Sweet Valley Confidential: Ten Years Later

Hardcover | March 29, 2011

byFrancine Pascal

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Now with this striking new adult novel from author and creator Francine Pascal, millions of devoted fans can finally return to the idyllic Sweet Valley, home of the phenomenally successful book series and franchise. Iconic and beloved identical twins Jessica and Elizabeth Wakefield are back and all grown up, dealing with the complicated adult world of love, careers, betrayal, and sisterhood.  WANT MORE SWEET VALLEY RIGHT NOW??  Become a fan of Sweet Valley Confidential on Facebook or Twitter. 

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Now with this striking new adult novel from author and creator Francine Pascal, millions of devoted fans can finally return to the idyllic Sweet Valley, home of the phenomenally successful book series and franchise. Iconic and beloved identical twins Jessica and Elizabeth Wakefield are back and all grown up, dealing with the complicate...

FRANCINE PASCAL is the creator of the Sweet Valley High series and one of the world's most popular fiction writers for teenagers and the author of several bestselling novels, My Mother Was Never A Kid (Hanging out with Cici), My First Love and Other Disasters, as well as the series Fearless. Her adult novels include, Save Johanna! and...

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Format:HardcoverDimensions:304 pages, 8.55 × 5.79 × 1.16 inPublished:March 29, 2011Publisher:St. Martin's PressLanguage:English

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Rated 5 out of 5 by from Sweet Valley Confidential Relived great memories! I literally grew up with Jessica and Elizabeth from Sweet Valley Twins to Sweet Valley University. This book reminded me of just how much I missed them! :)
Date published: 2014-02-18
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Sweet Valley Confidential Great, finally you can see what happens with the amazing books that I read as a child. Great read.
Date published: 2014-01-24
Rated 2 out of 5 by from Well...at least we got closure Actually, no we didn't, because afterwards Pascal released the 6-book Sweet Life series. But... yeah. Nostalgic hardcore fans of the Sweet Valley books will probably enjoy this. Yes, the plot is kind of bare, the characters haven't really evolved, and not much happens. Sections are sloppily edited, Jessica's written with too many "likes" awkwardly placed in phrases, and a lot of people die. But, don't forget, this is Sweet Valley. Where people age in a strange time warp, inconsistencies are consistent, and there are werewolves. If you've never read a Sweet Valley book, stay away. If you're a hardcore fan and accept the books for what they are... why not? For more of what I thought: http://guiltypleasurebooks.wordpress.com/2013/10/03/guiltiest-read-ever-sweet-valley-confidential/
Date published: 2013-10-04
Rated 2 out of 5 by from I'll always love Sweet Valley I wonder if the paperback was re-edited, as I didn't notice the spelling errors which other readers have mentioned. There were a few misplaced commas here and there, however, which did get a little distracting. As for the plot, yes, it's not Tolstoy by any means. But Francine Pascal does have a way of writing that makes you want to keep reading. I didn't mind that the twins were fighting; after all, what would be the point of writing the book without a little controversy? It's probably what Francine (who is in her 70s) thinks the youth of today want. I took it with a grain of salt. Sure, some of the lingo was way off, there was too much repetition, and there wasn't much about the characters we actually wanted to hear about (ie. Lila), but I liked being back in that world. Francine writes about what she considers to be the almost unattainable, like extraordinary beauty and wealth. Some readers think she's being prejudiced. This is understandable, but I really don't think that she meant any ill-will towards people who don't fit her 'mold'. Again, it's probably just what she thinks we want to read about. Overall, I liked having a little slice of Sweet Valley back in my life; regardless of the flaws!
Date published: 2012-03-22
Rated 1 out of 5 by from Waste of time Like many I decided to read this book because I loved the Sweet Valley books when I was younger and was curious to see where the characters had gone. Apparently no where. The plot was weak and I felt like I was reading a book written for a pre-teen with some swearing and adult content thrown in. Very disappointed!
Date published: 2012-01-08
Rated 2 out of 5 by from Little Bit of a Let down I wanted to read this book probably for the same reason anyone from this generation wants to... to reminisce. Part of me remembered the Sweet Valley of old and remembered liking it. I just wanted to see what happened. When I first cracked this book I was sooo excited. As I read on, it made me realize that even though this is a book 10 years later, the character and plot development was not there. It felt like, aside from the swearing and sexual content, it was a book for someone with less than sophisticated taste. It felt like a book for a 13 year old. Not for an adult trying to catch up with their favourite characters. One thing I did like about the book was the catch up with the individuals at the end. Francine Pascal goes through all our beloved characters and tells us where they have been and what they accomplished in the last ten years.
Date published: 2011-06-21
Rated 1 out of 5 by from Terrible I loved the Sweet Valley books growing up, and was super excited when I heard that this was coming out. I advise everyone to avoid this piece of claptrap! There are numerous spelling errors and typos throughout the book, and Pascal has forgotten the canon. Heck, details about some characters changed from the beginning of the book to the end! I wish I'd never read it, it's ruined the old SV books for. I surely hope that Francine Pascal won't write anymore SV books.
Date published: 2011-05-20
Rated 2 out of 5 by from Disappointed I bought this book based soely on the fact that as teenager I used to absolutely love this series. When I read the cover of the book I thought it would be a more grown up version of the characters and was really disappointed that the writing style remained the same. I found the use of the word 'like' repeatedly throughout the book very irritating and I lost interest in the story very quickly. In hindsight I should have left my memories of the series in the past where I remembered them fondly.
Date published: 2011-05-02
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Sweet Valley Confidential - a hit! For one thing do not base buying the book on the reviews if you are a true fan of Sweet Valley just buy it! I was hesitant at first but I'm glad I did(: it was great; the story was fresh and new, and in one night I had finished the whole book:) who doesn't want to know what happens ten years later? At first it was shocking especially the reason Liz and Jessica are fighting but you get over it and want to find out every juicy detail: which there are plenty! Just remember this is not your childhood Sweet Valley they are 27 years old and having sex and talking about it so don't read the book if your inner 8 year old can't handle it, seriously it's not even sold in the teen section of the book store. One thing that did surprise me was the price $25.00 really, glad I make more than my allowance back then:) Lots of people are complaining about continuity and spelling mistakes but this happened all the time in the original series and happy endings are always to be expected it's Sweet Valley right so don't act so shocked. All in all great read, great buy - my vote 10 out of 10,(lets flood her facebook and hope she writes more! ) I hope this helps with your decision- Happy reading:)
Date published: 2011-04-11
Rated 2 out of 5 by from Not worth buying, dumb plot I read parts of this book at my local bookstore. I was shocked by the contents. Jessica ends up being married to a person you would hardly expect. I didn't like the intimate stuff but I guess Francine Pascal wanted to write an adult book not a teen book. The plot line is the exact same thing that happened years ago. Jessica tries to steal Sam to prove a point to Elizabeth who takes off to England. The two men who get involved with them are guys you know from the Sweet Valley High series. I would like to see what actually happened in the period after Elizabeth returned from England. How did the two men decide they prefer one twin over the other? Yes, they dated both twins at one point. I would read this book but prefer to get it at my local library. The best series from Francine Pascal is the Sweet Valley Senior, all 48 books.
Date published: 2011-03-24

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1New YorkElizabeth had turned the key in the Fox lock, releasing a heavy metal bar that scraped across the inside of the front door with an impressive prison-gate sound, and was about to attack the Segal lock when the phone in the apartment started to ring. By the time she had opened the second lock and was sliding the key into the last one—this was New York, after all—the phone was on its fourth ring.At almost midnight, it had to be the West Coast calling.She could still grab it in time, but Elizabeth didn’t hurry. Slow, with purpose. Slow, giving the internal anger and hurt time to shoot from zero to a hundred. It needed only seconds, like the start-up speed of a Maserati. Except it was never at zero. Not anymore. Hadn’t been for the last eight months. And she couldn’t imagine a time when it would ever be there again.As always, the hurt overpowered the anger, and what welled up in her throat came with tears that choked her.“You going to get that?” David Stephenson, the young man standing next to her, asked as he stretched his arm over her head to hold the door open. David was six-three and at her five-six it was way over her head.“That’s okay,” she managed, quickly ducking her face away from him, stealing a sliver of extra time as she put the doggie-bagged pork chop she was carrying carefully and more precisely than necessary down on the hall table. It gave her enough time to catch her breath and let the tears slide back down her throat.And with that momentary respite came an irresistible, nasty need to satisfy the anger physically. All she had was her purse. It would do. She flung it as hard as she could into the hall chair and watched as the Prada knockoff hit the upholstered back, bounced off, and came to rest on the edge of the chair. A little dumb, but it was a surprisingly good release.Like that embarrassing time a month ago on Broadway, when the fury escaped her mind into her mouth and she said, out loud, really loudly, “I hate you!” People turned, shocked and then interested; she quickly put her hand to her ear as if she were on a cell phone, and it became ordinary and they lost interest.David had already walked into the living room, missing all the action behind him. “You have a landline? And an answering machine?”“My mother. A going-away gift. She said it made her feel that I was safer. How, I don’t know. I think it made her feel safer.”Elizabeth could hear her own calm message playing in the background: “Please leave your name and number, and I’ll return your call as soon as possible. Thank you.”“I’m just going to throw this in the fridge,” she said, scooping up the doggie bag, back in control. “Would you like a glass of wine?”By now she was halfway through the narrow, sparsely furnished living room, heading into the safety of the very small jerry-built kitchen, with its squeezed-in mini refrigerator, two-burner stove, tiny oven, and an outsized, badly chipped, probably prewar like the rest of the building, porcelain sink deep enough to wash babies as well as dishes.“Sure. Okay. With a couple of ice cubes, please.”“Lizzie. Pick up.” The woman’s voice on the machine was plaintive. “Please. I really need to talk to you.”Of course, Elizabeth could hear it from the kitchen. Could she ever miss that voice? Now so sweet, so seductive, pleading softly, spreading out the vowels, almost songlike. Liz … zie …That voice, so heavy with love. Love me, it said, forgive me, so I can put you out of the way and get back to my own life.“I forgot to fill the ice tray, but the wine’s really cold.”Elizabeth’s voice was so calm David thought maybe she hadn’t heard the message.“It sounds important. Don’t you want to get it?”Now Elizabeth was back in the room carrying two glasses of chilled white wine. David was sitting on the small low couch, so low his knees almost obscured his face.She answered him completely composed, as if she were reciting dialogue in a play. “Actually, no.”It had everything but the English accent.David’s cheeks creased in a slightly embarrassed smile that pulled in his breath with a little hiss; he was politely uncomfortable, knowing he had stumbled into something too personal. “Sorry.”“That’s okay. Forget it.” She brushed it off, but there was no way to hide her flushed face.“I have to tell you. It’s really weird,” he said.“Because I didn’t take the call?”“No, because the voice … it sounded just like you.”No wonder. How many times over the years had she herself been fooled by a recording? For just a flash she would think, Was that me? Or worse, when she had to pick herself out of a family picture. How pathetic is it not to recognize yourself?Elizabeth handed David his wine without comment, put hers down on the low table next to her least favorite chair, comfortable but covered in a scratchy plaid fabric.Normally, she never sat there, but the choice was either next to David on the loveseat, which would surely be more intimate than she felt right now, or the scratchy chair. She wasn’t in the scratchy chair two seconds before she bobbed up and reached for the stereo which, because the room was so small, was within arm’s distance.“You like Beyoncé?”“Really,” he said. “I mean, you could have fooled me. It was identical.” He wasn’t going to let it go so easily.Instead of the scratchy chair, Elizabeth sat back down next to David on the loveseat, making the only move that could detour the direction of the conversation. A direction she seriously didn’t want. Certainly not with this semistranger, a guy she’d barely spoken to before tonight. Her boss.It worked. He turned to her, delighted, a little surprised at the possible gift he was not expecting, all thoughts of the telephone message wiped out of his head.They worked together at the online magazine Show Survey: Off Broadway in New York, a weekly struggling along with only a smattering of sponsors and even fewer paid advertisements. It was put out by a passionate staff of three dedicated theater lovers and the newcomer, Elizabeth Wakefield. The printed copy left at hotels was not much better than a throwaway, but Elizabeth was grateful to be part of the venture. Not having much experience in theater, she’d lucked into the job eight months ago after two frantic days in New York, one of which, the worst, was her twenty-seventh birthday. She celebrated alone, then lied to her parents that she’d spent the day with a couple of old friends from Sweet Valley who had moved to New York. Her mother asked who they were, but when Elizabeth sidestepped the question, she very kindly and wisely didn’t pursue it. In fact, her parents had been very gentle and understanding. Never asking the wrong questions. Even the two times they came to see her in New York, they only talked about her work.Actually, it was David who had hired her. He and his partner, Don Barren, both in their early thirties, both trained accountants who hated the confinement of numbers, both theater enthusiasts, had self-financed Show Survey about two years ago as a kind of Zagat ratings guide for Off Broadway. No critics, just audiences. Elizabeth was hired to interview people coming out of the theater and write up paragraph descriptions of shows, just as Zagat did for restaurants.There wasn’t enough staff money for Elizabeth to see all the shows, so they had arranged to buy tickets the day of the show at the TKTS booth on Forty-seventh Street, and only the cheapest ones at that, and only for shows without an intermission. If there was an intermission, Elizabeth would sneak in free for the second act. Though she worried in the beginning, she never once got caught. She had a story ready about how her brother was in the cast and had told her just to use his name. Of course, she always found an ensemble name in advance for her “brother.” So far, she hadn’t had to use it.All printed copies of Show Survey were free, given away at hotels and restaurants, but it was beginning to catch on, and they had picked up a few more online sponsors. Recently they had added interviews with everyone involved in the theater—actors, writers, producers, directors, even ushers. Just this week David had given Elizabeth her first interview assignment: a playwright named Will Connolly.Tonight wasn’t a real date with David. It was more like, Hey, you eat yet? No? How about we grab a bite at McMullen’s? Hence, the leftover pork chop. It was okay, but somehow Elizabeth had gotten stuck with the tip. David was attractive enough—tall with a very good body, every muscle well worked out at least five times a week at a local gym—but the tip thing was a turnoff.Additionally, sleeping with the boss was a famously bad idea. In her four years at the Sweet Valley News, Elizabeth had never done it. Well, of course, Todd was in her life then.Still, David did have a great body, and maybe the tip thing was accidental. Right from the start Elizabeth could tell he was attracted to her. It had probably helped in the hiring, though she had decent credentials, but a little gratitude wouldn’t hurt. He was, after all, a nice guy.A nice guy she didn’t feel like sleeping with.On the other hand, in the eight months she had been in New York she hadn’t slept with anyone but Russ Klein, a friend of the rental agent for the building. With Elizabeth’s permission, the agent had given Russ her e-mail address. They e-mailed back and forth for a couple of days, and he seemed like a nice guy. Like Elizabeth, he was new to New York; he had come four months earlier for a job as a trader on Wall Street. Coffee turned into a three-week miniaffair spread out over two months. Definitely rebound stuff. She cried after every orgasm. How embarrassing, but he pretended not to notice. Russ was not a man to complicate a good thing with feelings.Elizabeth had thought maybe they’d stay friends after—not that they had such a great connection—but she was in the market for new friends, people with no association to Sweet Valley. Whenever anyone asked where she came from, she said California. They immediately thought L.A., and she didn’t disabuse them.But it didn’t happen, the friendship with Russ. His sister was in the middle of a divorce, and though Elizabeth thought she was good at hiding her own problems, he sensed another sad story and got out of the way.She could feel David staring at her while she feigned deep involvement with her wineglass. Eventually, she would have to turn toward him. That would be the moment. The turn would be a Yes, let’s have sex, or a No way.Beyoncé was having her heart broken in soft sounds. “… don’t wanna love you in no kind of way, no no.”A little more of this and she would cry before the orgasm.“That was my sister. I mean, on the phone.” At the moment it seemed the lesser of two evils. Elizabeth stood, reached out, hit the Next button, and Justin Timberlake was in love, “… holding hands, walking on the beach … toes in the sand.”She had to remember to change the CDs.“We had a little something, nothing important. You know, sisters…”Now she was standing, safe, having made the decision not to have sex with him. “I’m doing the Will Connolly interview Thursday; how long do you want the piece?”David hesitated for a moment, adjusting to the loss, then spoke. “Seven hundred fifty words should be enough. Don’t go more than a thousand.” He finished his wine.“Another glass?”“No, that’s okay. I’m running early tomorrow morning.”Pushing himself off the low couch was like doing a bench press, but he did it flawlessly.There were a few awkward seconds when Elizabeth opened the door, but they pulled it together, and by the time David said, “See you tomorrow,” and patted her head, they were back to business.Elizabeth leaned against the closed door. A faint hint of regret was wiped out by relief.“Stupid!” she said to the stereo as she clicked Timberlake off, walked to the kitchen, and refilled her wineglass.Almost one in the morning. But really only 10:00 P.M. She always did that—went back to real time. Eight months and she was still taking off those damn three hours. Would she ever truly be free of Sweet Valley?That was minor compared to being free of being a twin. How to explain something as natural and unlearned as seeing or feeling when you’ve never known anything different? It was always that way with a matching half: You only knew it by its absence.She remembered a poem they had found when they were about ten called “The Twins.”In form and feature, face and limb,I grew so like my brother,That folks got taking me for him,And each for one another.They both loved that poem, especially the ending:And when I died, the neighbors cameand buried brother John.Would anyone else ever delight in that silly poem?Like the twins of that poem, Elizabeth and Jessica Wakefield appeared interchangeable, if you considered only their faces.And what faces they were.Gorgeous. Absolutely amazing. The kind you couldn’t stop looking at. Their eyes were shades of aqua that danced in the light like shards of precious stones, oval and fringed with thick, light brown lashes long enough to cast a shadow on their cheeks. Their silky blond hair, the cascading kind, fell just below their shoulders. And to complete the perfection, their rosy lips looked as if they were penciled on. There wasn’t a thing wrong with their figures, either. It was as if billions of possibilities all fell together perfectly.Twice.Elizabeth finished the last of the wine in her glass, undressed and slipped into her oversized SVU T-shirt, and curled up on the couch.The outside noises of a New York apartment in Midtown Manhattan were a constant: garbage trucks, standing buses spewing the sounds of endless pollution, an occasional police siren, a vagrant nut screaming obscenities, and now and then Con Edison digging. But in the last eight months it had become white noise for Elizabeth Wakefield, barely registering as more than background, never disturbing the silence of the apartment enough to keep her from feeling alone.Especially tonight.Bereft and abandoned, Elizabeth was overwhelmed with feelings of loss, with the ache that had been chewing at her insides day in and day out. The betrayal. Without trying, she’d become the lyrics to every sad love song.That he didn’t love her anymore should have been the most important part, but it paled next to his deceit and betrayal. Elizabeth winced when she thought how blind she’d been, what a fool she must have looked like all that time.And all that time may have been years.When the light finally came, she’d followed her first instinct and fled. And now here she was, self-exiled, stranded alone in strange territory.Everything about New York was unfamiliar. Yes, she had been here before. In her freshman year at SVU she had won a competition to have her one-act play produced in New York during spring break.It had been one of the most exciting times in her life, in fact, so exciting that she’d barely noticed where she was. And then to make it even more fabulous, she’d gotten some good reviews that turned into raves when Jessica took over the lead.But this was a different New York. Now she was really living here and alone and miserable. And she knew every ugly detail of the apartment.To begin with, it was old. Growing up in Sweet Valley, nothing was old. Old was more than thirty years. And nothing seemed to have more than a couple of coats of paint. Not enough so that you could see it. Here, the old paint, maybe eighty years’ worth, was so thick it looked like plaster but bumpier and more uneven. No sharp corners anywhere. And no matter how much she cleaned, the dirt seemed painted in. Nothing had that bright, crisp feeling of home and what used to be.She didn’t even have any real friends. Sure, she’d gotten to know some people, even a woman in her building, but there was no one she trusted. Good. About time she learned not to trust.It was still early enough to call her best friend, the only friend she still had from Sweet Valley, Bruce Patman. It still made her smile when she thought of that impossibly arrogant and conceited boy of high school. Actually, she could hardly remember him that way anymore.She could call. It wasn’t even eleven there. Not that she hadn’t called him a lot later than that. In fact, there were a few three-in-the-morning beauties when she first arrived in New York—whiny and complaining—she was almost too embarrassed to remember them.She could call him now. But she wasn’t going to. Not when she was feeling so low. He took it too seriously, like a good friend would, and she just didn’t want to upset him. Bruce Patman upset by someone else’s trouble? That almost made her smile.But she didn’t call and she didn’t smile.The room was still. And silent. Until she hit the Replay button on the answering machine.“Lizzie. Pick up. Please. I really need to talk to you.”Never!“Please, Lizzie. I really need to talk to you.”Exactly the same words. Only it’s eleven years earlier and Jessica and I are sixteen. And it’s not on an answering machine, it’s face-to-face.“No way, Jess,” I tell her, “Daddy said no car for the whole month, and I’m not giving you the keys.”“You’d think I totaled the whole car. It was just a tap on a way ugly little mailbox.”“And half the rear fender.”“That really sucks. You can’t even see it from the front.”“Forget it. I’m so not giving you the keys.”But Jessica is not one to give up, and for the whole ten-minute ride from home to Sweet Valley High, she pleads with me, nags, cajoles, bribes, and finally threatens, but I don’t budge. My parents have given instructions and, unlike my twin, I follow instructions.When Jessica sees that it’s hopeless, she resorts to punishment.“Todd called.”I bite. “Todd Wilkins?” Now she has my complete attention. “For me?”“No way.”“For you?” I can feel my voice creeping up about two octaves from my normal tone, like a squeak from a disappointed eight-year-old.“Like you’re surprised that the captain of the basketball team would call the captain of the cheerleaders? Can’t you see we’re a natural?”“I guess.”For a flash, I think I see Jessica feeling a tiny prick of guilt, but it’s gone in a flash. Maybe it was never there. Truth is they are a natural, she and Todd, and besides, he’s a jock, and everyone knows I’m not interested in jocks.Except for this one.Ever since I first saw him in kindergarten hanging on to his ratty baby blanket with the pulled-out fringes, his face shiny with big fat tears because his mommy was leaving him. I try not to remember that his nose was running right down to his lip.Are there pheromones at five?And coups de foudre?I tried to give him a tissue, but he threw it on the floor. Was that a portent of the future that I was too love-blind to see?And just in case any shred of hope lingers, Jessica jolts me back to reality. “He called to wish me luck with Pi Beta today. I think he’s going to ask me to the Phi Epsilon dance.”“Cool,” I say as my stomach drops. A stomach can drop even if it doesn’t really go anywhere. The sliding sensation, along with what feels like a whoosh of empty air, is absolutely physical. Especially when, as in my case, that person is struggling with an important crush.Jessica gets quiet, so deep in some kind of plan—she is a planner, often devious—that she doesn’t even notice that I’ve stopped the car to pick up Enid Rollins, whom Jessica refers to as Wuss of the World.Enid jumps into the backseat.“I have to talk to you about something,” Enid whispers to the back of my head.Enid is my dearest friend, and I really love her, but the jealousy between Jessica and Enid sometimes makes things very uncomfortable: divided loyalties, but not really. No one could be closer than my sister. I wouldn’t know how to do that.“What?” I don’t quite hear what she’s saying.“Later,” she says.Jessica sticks her head between us. “I am so not interested in anything you say. Especially anything about boring Ronnie Edwards.”Enid lets out a yelp. “Who told you? And he is so not boring!”“Yes, he is. Ask Caroline Pearce.”Caroline Pearce is Sweet Valley’s major gossip.What Caroline doesn’t know she simply makes up, so she can always be counted on for some kind of information.“Jessica!” I try for the mommy tone, but it comes out with a little giggle. “You’re horrible!”Admittedly, Jessica is incorrigible. After all this time, sixteen whole years of life, it still fascinates me that identical twins could be so different. When I’m not the subject, I admit it tickles me.But it doesn’t tickle Enid at all. “How can you, like, stand her?”“Oh, who cares anyway.” Jessica has completely lost interest in our conversation. She’s too busy trying to wave down Bruce Patman’s Porsche, which is idling at the light right alongside us. “Let me out here,” she says, already halfway out the door.“Hey, Bruce!”Bruce smiles and motions with his movie star head for her to hop in. Simultaneously, he reaches over and flips open the passenger door; Jessica runs around our car and jumps in.Bruce Patman is the male Jessica but a whole lot richer, as rich as Jessica’s best friend, Lila Fowler.What Enid was trying to tell me was how much she likes Ronnie Edwards and he’d just asked her to the Phi Epsilon dance.I know I should be listening to my best friend’s problems, but I can’t get my mind off the disappointment. Todd and Jessica.Most people think I’ve escaped big crushes so far—that’s what it looks like to the outside world—but the secret is simple: Since that day in kindergarten, I’ve had a crush on one boy—Todd Wilkins.For the longest time, right through grade school, he didn’t seem to even notice me or—and I was watching carefully—any other girls.But at the start of high school, there was a change. He was still more interested in basketball, but there were times when I felt he looked at me in a special way. Though he was friendly, he never asked me out.I watched in teenage agony when he seemed interested in a couple of other girls, but it never lasted.At least, I comforted myself, he had never asked out Jessica, either. Until now. And that’s the one that really hurts. So close and yet about as far away as possible.Even though my best friend is talking about the boy she likes, I am no longer reachable. Jessica and Todd. The nightmare of my life.That’s the way it stays all day, through all my classes. In fact, I am so distracted that in English, my favorite teacher, Mr. Collins, takes me aside and asks if anything is wrong.I convince him that I’m fine; it’s only a little headache. That it’s the size of a twin sister, I don’t mention.That night Jessica wants to borrow everything of mine for her date with Todd. Even my new blue button-down shirt. But for one of the rare times, I’m not lending. My clothes aren’t going out with Todd, not unless I’m in them.Jessica doesn’t press. In fact, she looks a little uncomfortable. Maybe she does suspect that I might be interested in Todd. It’s like that: Just when Jessica seems most heartless …Oh, who am I kidding? She is a heartless bitch, and I hate her!