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Waiting For First Light: My Ongoing Battle With Ptsd

byRomeo Dallaire

Hardcover | October 25, 2016

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Longlisted for the RBC Taylor Prize: In this piercing memoir, Roméo Dallaire, retired general and former senator, the author of the bestsellers Shake Hands with the Devil andThey Fight Like Soldiers, They Die Like Children, and one of the world's leading humanitarians, delves deep into his life since the Rwandan genocide.


At the heart of Waiting for First Light is a no-holds-barred self-portrait of a top political and military figure whose nights are invaded by despair, but who at first light faces the day with the renewed desire to make a difference in the world.
     Roméo Dallaire, traumatized by witnessing genocide on an imponderable scale in Rwanda, reflects in these pages on the nature of PTSD and the impact of that deep wound on his life since 1994, and on how he motivates himself and others to humanitarian work despite his constant struggle. Though he had been a leader in peace and in war at all levels up to deputy commander of the Canadian Army, his PTSD led to his medical dismissal from the Canadian Forces in April 2000, a blow that almost killed him. But he crawled out of the hole he fell into after he had to take off the uniform, and he has been inspiring people to give their all to multiple missions ever since, from ending genocide to eradicating the use of child soldiers to revolutionizing officer training so that our soldiers can better deal with the muddy reality of modern conflict zones and to revolutionizing our thinking about the changing nature of conflict itself.
     His new book is as compelling and original an account of suffering and endurance as Joan Didion's The Year of Magical Thinking and William Styron's Darkness Visible.
ROMÉO DALLAIRE is a retired lieutenant-general, retired Canadian senator, and celebrated humanitarian. In 1993, LGen Dallaire was appointed force commander for UNAMIR, where he bore witness to the Rwandan genocide. His Governor General's Literary Award-winning book, Shake Hands with the Devil, exposed the failures of the international ...
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Title:Waiting For First Light: My Ongoing Battle With PtsdFormat:HardcoverDimensions:208 pages, 8.7 × 5.9 × 0.8 inPublished:October 25, 2016Publisher:Random House of CanadaLanguage:English

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Rated 4 out of 5 by from amazing! with such an intriguing plot and amazing characters, I fell in love with this book when i read its first page
Date published: 2017-09-14
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Wished he ran for office Good conscience, and an example of bungling by the Government.
Date published: 2017-04-09
Rated 4 out of 5 by from HOPE IN DARK TIMES Dallaire bashes myths about tough soldiers through his vulnerable, honest and heart felt telling of his experiences.
Date published: 2017-03-16
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Compelling Extraordinary experience of his struggle with PTSD following Rwanda
Date published: 2017-01-15
Rated 5 out of 5 by from amazing! Such a horrible experience he had to live through! A compelling story indeed!
Date published: 2017-01-11
Rated 5 out of 5 by from amazing This is an amazing insight into what veterans and the armed forces face with PTSD. He has amazing courage in writing his experience with PTSD.
Date published: 2017-01-10
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Moving Romeo Dallaire is one of the closest things Canada has to a hero and he continues to make this country stronger by sharing a deeply penetrating look at what many soldiers endure everyday after returning home. This should be a must read for all Canadians.
Date published: 2016-12-22
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Brutal but necessary This was a hard read - the subject matter is very intense. I found the writing very compelling and hard to put down. Amazing courage to live through this experience once and then to write about it.
Date published: 2016-12-19
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Compelling Even though I'm maybe half-way through this book, I can honestly say that this book is compelling. Reading Dallaire's words, reliving the Rwandan genocide with him, gives the reader a true sense of the reality of war, but also of what happens to soldiers returning from a mission that has seen death. Too often, we write off what has happened as, "over there", almost surreal; we hear, we see, but we don't understand. I think Afghanistan brought to light for Canadians the reality of war; Dallaire's book details his (other other soldiers) dealing with PTSD, and the horrible effects in can have. Readers should feel compelled to push for better mental health in Canada, for soldiers and citizens alike.
Date published: 2016-11-14
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Heart-rending An insightful telling of the current conditions facing our armed forces and peacekeepers, and of the impacts on them and their families. General Dallaire bares his most intimate thoughts and feelings as well as his tremendous courage and outstanding work ethics in this telling of his experience with PTSD.
Date published: 2016-11-08
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Incredible Having read General Dallaire's other books and had the opportunity to hear him speak a number of times this book was not surprising in it's brilliance. It gives a harsh and honest look at the battle that rages on inside military members once they arrive home. His openness and willingness to share his story continues to help to educate us and hopefully will help to make the necessary changes so no one else has to suffer. #plumreview
Date published: 2016-11-06
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Heartbreaking! OMG, I just finished this amazing, heartbreaking book. He is an amazing man, so inspiring. This should be mandatory reading for all Canadians. It is "who we are".
Date published: 2016-11-01

Editorial Reviews

Longlisted for the 2017 RBC Taylor Prize“[A]n important look at the plight of returning soldiers. . . . Dallaire’s work adds to a growing understanding of the special challenges and traumas faced by peacekeepers. . . . While the average person might not be inclined to read clinical literature, Dallaire offers something more: an honest, firsthand account—and from a general, no less.” —National Post“Dallaire reveals an intriguing oxymoron: a poetic general; a soulful warrior.” —The Globe and Mail“[E]xtraordinary book. . . . There is light in Waiting for First Light.” —Carol Off, CBC“The courage and intensity of [his] revelations are deeply personal and unsettling. . . . But there is much here . . . to inspire and nurture hope. . . . Dallaire’s book is an eloquent cautionary tale about what can happen if PTSD goes unaddressed for too long. . . . This is a valuable and rare look into the soul of one who suffers from PTSD. On this merit alone it will stand as an important read.” —The Globe and Mail“[B]rutally revealing. . . . Dallaire’s raw and emotionally devastating new book lays bare his own inner torment. . . . He is not a man given easily to spilling his guts. He wonders if his graphic honesty, stripping away veils that have hidden two decades of pain, will inspire contempt for his perceived weakness. . . . But he had a powerful motive to start digging. Service and duty matter more than anything else to Dallaire, and he could see how a description of his post-Africa life—the story of the other hell—could help fellow sufferers. . . . If PTSD has had a face in Canada over the last twenty years, it is Roméo Dallaire’s. His life story, in effect, is a personal history of how Canada, and the modern world in general, has responded to PTSD.” —Maclean’s“[A]n important petition for a greater understanding of our returning veterans.” —National Post“A stirring account from a tragic mission that crystallizes the necessity of ensuring invisible injuries are treated with the requisite resources, attention and time as those that are physical in nature. Bravo Zulu, General Dallaire. Canada, and the international community, thanks you for your leadership.” —Scott Maxwell, Executive Director, Wounded Warriors Canada   “I was left reeling by this book, overcome by shock, dismay, amazement. I’ve never read anything about post-traumatic stress quite so stark, honest and graphic. Roméo Dallaire bares his soul to the world . . . it’s an act of stunning courage and a literary tour de force.” —Stephen Lewis   “Roméo Dallaire’s PTSD, stemming from his experiences and peacekeeping responsibilities during the horrific Rwandan genocide, has affected all aspects of his life for the past twenty years. With brutal honesty and characteristically unsparing of himself, he shows the reader how PTSD has caused unshakable guilt, perennial insomnia, persistent distress, complicated family difficulties and spiritual angst. Although this book is about pain, it is not about despair. It is a triumph. His understanding of human suffering at a very personal and intense level has propelled him into his current role as a champion for many important humanitarian causes such as the plight of child soldiers. By looking his demons in the eye and holding that gaze despite institutional ignorance and inaction, General Dallaire has transformed the Canadian military so that servicemen and women with PTSD may now acquire the treatment and support they need. This book is a compelling, evocative, educational and riveting inspiration to all of us.” —Matthew J. Friedman MD, PhD Senior Adviser (and former Executive Director), National Center for PTSD, U.S. Department of Veterans Affairs Professor of Psychiatry and Pharmacology/Toxicology, Geisel School of Medicine at DartmouthPraise for LGen. the Hon. Roméo Dallaire:“He’s a great Canadian hero and a great human being recognized all over the world.” —Gurbir Sandhu, executive director of Calgary Centre for Global Community, Calgary Sun“Roméo Dallaire is passionate about his project: the Roméo Dallaire Child Soldier Initiative. His goal is to end the use and recruitment of child soldiers around the world. He’s so dedicated to the effort, he resigned as a Senator to raise awareness. . . . Horton High students have been coming to hear Dallaire speak since 2010 and he’s having an effect on them. ‘Many of them leave saying this is one of their most memorable moments of high school—to hear such a great humanitarian speak,’ says Renata Verri, a History teacher at Horton High.” —Ray Bradshaw, Global News“Through all your trials and sorrows, you have come to exemplify the greatest ideals to which we can aspire. You move us to come together and express our common humanity. . . . You have made us all more human, more feeling, more emotionally attached to people and situations half a world away. We know one thing––you will not quit––and this in itself is a reason for all of us to remain hopeful, to keep looking for reasons for optimism.” —Former Governor General Adrienne Clarkson, on the occasion of the presentation of the Pearson Peace Medal to Roméo Dallaire   “[Dallaire] is . . . a Canadian hero, embodying in his humanity, his pragmatism, his complete absence of racism and grandiosity and his passionate, dogged, global civility many of our country’s most cherished values. . . . Dallaire gives us something to believe in. That he has done so with his eyes and heart wide open to the worst our species has to offer is a monumental achievement.” —The Vancouver Sun