.” “After what I’ve been afflicted with I’m sure I can handle her.” And Mahony turns his laughing eyes up to Tadhg. Now Tadhg is not a man given to remarkable insights but he is suddenly certain of two things. One: that he’s seen those eyes before. Two: that he is almost certainly having a stroke. For the blood inside Tadhg has begun to belt around his body for the first time in a very long time and he knows that it can’t be good to stir up a system that has been sumping and rusting to a comfortable dodder. Tadhg puts his hands over his face and leans heavily against the saloon door. He can almost feel a big fecker of a blood clot hurtling towards his brain to knock him clean out of the living world. “Are you all right, pal?” Tadhg opens his eyes. The fella who is having a break from Dublin is frowning up at him. Tadhg reels off a silent prayer against the darkest of Mulderrig’s dark dreams. He takes a handkerchief from his pocket and wipes his forehead. And as the hairs settle on the back of his neck he tells himself that this fella is really no more than a stranger. Whatever he thought he saw in his face has gone. In front of him is a Dublin hippy passing through the arse end of beyond. “Are you all right?” Tadhg nods. “I am, of course.” The stranger smiles. “You open? I could do time for a pint.” “Come inside now,” Tadhg says, and resolutely decides to lay off the sunshine. Luckily the sun has a desperate struggle to get in through the windows of Kerrigan’s Bar, but if it can seep through the smoky curtains it can alight on the sticky dark wood tables. Or it can work up a dull shine on the horse brasses by the side of the fire, unlit and full of crisp packets. Or it can bathe the pint of stout in Sergeant Jack Brophy’s hand to an even richer, warmer hue. “Jack, this is Mahony.” Mahony puts his rucksack by the door. Jack turns to look at him. He nods. “Get the man a pint, Tadhg. Here, Mahony, sit by me.” Mahony sits down next to Jack, a strong square wall of a man, and, like all mortals, he begins to feel soothed. Mahony isn’t to know that Jack has this effect on the mad, the bad, the imaginative, and skittish horses, whether off duty or on. Ask anyone and they will tell you it’s what makes Jack a good cop—a great guard. For here he is working his stretch of the coast, sorting out the wicked, the misjudged, and the maligned without having to once raise his voice. Tadhg puts a pint in front of Mahony. “Now, tell me about it,” says Jack, barely moving his lips. Mahony could tell him about it. Mahony could start by telling Jack what happened last Thursday. Last Thursday, Father Gerard McNamara walked into the Bridge Tavern with a black leather folio in his hand and an envelope inside the folio. He was seeking one of St. Anthony’s most notorious alumni and had started by visiting the bars within a one-mile radius of the orphanage. For Father McNamara was heeding the advice of the local guards along with the principle that a rotten apple doesn’t fall far from the tree; it usually lands and festers right next to it. Mahony was emanating from the jacks with a cigarette in his mouth as Father McNamara came round the side of the bar. “I’ll have a word with you, Mahony.” Mahony took out his cigarette and squinted at the priest. “Sit yourself down, have a drink with me, Father.” The priest threw Mahony a caustic look, put the folio on the bar, and unzipped it. Mahony pulled himself back up onto his stool and took hold of his pint with serious dedication. “Ah, excuse me, I didn’t shake your hand, did I, Father? You see I’ve just touched something far from godly but just as capable of inflicting bliss.” Jim behind the bar grinned. Father McNamara extracted the envelope from his folio. “Sister Veronica passed away. She asked for this to be given to you.” Mahony looked at the letter on the bar. “Have you got the right man, Father? Sister Veronica wasn’t exactly head of me fan club now, was she? Why would she be leaving me anything? God rest her pure and caring soul.” Father McNamara shrugged. He didn’t give a shite; he just wanted to get out of the pub. Mahony watched Father McNamara zip up his leather folio, put it under his arm, and walk back out through the saloon door into the weak Dublin sunshine. Mahony finished his pint, ordered another, and looked at the envelope. Then he found himself remembering. He was no more than six. Sister Veronica said that there wasn’t a letter left with him. Wasn’t he a little bastard that no one wanted and why would anyone be writing letters for him? Sister Veronica said that his mammy was too busy working the docks to write. Sister Veronica said that his mammy had only brought him to the nuns instead of drowning him because she couldn’t find a bucket. But Sister Mary Margaret had told Mahony a different story, while she had taught him to hold a pencil and form his letters, and recognize all the major saints and many of the minor ones. Once upon a time Sister Mary Margaret had answered a loud knocking at the door of the orphanage. It was very early one morning, before the city was awake. All the pigeons had their heads tucked under their wings and all the rats were curled up tight behind the dustbins. All the cars and lorries were asleep in their garages and depots, and all the trains slumbered on their tracks at Connolly Station. All the boats bobbed gently in the harbor, dreaming of the high seas, and all the bicycles slept leaning along the fences. Even the angels were asleep at the foot of the O’Connell Monument, fluttering their wings as they dreamt, quite forgetting to hold still and pretend to be statues. The whole wide city was asleep when Sister Mary Margaret opened the door of the orphanage. And there, on the steps, was a baby. Of all the things in the world! A baby in a basket, with a quilt of leaves and a pillow of rose petals. A baby in a basket, just like Moses! The baby had looked up at Sister Mary Margaret with two bright eyes and smiled at her. And she had smiled right back. Mahony clung on to the bar. He couldn’t light a cigarette or pick up his pint, he couldn’t move, the sweat was pouring off him. He closed his eyes and right there in his memory he found Sister Mary Margaret, as she was the last time he saw her. He was not even seven. At first he had held back from climbing up, for fear that he would break her. But Sister Mary Margaret had smiled down at him, so he scaled the arctic landscape of the bed. Without that smile he wouldn’t have known her. Sister Mary Margaret had a cancer the size of a man’s head in her stomach and was as good as dead under the ground. That’s what they had told him but he’d come to see for himself. He sat next to Sister Mary Margaret and let her wipe his nose with her handkerchief although he was too old for it. It took her hours because she kept falling asleep. He had wished to God that he wasn’t trailing great lanes of snot. But Mahony always had a cold from the fact that the tops of his fingers were often blue and his socks were never quite dry. She had looked at him with her shrunken face on one side and he’d looked back at the ridge of her eye bone. “A letter was left with you,” she whispered. “Sister Veronica took it.” But then Sister Dymphna appeared and gave him a fierce slap and marched him out of the sanatorium. Mahony wiped his eyes and glanced around the bar; the drinkers were sculling through their own thoughts and the barman had gone to change a barrel. He was safe. He looked at the envelope in his hand. For when the child is grown. A good solid schoolteacherly hand, slanted in all the right places. On the back of the envelope was a seal of sorts. A tiny medal of wax stamped with the shape of some old coin or other. He liked that: Sister Veronica had kept it back from him but she hadn’t opened it. Mahony broke the seal. Mahony will tell you to his dying day that the arse fell out of the barstool just after he opened that envelope. Then the barstool fell through the floor and the whole world turned itself about. But then, when Mahony looked around himself, everything was exactly the same. The same smeared mirrors over the same dirty seats. The same sad bastards falling into their glasses and the same smell crawling out of the gents. Inside the envelope was a photograph of a girl with a half smile holding a blurred bundle, high and awkwardly, like found treasure. Mahony turned it over and the good solid schoolteacherly hand dealt him a left hook. Your name is Francis Sweeney. Your mammy was Orla Sweeney. You are from Mulderrig, Co. Mayo. This is a picture of yourself and her. For your information she was the curse of the town, so they took her from you. They all lie, so watch yourself, and know that your mammy loved you. His mammy had loved him. Past tense. Mammy was past tense. They took her from him. Where did they take her? Mahony turned over the photograph and studied her face. God, she looked young. He would have put her as his sister rather. She couldn’t have been more than fourteen. And his name was Francis. He’d keep that to himself. Mahony lit a smoke and turned to the drinker next to him. “Paddy, have you been to Mayo?” “I haven’t,” Paddy said, without lifting his chin from his chest. Mahony frowned. “Jim, what’s in Mayo?” Jim put down the tea towel. “I’m fucked if I know. Why?” “I’m going to take a trip there, see how the land lies.” “Grand so.” Mahony stood unsteadily and picked up his lighter. “I’m going. I am, Jim. Fuck it. What have I got to keep me here?” He included the bar with a wave of his cig. “Nothin’—name one thing.” “Parole,” said Paddy to his navel. Mahony takes a taste of his pint and watches as Jack Brophy rolls a cigarette, deftly, with one hand. A hand as strong as a tree root, brown and calloused with big square cracked nails and deep gouged old scars. Mahony watches Jack and feels his brain slow a little. He breathes in tobacco, good soil, driving rain, calm sun, and fresh air off the broad back of the quiet man. Still. He’ll tell Jack nothing of what happened last Thursday. Mahony smiles. “The truth is I’ve come here to get away from it all.” A collie noses out from behind the bar. When it turns its head Mahony sees that it only has one good eye, the other rests messily on the dog’s cheek. Its ribs are caved in, leaving a dark sticky ditch. A dog that broken would have to be dead, and of course it is, fuck it. Mahony sucks air in through his teeth and looks away. The dead dog turns to lick Jack’s hand, which trails down holding his cigarette, but its muzzle goes straight through and the dog, finding no response, folds itself up at the foot of his master’s bar stool and rests the good side of its face on its faint paws. Mahony studies his pint. “All I really want,” he says, “is a bit of peace and quiet.” Sometimes a man is in no way honest. “Aye,” says Jack. The word is little more than an exhalation of air. “So that’s it?” Mahony feels no malice. He could tell them, ask them; he could start right here. The two men look at him. Mahony picks up his pint. “That’s my story. I have no other.”

Editorial Reviews

“In her exceptional debut novel, Kidd explores the dark corners of the human mind in small-town 1970s Ireland...A murder mystery on the surface, the story digs past the traditional who-dunit structure to paint a rich portrait of village life..The plot hurtles along in a rapid pace, leading inexorably to the heart-pounding final conflict. Kidd injects ample doses of macabre humor and lyrical description in this memorable story from a strange, bold new voice.”