If I Was Your Girl by Meredith RussoIf I Was Your Girl by Meredith Russo

If I Was Your Girl

byMeredith Russo

Paperback | June 26, 2018

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The award-winning, big-hearted novel about being seen for who you really are, and a love story you can't help but root for

Amanda Hardy is the new girl in school. Like anyone else, all she wants is to make friends and fit in. But Amanda is keeping a secret, and she's determined not to get too close to anyone.

But when she meets sweet, easygoing Grant, Amanda can't help but start to let him into her life. As they spend more time together, she realizes just how much she is losing by guarding her heart. She finds herself yearning to share with Grant everything about herself, including her past. But Amanda's terrified that once she tells him the truth, he won't be able to see past it.

Because the secret that Amanda's been keeping? It's that at her old school, she used to be Andrew. Will the truth cost Amanda her new life, and her new love?

Meredith Russo's If I Was Your Girl has been named:

Stonewall Book Award Winner
Walter Dean Myers Honor Book for Outstanding Children's Literature
iBooks YA Novel of the Year
A Publishers Weekly Best Book of the Year
A Kirkus Reviews Best Book of the Year
An Amazon Best Book of the Year
A Goodreads Choice Award Finalist
A Zoella Book Club Selection
A Barnes & Noble Best YA Book of the Year
A Bustle Best YA Book of the Year
An ABA IndieNext Top 10 Pick
One of Flavorwire's 50 Books Every Modern Teenager Should Read

MEREDITH RUSSO was born, raised, and lives in Tennessee. She started living as her true self in late 2013 and never looked back. If I Was Your Girl was partially inspired by her experiences as a trans woman. Like Amanda, Meredith is a gigantic nerd who spends a lot of her time obsessing over video games and Star Wars.
Title:If I Was Your GirlFormat:PaperbackDimensions:320 pages, 8.27 × 5.42 × 0.89 inPublished:June 26, 2018Publisher:Flatiron BooksLanguage:English

The following ISBNs are associated with this title:

ISBN - 10:1250078415

ISBN - 13:9781250078414

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Rated 2 out of 5 by from no. was alright enough to keep me interested enough to finish the book but not enough to pick it back up again.
Date published: 2018-08-26
Rated 2 out of 5 by from Great Representation, Awkward Execution Spoilers ahead... As I was reading If I Was Your Girl, I thought this book was a generic love story where the trans main lead and her boyfriend fell for each other way too hard, way too fast. It was pretty cheesy yet there are thousands, if not millions, of cisgender love stories as generic and insta-lovey so, why not add a trans version to the bunch? I didn't have many issues with the story and was expecting to give the book a respectable 3 star rating. I was wondering why nothing was happening for so long until the homecoming scene came up and Bee, the bisexual character, was high and angry after Amanda turned down her advances. I knew Bee was going to out Amanda in front of everyone and this would lead to some overdramatic event. And it did. Not only that, Bee outed so many closeted people from her school and called them homophobic slurs in the process. Then Amanda is stalked, assaulted, and nearly raped by a cis classmate who she rejected a while back because she was outed as trans. I don't understand why any of this was necessary. It felt cheap. It felt like it was there for the sake of drama. Bee doesn't suffer any consequences from her remarks because she never appears again. There even isn't a scene where Amanda tells Bee to fuck off. The guy who attempted to rape Amanda never gets in trouble. I felt this story could have been told differently. And before anyone accuses me of anything, I know the author is a trans woman. I know the harassment and physical/sexual assaults trans women experience aren't just potential threats, but real dangers. I know what it means for a trans author to write a book about a trans character with a trans model on it. However, If I Was Your Girl is a work of fiction. There were so many other ways of crafting this story. One other thing that seriously bothered me occurred on page 106, where Bee says, "Homophobes think about gay sex all the time because they wanna have it... Homophobes are super gay." Homophobia is toxic. Homophobia can cause queer people to hate themselves and possibly others before they are able to process their feelings/identity. This is fact. But do you know what kinds of people are really homophobic? STRAIGHT PEOPLE. If you compare straight people to gay people, there are far more straight people who hate gay people and these straight people do NOT feel any same-sex attraction. Straight people are homophobic because they benefit from a system that oppresses same-sex relationships. Yet the saying that homophobes are secretly gay still persists. I'm not faulting Meredith Russo for coining this idea at all. I am merely using her book as an example of this awful trope so I can explain why we really have to stop repeating it. The saving graces of this book really were the friendships between Amanda, Layla, Chloe, and Anna. They make you wish you had a friend group that solid that truly accept you for your differences. And Amanda and her dad's reconciliation developed well. Not everyone understands trans issues right away and her dad proved that he loved her unconditionally and apologized for what how he treated his daughter. Even though he had good intentions, it doesn't mean the effects of his actions were excused. Grant was your typical bland love interest. He was fine.
Date published: 2018-07-30
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Such an Important Book I've only read a couple of books that involve transgender characters, but this one definitely stands at the top of all of them. It's beautifully told, with brilliant characters and a perfectly paced storyline. I feel in love with Amanda from the very first chapter and I definitely rooted for her the entire time, wondering how the whole thing was going to go down because you knew it was coming. Every book needs conflict right? Having known a few transgender people in my real life, I did find some of Amanda's story a bit surprising, because she seemed younger and to have it more easy than the real life stories I knew. But the author added some notes at the end of the audiobook (and I assume that they're in the hardcopies as well) which cleared up any confusion about this, and the author's choices make sense. All in all, this is a fantastic book, and definitely one that should make the reading list of anyone who is interested in reading diversely. It opened my eyes to some things I would have not otherwise considered as someone who is cisgendered. Definitely one that I can see making school reading lists in the near future. 
Date published: 2018-01-19
Rated 5 out of 5 by from I loved it! I just really enjoyed this book, and liked the lgbt aspect too! #plumreview
Date published: 2017-12-22
Rated 3 out of 5 by from ok nonetheless, it was entertaining and definitely kept me interested
Date published: 2017-11-19
Rated 3 out of 5 by from Enjoyed this! Was really interested in the whole story line, but wish it was a little longer and there was a little more development. I'd still recommend it though, because there is such a lack of lgtbq+ books and it definitely informed me of a variety of different things.
Date published: 2017-09-15
Rated 5 out of 5 by from L O V E D it. I bought this book a while back and was really hesitant to read it; and I will not lie, I kept putting it off. I'm so sad that I did. I read this book in one sitting because I could not put it down. I loved everything about this book and I loved how it was written. I love the personal touches the author gives. I would HIGHLY recommend everyone read this book AND ESPECIALLY read the notes at the end of the book that Meredith Russo has included. This was truly and amazing book, it truly gives individuals a VERY LITTLE glimpse into a world not many talk about; and it's fantastic beginning for readers to explore more.
Date published: 2017-07-24
Rated 4 out of 5 by from really great book if you liked symptoms of being human, you'll like this. i'm so happy about how diverse YA is getting
Date published: 2017-06-29
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Great Read! I just finished reading this book yesterday and the story will stay with me for a long time after this. Amanda's story is one that is absolutely heartbreaking, haunting, hopeful, beautiful and honest. I absolutely adore having such great representation in a YA novel, as the Author is Trans and even the cover model is a Trans woman as well. I read every last page of this book...no exaggeration at all...every page. I appreciated the Author's notes a the end of the story as she addresses certain aspects of the story and Amanda's character that she chose to make more "relate-able" for a wider audience of trans and cis-genered readers. In this portion, whether intentional or unintentional, she raises more thought-provoking topics for a cis-genered reader to contemplate. Although Meredith Russo did not set out to necessarily "educate" the reader, she does a bang-up job of doing just that. This is just a beautiful novel that I can not sing enough praises for. This review doesn't do If I Was Your Girl nearly enough justice...but, please pick this novel up and give i a chance.
Date published: 2017-06-10
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Great Great writing and compelling characters. This was a great book!
Date published: 2017-05-20
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Great Great writing and compelling characters. This was a great book!
Date published: 2017-05-20
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Great Great writing and compelling characters. This was a great book!
Date published: 2017-05-20
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Great Great writing and compelling characters. This was a great book!
Date published: 2017-05-20
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Great book I really enjoyed reading this book. More books like this one are needed
Date published: 2017-05-01
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Everyone should read this book This was such an amazing read. Very enlightening for those wishing to become a little more aware of LGBTQ issues. Even though some of the characters are generalized/rely on stereotypes in order to be more relatable, I still think the book has a good, valuable message. The author's note at the end of the book is a must read, such an important message to share. Highly recommend.
Date published: 2017-02-03
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Good Read An important story and we can all learn something
Date published: 2017-02-01
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Very Relatable I really liked this book. Not all trans people are openly and visibly trans, and having a story about a girl who is trying to navigate her life and decide who she can trust with her secret and if she ever wants to tell anyone at all is refreshing. This book does a really good job of showing how difficult it can be to navigate relationships even after surgeries and hormones. The author's note at the end is also very important to read.
Date published: 2017-01-01
Rated 5 out of 5 by from One of my favorites I was not disappointed after reading this book, that's for sure. If you don't end up getting the book, at least read the author's note at the back of the book! Heartbreaking for sure!
Date published: 2016-12-29
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Epic read Amazing plot, amazing characters. No review could do this book justice.
Date published: 2016-12-25
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Powerful Meredith Russo tells an important coming-of-age tale about a transgender teenager struggling to live life in the southern U.S. as herself. Although I'm sure many transgender teens don't have the happy outcome of Amanda's story, I think that the author portrayed the trials and tribulations well of growing up in the wrong body. Definitely recommend to those with an already-open mind and to those who need a little reminder that we are all human.
Date published: 2016-12-13
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Interesting This novel had a very difficult topic to write about and created a realistic view of what could happen. Amanda going through everything that she did (no spoilers) and still coming out strong shows how impacting a novel can have on society. When reading this book I couldn't keep it down because after every chapter there was always something new and interesting happening! Beautiful writing, would love to read another novel written by this author. Worth every penny!
Date published: 2016-12-11
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Beautiful This book had a lot going for it, including AMAZING characters! I appreciate the story for its message and what it stands for. A solid debut, but I would love to watch the author and see her improve upon her craft! looking forward to reading more from her.
Date published: 2016-12-05
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Absolutely adored this! I bought this a few weeks ago and could not wait to start it. I loved Amanda and through the book just wished I could transport in to give her a hug for a solid 10 minutes. It's such a beautiful book and I couldn't stop reading until the last page, where even then I wanted to keep reading. Wonderfully written. 10/10.
Date published: 2016-05-15

Editorial Reviews

Stonewall Book Award WinnerWalter Dean Myers Honor Book for Outstanding Children's LiteratureA Publishers Weekly Best Book of the YearA Kirkus Reviews Best Book of the YearA Zoella Book Club SelectionA Goodreads Choice Award Finalist A Bustle Best YA Book of the YearIndieNext Top 10 ListOne of Flavorwire's 50 Books Every Modern Teenager Should Read"This new novel for teens breaks new ground...powerful." -O Magazine "A beautifully rendered YA novel . . . the first written by a transgender woman about the transgender teen experience." -San Francisco Chronicle"A vivid, compassionate portrait of a teen finding her place." -The Washington Post "An illuminating debut guided by hope and overwhelming kindness." -Publishers Weekly, starred review "A necessary, universal story about feeling different and enduring prejudices.full of love, hope, and truth." -Kirkus, starred review "This is everything a coming-of-age novel should be-honest, complicated, and meaningful. Transcends the typical 'issue' novel to be a beautiful tale in its own right." -School Library Journal, SLJ Popular Pick"Amanda's story is neither overly sentimental nor didactic. A thoughtful, truthful, and much needed coming-of-age tale." -Horn Book Review"Russo, a trans woman, writes with authority and empathy, giving readers not only an intellectual but also an emotional understanding of Amanda and her compelling story. Never didactic, this debut is a valuable contribution to the slender but growing body of literature of trans teens." -ALA Booklist"Beautiful, smart, and so urgently needed, If I Was Your Girl should be required reading for every teen-scratch that, every person-in America. This book is exactly what YA is for: to break ground, to break hearts, to teach us empathy, to find the universal in the specific. I loved every word. You will too." -Julie Buxbaum, author of Tell Me Three Things "Poignant and rare. If I Was Your Girl is the type of book you read and want to immediately share, because it's too important to keep to yourself." -Julie Murphy, author of Dumplin'"If I Was Your Girl is important and necessary and brave, and deeply, electrically inspiring. Read this wonderful book. Just read it." -Jennifer Niven, author of All the Bright Places"If I Was Your Girl will change minds and open hearts." -Nina Lacour, author of We Are Okay"If I Was Your Girl is real and raw and layered and wonderful." -Alex Gino, author of George"If there's any justice in the world, we're all witnessing a YA powerhouse in the making." -Forever YA"Pure magic." -Book Riot