Not If I See You First

Paperback | November 1, 2016

byEric Lindstrom

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In the tradition of novels of Gayle Forman and John Green comes this extraordinary YA debut about a blind teen girl navigating life and love in high school.
Parker Grant doesn't need 20/20 vision to see right through you. That's why she created the Rules: Don't treat her any differently just because she's blind, andnevertake advantage. There will be no second chances. Just ask Scott Kilpatrick, the boy who broke her heart.

When Scott suddenly reappears in her life after being gone for years, Parker knows there's only one way to react--shun him so hard it hurts. She has enough on her mind already, like trying out for the track team (that's right, her eyes don't work but her legs still do), doling out tough-love advice to her painfully naive classmates, and giving herself gold stars for every day she hasn't cried since her dad's death three months ago. But avoiding her past quickly proves impossible, and the more Parker learns about what really happened--both with Scott, and her dad--the more she starts to question if things are always as they seem. Maybe, just maybe, some Rules are meant to be broken.
Combining a fiercely engaging voice with true heart, debut author Eric Lindstrom'sNot If I See You Firstilluminates those blind spots that we all have in life, whether visually impaired or not.

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In the tradition of novels of Gayle Forman and John Green comes this extraordinary YA debut about a blind teen girl navigating life and love in high school.Parker Grant doesn't need 20/20 vision to see right through you. That's why she created the Rules: Don't treat her any differently just because she's blind, andnevertake advantage. ...

Eric Lindstrom is a BAFTA and WGA-nominated veteran of the interactive entertainment industry. He is the author ofA Tragic Kind of WonderfulandNot If I See You First, his debut novel. Eric invites you to find him online at and on Twitter @Eric_Lindstrom.

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Format:PaperbackDimensions:336 pages, 8.25 × 5.5 × 0.88 inPublished:November 1, 2016Publisher:Little, Brown Books for Young ReadersLanguage:English

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ISBN - 10:031625987X

ISBN - 13:9780316259873

Customer Reviews of Not If I See You First


Rated 4 out of 5 by from Loved the story and main character Parker Grant has rules you best not break if you want to be in her life. Don’t treat her any differently just because she’s blind and never take advantage of her are two of the biggest ones. Scott Kilpatrick knows that from experience when he broke her heart. When two schools merge, Scott is suddenly back in Parker’s life, and there’s only one way for Parker to react – ignore him. She has enough going on in her life without adding Scott to the mix: trying out for the track team, if she can find a partner to run with, giving advice to her classmates on their love lives, and giving herself a gold star for every day she hasn’t cried since her father’s death three months ago. As Parker begins to learn more about the events that happened, both with Scott and with her father’s death, she starts to questions herself and her rule about not giving second chances. I hadn’t heard much about this book before received an arc of it, then it was the Uppercasebox book for December. I found myself really enjoying Parker’s voice and the humour laced throughout her thoughts and dialogue. I also really enjoyed the dynamics between the characters. Parker was an extremely independent girl with a strong voice that was a lot of fun to read. She had a fierceness about her that I really liked and she refused to let people treat her like a child or an invalid just because she was blind. She could still do things by herself so she was going to do those things. Her attitude did have some drawbacks as she wasn’t always completely open with people or with herself and she strong opinions could be oft-putting but it also made sense for her character. I enjoyed her growth as a character and that there were so many layers slowly being peeled away as the book went on. She was a complex characters whose bluntness had me both cringing and laughing. The relationships between the characters was one of my favourite things about this book. Her friendships with her longtime best friend Sarah was so perfect. They were a great contrast to each other and it was obvious why they were so close. Her new friendship with Molly added a new aspect to the story since the reader got to see someone learning the rules with them instead of all Parker’s friends knowing the rules already and being used to following them without thought. There was also the interesting dynamic between Parker and her aunt. Her aunt seemed to think she was being helpful by not letting Parker do a lot around the house or having different rules for Parker then her daughter but she was actually hindering Parker’s independence and taking away things that Parker enjoyed doing, like cooking supper. It was an adjustment that wasn’t easy for anyone when her aunt and her family moved into Parker’s house after her father’s death and it made for a lot of growth opportunity. The romance was kept light and I appreciated that. It let the main focus of the story be on Parker, her growth, and her struggles. I enjoyed the romance. It was sweet and there was a lot of conflict but also a lot of love between her and Scott. I liked that it took time for the whole story to come out about what had happened between Parker and Scott a few years ago and that we got to see both sides and feel the pain from both of them. The main story was Parker and I loved the focus on her. She had a lot of things to work through and there was a lot of taking a step forward only to stumble and need to take a step back. She was trying new things, like track and field, but she was also having trouble moving on, like not letting herself cry and grieve after her father. It was a good, interesting read. I can see why it was chosen as an Uppercasebox selection. *I received a copy of this book from the publisher in exchange for an honest review.
Date published: 2016-02-13

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"Not If I See You First is thoughtful and honest, with characters that made me laugh, cry, and surprised me at every turn. It's a book I'll recommend for years to come."-Kody Keplinger, New York Times bestselling author of The DUFF and co-founder of Disability in KidLit