My Heart and Other Black Holes

Paperback | May 31, 2016

byJasmine Warga

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Alive with intensity, gut-wrenching honesty, moments of humor, and—of course—heart. Not to be missed.”—Nova Ren Suma, author of Imaginary Girls and The Walls Around Us

A stunning novel about the transformative power of love, perfect for fans of Jay Asher and Laurie Halse Anderson.

Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness.

There’s only one problem: she’s not sure she has the courage to do it alone. But once she discovers a website with a section called Suicide Partners, Aysel’s convinced she’s found her solution—Roman, a teenage boy who’s haunted by a family tragedy, is looking for a partner.

Even though Aysel and Roman have nothing in common, they slowly start to fill in each other’s broken lives. But as their suicide pact becomes more concrete, Aysel begins to question whether she really wants to go through with it. Ultimately, she must choose between wanting to die or trying to convince Roman to live so they can discover the potential of their energy together.

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“Alive with intensity, gut-wrenching honesty, moments of humor, and—of course—heart. Not to be missed.”—Nova Ren Suma, author of Imaginary Girls and The Walls Around UsA stunning novel about the transformative power of love, perfect for fans of Jay Asher and Laurie Halse Anderson.Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plo...

Format:PaperbackDimensions:320 pages, 8 × 5.31 × 0.72 inPublished:May 31, 2016Publisher:HarperCollinsLanguage:English

The following ISBNs are associated with this title:

ISBN - 10:0062324683

ISBN - 13:9780062324689

Customer Reviews of My Heart and Other Black Holes


Rated 4 out of 5 by from Heartbreaking & Beautiful I'm not an expert when it comes to the portrayal of suicide in books, but I thought My Heart and Other Black Holes did a fantastic job at shedding light on the issue in an interesting and unique manner. The fact that Aysel has a passion for physics allowed for a completely different approach towards life and death. It was so interesting that she continually regarded herself, and her situation, as potential energy, and although her thoughts were often purely scientific, the emotional pain was definitely still apparent. Aside from the scientific comparisons, Aysel refers to her depression as a black slug throughout the entire book, as well, and something about that contrast felt so accurate and powerful. The idea behind suicide partners is quite unnerving, but I really loved the relationship formed between Aysel and Roman. It was odd in the beginning to read about two characters talking so freely about their plan to commit suicide together, but somehow there were still moments of comic relief. Initially I was worried that, given the situation, a romance would feel tacky within the story, but the gradual buildup was quite genuine, and their backstories were both heartbreaking. I loved that the original, supportive nature of their relationship took a different, but similar, turn.
Date published: 2017-01-13
Rated 3 out of 5 by from Okay book, not keen on how they portrayed depression (SPOILERS) Alright so this book was not that bad, the story line was alright, the idea was creative, but so help me God I hate how she overcame depression. The book started off well, the way Aysel and Roman meet through a suicide pact site, and decide to meet up prior to the date. I thought the way they met throughout the book was a strong point, the way they talked to each other was eh. She yells at him constantly, which annoys to me no end. Roman is trying to be nice and makes a joke and she starts yelling at him. It sounds like I hate this book, but I really don't. At least not completely. The zoo scene was fun, the running away to see her father was well executed, the part where she runs to the cliff to see if he's going to jump then realizing where he really was really captivating and interesting. BUT, it seemed as if she had a monumental amount of depression, and after 2 weeks of meeting a boy, it's gone!1!1!! I hate that. I feel like Roman helped her, but after a few weeks the depression isn't gone?? She was talking about how she was loving life, when a few pages earlier she was talking about the black pit of depression. Another strong point was Aysel's love for physics, it really gave her character and made her feel more realistic. Roman's art skills was also something I enjoyed, and I constantly think back to the scene of him drawing her while she was driving. Anyways, this is just a rant from a girl who has too much free time and reads too many books.
Date published: 2016-12-27
Rated 4 out of 5 by from ASTONISHING, LOVING TO THE MOON AND BACK I'm not going to write a 10 000 words essay to tell you how much I fell in love with this book as its author. Personally, there's 2 kinda ways to read this book : you get it or nah. You feel the emotion, pain, happiness, hope, love written within those pages and you deeply connect to it. This book will sounds as heading back home for certain people, reconnecting with ourselves, see ourselves through characters.For others, it'll simply be a book treating about mental illness, teenagers falling deeply in suicide's depths, overall a good book but nothing else. I deeply, truly hope you'll get it and keep this story near your heart because it's meant to be.
Date published: 2016-10-01
Rated 5 out of 5 by from An emotional and compelling read When I first heard about My Heart and Other Black Holes, I knew I had to read it. While it isn’t the usual fluffy book that I enjoy, I definitely wanted to pick this one up because I’m always on the look out for a great and thought-provoking book. And wow, am I glad that I decided to request this one. My Heart and Other Black Holes was such a great and powerful book. Phsyics geek Aysel has been plotting her death, ever since her father messed up her life. When she discovers a website that gives people a chance to get suicide partners, she becomes the suicide partner of FrozenRobot (a.k.a. Roman). But as Aysel and Roman grow closer, Aysel starts to doubt her choice, and is hoping to make Roman doubt himself too. I honestly loved Aysel, and her personality was definitely well-developed throughout the book. I loved seeing her develop, and grow as both a character and a person in the book. Roman, the other main character-love interest, was also just amazing to read about and my heart pains a little thinking about his reasons to seek a suicide partner. I could definitely relate to some of the important aspects of the book, and this book really made me think about some of my own personal thoughts and opinions about depression and suicide. The plot, while somewhat predictable, was excellently written and just amazing. The plot wasn’t too complex, as this was mostly a character-driven novel, but some parts definitely made me tear up, gasp and yell way too loudly. I also have some reservations about the romance, as the ending had an insta-lovey feel to it, but I think it definitely worked for the characters and suited the book overall. Overall, I think My Heart and Other Black Holes was such a great and powerful book, and I definitely shed many tears reading it. I really liked it and I highly recommend it to people looking for a powerful read about depression and suicide.
Date published: 2015-02-08

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“Warga delves honestly into the very difficult issues of teenage depression…sometimes sad, sometimes funny, but ultimately filled with hope.”