I Was Here by Gayle FormanI Was Here by Gayle Forman

I Was Here

byGayle Forman

Paperback | January 26, 2016

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The newest heartwrenchingly powerful novel from the bestelling author of IF I STAY.
When her best friend Meg drinks a bottle of industrial-strength cleaner alone in a motel room, Cody is understandably shocked and devastated. She and Meg shared everything—so how was there no warning? But when Cody travels to Meg’s college town to pack up the belongings left behind, she discovers that there’s a lot that Meg never told her. About her old roommates, the sort of people Cody never would have met in her dead-end small town in Washington. About Ben McAllister, the boy with a guitar and a sneer, and some secrets of his own. And about an encrypted computer file that Cody can’t open—until she does, and suddenly everything Cody thought she knew about her best friend’s death gets thrown into question.
I Was Here is Gayle Forman at her finest, a taut, emotional, and ultimately redemptive story about redefining the meaning of family and finding a way to move forward even in the face of unspeakable loss.
Gayle Forman is an award-winning, internationally bestselling author and journalist. She is the author of Just One Day and Just One Year, and the companion e-novella Just One Night, as well as the New York Times bestsellers If I Stay--which was made into a major motion picture of the same name--and Where She Went. She lives in Brooklyn...
Title:I Was HereFormat:PaperbackDimensions:304 pages, 8.25 × 5.44 × 0.79 inPublished:January 26, 2016Publisher:Penguin Young Readers GroupLanguage:English

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ISBN - 10:0147514037

ISBN - 13:9780147514035


Rated 5 out of 5 by from Love This book was amazing. I read it in 2 days, and I was completely hooked to it. It kept me on my toes throughout the whole book. Wish there was a sequel to it.
Date published: 2018-08-29
Rated 5 out of 5 by from SIMPLY CAPTIVATING Once I picked up this book I could not put it down.
Date published: 2018-03-28
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Perfection This book was perfection, I really enjoyed reading it
Date published: 2018-01-14
Rated 5 out of 5 by from so good I finished this one in less then 6 hours I couldn't get enough
Date published: 2017-09-15
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Hooked Such a sad book, the mystery in it added an interesting aspect. Did not like the romance though, it was not needed and it felt... weird.
Date published: 2017-07-31
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Liked it This one roped me in from the very beginning, which is always a good way to start. What could have been a simple story of a friend's suicide became muddled with new evidence through each chapter. I really enjoyed the pace of the book, and the story was very much real and relatable.
Date published: 2017-07-03
Rated 2 out of 5 by from Do Not Be Fooled By Pretty Cover *WARNING: This book includes the topic of suicide. May be triggering. Read with caution* “How long has this decision been coming without her telling me? And more to the point, why didn’t she tell me?” Meg has killed herself. Cody is mad at her for doing that. Cody goes on too many road trips to fail to discover what I could tell her. YOU WEREN’T EVEN BEST FRIENDS. I can’t even summarize all the things I hated about this book. Cover Appeal: 5/5 This beautiful cover. Yeah. It lies. It is the only reason I bought the book in the freaking first place. Don’t believe its lies. Characters: 0.000000001/5 Major lack of development. Considering my favourite characters were side characters like Stoner Richard or Meg’s ten-year-old brother, I think the main characters fell so short of the mark that they are 6 feet under. RIP. Also a side note: I found it very unimaginative that Cody falls for Meg’s ex. It bothers me even more so when, after they hook up, she feels like second pick because he had hooked up with her first. How about the fact that he is a person with feelings, not a prized stud. He has feelings for you. Deal with it, don’t fly away. (See my review of Sweet Evil for rants about flying away.) Plot: 1/5 I just can’t. Like why. The worst part was finding out that Meg’s online suicide cheerleader was some old ugly guy with a kid of his own. It was so anti climactic and pointless that I felt cheated of the time I spent reading the book. Enjoyability: 0/5 When I first read this book, I tricked myself into believing I had actually enjoyed it. Much like the survivors of Stockholm Syndrome, it took some ranting with Kels to understand how much this book made my brain vomit. Profusely. KH Rating: 2/5
Date published: 2017-06-27
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Enjoyed it so much Not entirely what I was expecting when I started it, but great read. The ending, while predictable, wouldn't have been better any other way - and there were definite aspects that weren't predictable as well. Definitely a good read for everyone, even though suicide can be a hard issue to talk about, read, discuss, and think about - it is an issue. And it does need to be out in the open. A work of fiction, but so many truths in it. So much that needs to be shared.
Date published: 2017-06-16
Rated 5 out of 5 by from loved it! So so heartbreaking, but also full of hope.
Date published: 2017-03-30
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Very good Loved, loved, loved this book, so heart wrenching
Date published: 2017-03-13
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Loved it! I thought this was Forman's best book, and I am looking forward to reading her newest release!
Date published: 2017-03-04
Rated 3 out of 5 by from It was pretty good I did enjoy this book but not as much as some of gayle formans others
Date published: 2017-02-02
Rated 5 out of 5 by from A Must Read This book was just so amazing! Gayle Forman is one of my favorite authors and all her books are so great but this was by far my favorite.
Date published: 2017-02-02
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Can't wait to read! I've heard this book was great and i look forward to reading it!
Date published: 2017-01-26
Rated 3 out of 5 by from I Was Here I read this one because I loved the If I Stay series. I didn't like this one as much.
Date published: 2017-01-20
Rated 5 out of 5 by from An absolute must read! I read If I Stay, and absolutely loved the movie, so when I saw this I knew I had to read it. It was heart wrenching! By the end of the book, I just had to visit my best friend and give her the biggest hug I've ever given anyone. Such a great, but sad, book
Date published: 2017-01-15
Rated 3 out of 5 by from I Was Here by Gayle Forman This book was so emotional! The only thing that I really didn't like about it was the romance. It was a major turn off for me, but other than that this book was fantastic, but sad, oh so very sad.Suicide is a very popular topic in the young adult genre, and normally a topic I stay away from. But when I saw this book with the pretty cover I couldn’t resist.
Date published: 2017-01-13
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Heart Wrenching This book is so touching it grabs your heart and doesn't let go. There are so many moments when all you can do is just feel. Feel happiness, sadness, guilt, anxiety. I absolutely loved it and would recommend any of Gayle Forman's books. Unfortunately with this book i was disappointed to see an underlying story that was not about the girls' friendship.
Date published: 2017-01-02
Rated 3 out of 5 by from Liked it I liked this book, just not as much as Gayle Forman's other books
Date published: 2016-12-28
Rated 3 out of 5 by from Liked it One of Gayle Forman's better writing but not her best. Did make me emotional though so bonus points for that
Date published: 2016-12-25
Rated 3 out of 5 by from 3.5 Stars! Intriguing! This book deals with the very serious subject matter of teen suicide and the affects that it has on those left behind, such as parents, friends, acquaintances. The book is narrated by “Cody”, the best friend, and the plot involves her struggle to grieve and to rid herself of guilt, while at the same time trying to uncover the “why” of it all. The story is written in a very real way. There is no gloss or glamour. The characters are flawed and must endure other hardships than just the main plot. All in all, although the story is about a dark issue, I think the author does well to show the importance of hope and self forgiveness by the end of the story. I think this is definitely worth a read, especially for all those young adults out there.
Date published: 2016-08-27
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Could have been stronger sans romance! It wasn't until I read the author's note at the end about basing her story off of a real person named Suzy Gonzalez when I felt the impact of this story. I wished that it stayed completely revolved around the relationship between Cody and Meg-- the added romance from Ben was like ripping Adam from If I Stay and putting him in a new town with a new love interest. It felt forced, akward, and unecessary. BUT (and this is a big but) I found the idea of tracking down the man behind the screen at the suicide "support group" to be completely fascinating. And, to read at the end that support groups like this truly do exist and helped a real person decide to take their own life makes this story so much more important. The romance made it feel trite and the story could have shined without it. I WAS HERE would have been NO DOUBT a five star book for me without it. Cody was strong enough to be on her own, but I felt like the publisher said "Gayle Forman does tragic romance, let's throw in another hot guitar player."
Date published: 2015-08-12
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Life This book really put things into perspective of what people who deal with depression really think. There r so many teens out there and adults who suffer from some sort of depression. I would recommend this book to anyone who wants a better understanding of depression.
Date published: 2015-07-04

Read from the Book

Chapter 1The day after Meg died, I received this letter:I regret to inform you that I have had to take my own life. This decision has been a long time coming, and was mine alone to make. I know it will cause you pain, and for that I am sorry, but please know that I needed to end my own pain. This has nothing to do with you and everything to do with me. It’s not your fault.MegShe emailed copies of the letter to her parents and to me, and to the Tacoma police department, along with another note informing them which motel she was at, which room she was in, what poison she had ingested, and how her body should be safely handled. On the pillow at the motel room was another note—instructing the maid to call the police and not touch her body—along with a fifty-dollar tip.She sent the emails on a time delay. So that she would be long gone by the time we received them.Of course, I didn’t know any of that until later. So when I first read Meg’s email on the computer at our town’s public library, I thought it had to be some kind of joke. Or a hoax. So I called Meg, and when she didn’t answer, I called her parents.“Did you get Meg’s email?” I asked them.“What email?” *****

Editorial Reviews

Praise for I Was Here: "I Was Here is a pitch-perfect blend of mystery, tragedy, and romance. Gayle Forman has given us an unflinchingly honest portrait of the bravery it takes to live after devastating loss." —Stephen Chbosky, author of the #1 New York Times bestselling The Perks of Being a Wallflower“Irresistible tear-jerker” —New York Times“A heartbreaking novel about coping with loss from the bestselling author of If I Stay” —People "As she did in If I Stay, Forman offers an introspective examination of the line between life and death, and the courage it takes to persist."—Publishers Weekly, starred review“Forman sifts through Cody’s shifting psychological landscape with a sure and delicate hand, developing a character that readers will recognize themselves in. . . a relevant book as well as an absorbing one.” —BCCB, starred review "Part tautly paced mystery, part psychological study of suicide and its aftereffects. . . An engrossing and provocative look at the devastating finality of suicide, survivor's guilt, the complicated nature of responsibility and even the role of the Internet in life-and-death decisions." —Kirkus Reviews "Suicide has always been a subject in YA literature, and to her credit, Forman handles it sensitively and gracefully, raising important issues of the ethics and morality of the subject. The combination mystery and love story is sure to reach a wide readership and excite essential discussion. . . This latest offering should generate massive teen interest." —Booklist "Cody's struggle with grief and complicity is intense and affecting up until an emotional gut-punch of a conclusion. Once this compelling case is closed, what remains is a haunting, elegiac tale about enduring and understanding loss. " —The Horn Book "Teens will clamor for this latest offering from the author of If I Stay." —School Library Journal "Hugely popular Forman, author of the acclaimed If I Stay among others, has another best seller here. This novel’s strength lies in its depiction of main character Cody, a young woman torn by conflicts but sustained by her own sense of purpose." —VOYA“Takes tragedy, guilt, friendship, inspiration, heartache, and bravery and mixes them all up in a blender of feelings” —Bustle Praise for If I Stay and Where She Went: “Beautifully written.” —Entertainment Weekly “An achingly gorgeous portrayal of rejection and rekindled love.” —USA Today “A page-turner, tearjerker and romance all in one.” —BookPage   “Pitch-perfect...a moving, skillfully crafted novel.” —VOYA, starred review   Praise for Just One Day and Just One Year: “Offering mystery, drama, and an evocative portrait of unrequited love, this open-ended novel will leave fans eagerly anticipating the companion story.” —Publishers Weekly, starred review “Readers were enthralled with Forman’s If I Stay books, and now she’s captivated them again as they fall in love with her characters in Just One Day.” —NPR’s The Roundtable “As satisfying as both of these books are, readers are going to wish for a third.” —Booklist