Unbearable Lightness: A Story of Loss and Gain

by Portia de Rossi

Atria Books | July 5, 2011 | Trade Paperback

Unbearable Lightness: A Story of Loss and Gain is rated 4.5 out of 5 by 4.
In this searing, unflinchingly honest New York Times bestseller, actress Portia de Rossi shares the truth of her long battle to overcome anorexia and bulimia while living in the public eye, and details the new happiness and health she has found in recent years—including her coming out and her marriage to Ellen DeGeneres.

Now in paperback, the New York Times bestselling memoir from Portia de Rossi explores the truth of her long battle to overcome anorexia and bulimia—“an unusually fresh and engrossing memoir of both Hollywood and modern womanhood” ( Los Angeles Times, 5 stars).

In this groundbreaking memoir, Portia de Rossi reveals the pain and illness that haunted her for decades, from the time she was a twelve-year-old girl working as a model in Australia, through her early rise to fame as a cast member of the hit television show Ally McBeal. All the while terrified that the truth of her sexuality would be exposed in the tabloids, Portia alternately starved herself and binged, putting her life in danger and concealing from herself and everyone around her the seriousness of her illness.

She describes the elaborate rituals around food that came to dominate hours of every day and explores the pivotal moments of her childhood that set her on the road to illness. She reveals the heartache and fear that accompany a life lived in the closet, a sense of isolation that was only magnified by her unrelenting desire to be ever thinner, ever more in control of her body and the number of calories she consumed and spent.

From her lowest point, Portia began the painful climb back to a life of health and honesty, falling in love and marrying Ellen DeGeneres and emerging as an outspoken and articulate advocate for gay rights and women’s health issues. In this remarkable and landmark book, she has given the world a story that inspires hope and nourishes the spirit.

Format: Trade Paperback

Dimensions: 320 pages, 8.44 × 5.5 × 0.9 in

Published: July 5, 2011

Publisher: Atria Books

Language: English

The following ISBNs are associated with this title:

ISBN - 10: 1439177791

ISBN - 13: 9781439177792

Found in: Biography and Memoir

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Rated 5 out of 5 by from A great read!! Nice to see celebrities are real people with real problems that have to overcome them like everyone else. Also a positive tool for those suffering with eating disorders and makes them feel they are not alone. A very brave tale to tell openly.
Date published: 2014-01-23
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Thank you! I cried lots when reading this book... I can feel Portia's feeling & her shame for not being herself & for putting her body to extreme conditions. I see in her a very strong will power & brave woman. A very kind & intelligent woman that just wanted to archive higher in her career just like everyone else & she worked very are for it.. Thanks for sharing your memoirs.. Yours & Ellen's love for each other is admirable.. Best wishes to you both
Date published: 2014-01-03
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Couldn't put it down. Loved this amazing story. Sad that I've finished it. Going to read it again I think.
Date published: 2013-12-24
Rated 3 out of 5 by from Frightenly True This story reveals the most heart wrenching emotional and physical effects of anorexia. At times, I thought it was exaggerated but that was only because I have never known anyone who has suffered from an eating disorder. This book is as real as it gets.
Date published: 2011-09-09

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Unbearable Lightness: A Story of Loss and Gain

Unbearable Lightness: A Story of Loss and Gain

by Portia de Rossi

Format: Trade Paperback

Dimensions: 320 pages, 8.44 × 5.5 × 0.9 in

Published: July 5, 2011

Publisher: Atria Books

Language: English

The following ISBNs are associated with this title:

ISBN - 10: 1439177791

ISBN - 13: 9781439177792

About the Book

In this searing, unflinchingly honest book, de Rossi captures the complex emotional truth of what it is like when food, weight, and body image take priority over every other human impulse or action.

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PROLOGUEHE DOESN’T WAIT until I’m awake. He comes into my unconscious to find me, to pull me out. He seizes my logical mind and disables it with fear. I awake already panic-stricken, afraid I won’t answer the voice correctly, the loud, clear voice that reverberates in my head like an alarm that can’t be turned off.What did you eat last night?Since we first met when I was twelve he’s been with me, at me, barking orders. A drill sergeant of a voice that is pushing me forward, marching ahead, keeping time. When the voice isn’t giving orders, it’s counting. Like a metronome, it is predictable. I can hear the tick of another missed beat and in the silence between beats I anxiously await the next tick; like the constant noise of an intermittently dripping faucet, it keeps counting in the silences when I want to be still. It tells me to never miss a beat. It tells me that I will get fat again if I do.The voice and the ticks are always very loud in the darkness of the early morning. The silences that I can’t fill with answers are even louder. God, what did I eat? Why can’t I remember?I breathe deeply in an attempt to calm my heartbeat back to its resting pulse. As I do, my nostrils are filled with stale cigarette smoke that hung around from the night before like a party guest who’d passed out on the living room sofa after everybody else went home. The digital clock reads 4:06, nine minutes before my alarm was set to wake me. I need to use the restroom, but I can’t get out of bed unti
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From the Publisher

In this searing, unflinchingly honest New York Times bestseller, actress Portia de Rossi shares the truth of her long battle to overcome anorexia and bulimia while living in the public eye, and details the new happiness and health she has found in recent years—including her coming out and her marriage to Ellen DeGeneres.

Now in paperback, the New York Times bestselling memoir from Portia de Rossi explores the truth of her long battle to overcome anorexia and bulimia—“an unusually fresh and engrossing memoir of both Hollywood and modern womanhood” ( Los Angeles Times, 5 stars).

In this groundbreaking memoir, Portia de Rossi reveals the pain and illness that haunted her for decades, from the time she was a twelve-year-old girl working as a model in Australia, through her early rise to fame as a cast member of the hit television show Ally McBeal. All the while terrified that the truth of her sexuality would be exposed in the tabloids, Portia alternately starved herself and binged, putting her life in danger and concealing from herself and everyone around her the seriousness of her illness.

She describes the elaborate rituals around food that came to dominate hours of every day and explores the pivotal moments of her childhood that set her on the road to illness. She reveals the heartache and fear that accompany a life lived in the closet, a sense of isolation that was only magnified by her unrelenting desire to be ever thinner, ever more in control of her body and the number of calories she consumed and spent.

From her lowest point, Portia began the painful climb back to a life of health and honesty, falling in love and marrying Ellen DeGeneres and emerging as an outspoken and articulate advocate for gay rights and women’s health issues. In this remarkable and landmark book, she has given the world a story that inspires hope and nourishes the spirit.

Editorial Reviews

“Quite possibly the best book on the subject ever written…. It will serve as life-changing inspiration for many.”
—Augusten Burroughs