It Ends with Us: A Novel by Colleen HooverIt Ends with Us: A Novel by Colleen Hoover

It Ends with Us: A Novel

byColleen Hoover

Paperback | August 2, 2016

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The newest, highly anticipated novel from beloved #1 New York Times bestselling author, Colleen Hoover.

Sometimes it is the one who loves you who hurts you the most.

Lily hasn’t always had it easy, but that’s never stopped her from working hard for the life she wants. She’s come a long way from the small town in Maine where she grew up—she graduated from college, moved to Boston, and started her own business. So when she feels a spark with a gorgeous neurosurgeon named Ryle Kincaid, everything in Lily’s life suddenly seems almost too good to be true.

Ryle is assertive, stubborn, maybe even a little arrogant. He’s also sensitive, brilliant, and has a total soft spot for Lily. And the way he looks in scrubs certainly doesn’t hurt. Lily can’t get him out of her head. But Ryle’s complete aversion to relationships is disturbing. Even as Lily finds herself becoming the exception to his “no dating” rule, she can’t help but wonder what made him that way in the first place.

As questions about her new relationship overwhelm her, so do thoughts of Atlas Corrigan—her first love and a link to the past she left behind. He was her kindred spirit, her protector. When Atlas suddenly reappears, everything Lily has built with Ryle is threatened.

With this bold and deeply personal novel, Colleen Hoover delivers a heart-wrenching story that breaks exciting new ground for her as a writer. Combining a captivating romance with a cast of all-too-human characters, It Ends With Us is an unforgettable tale of love that comes at the ultimate price.
Colleen Hoover (born December 11, 1979) is the author of many New York Times bestselling novels. She is also the author of the Slammed series and the Hopeless series, which includes Hopeless, Losing Hope and the free novella Finding Cinderella. The most recent release is the NYT's bestseller, Maybe Someday, which includes links to an o...
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Title:It Ends with Us: A NovelFormat:PaperbackDimensions:384 pages, 8.25 × 5.31 × 1 inPublished:August 2, 2016Publisher:Atria BooksLanguage:English

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Rated 5 out of 5 by from Pulled on my heart strings This was a great read. For me it was so relatable in many ways. It brought tears to my eyes and I could not put it down.
Date published: 2017-10-11
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Colleen Hoover never disappoints I'm not a big romance reader, but Colleen Hoover is my absolute go-to when I'm feeling like I need some sort of romantic comedy. This one surprised me most, though. Very important.
Date published: 2017-10-09
Rated 4 out of 5 by from It's a good book For sure It helps the reader to get some understanding of an abusive relationship. However, sometimes it seems just a scratch. I was wondering to see more.
Date published: 2017-10-01
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Phenomenal This novel truly gave me a mix of emotions. Happiness, heartbreak, and surprise. I thought I would have a tough time reading this, but wow was it ever realistic. I definitely suggested this to friends of mine.
Date published: 2017-09-26
Rated 4 out of 5 by from worth the read great read, relatable characters
Date published: 2017-09-21
Rated 5 out of 5 by from WOW JUST WOW I usually love Hoover's book but this one is by far my fav. The characters, the plot, everything about this novel is amazing!
Date published: 2017-09-14
Rated 5 out of 5 by from LOVE IT This was my first Colleen Hoover book & I'm hooked! Love the surprising twists in these novels!
Date published: 2017-09-12
Rated 5 out of 5 by from loved it I feel like it's Hoover's mission in life to see how fast she can make me cry while reading her books... but I still love this book anyway
Date published: 2017-09-11
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Heartbreaking!! First off I want to say I did enjoy this book. It was well written I just personally couldn't relate to the characters. I suppose lots of women go through this kinda trauma so it's an eye opener. Never disappointed with Colleen's books.
Date published: 2017-09-11
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Must Read! There are very few stories I can honestly say feel like an experience and this is definitely one of them. It Ends With Us is one of the most powerful books of 2016 and one of the rawest, honest, inspiring, and profoundly beautiful stories I've ever read. It wasn’t anything like what I expected, but it delivered so much more than I ever hoped for. This is the kind of book that I want to give to every woman and just be like… "READ THIS BOOK. NOW." Come to think of it, all the men should read it too. EVERYONE should read this book. Lily, the main character, grew up in an abusive household. After watching her mother suffer for years at the hand of her father, she told herself that she'll never allow any man to treat her that way. She grew into a strong and independent woman, leaving behind the horrors of her childhood...or so she thought. Despite everything she promised herself, Lily found herself in an abusive relationship. The behaviour and cycles were so horrible that you almost can't believe what is happening. Colleen Hover managed to weave the violence into a relationship that is otherwise seemingly perfect. It is so skillfully written that you won't want to believe what you've read. I found myself making excuses for the abuser. I didn't want to believe that he wouldn't change. For the first time, I could understand why women make excuses for abusers. I can only imagine how strong that pull must be in reality if I felt so strongly about a fictional character. As a society, we are quick to judge women (and men) who stay in abusive relationships without taking into account what the process really is like for them. We get a slight glimpse into the fragile situation of how incredibly difficult it is to leave a dangerous relationship when you love the person who is causing you harm. I am in awe of Lily. Her strength and conviction blew me away. I don't think I would've been strong enough to do what she did. She was an amazing character. Viewing the story through her eyes made the book a lot more emotional because whatever she felt, I felt too. Whatever emotion she felt at whatever moment, that was how I felt too. This was a beautiful and heartbreaking book. I recommend it to everyone. It is a must read.
Date published: 2017-09-10
Rated 5 out of 5 by from wow this was the first Colleen Hoover book i've read - i hear that this is by far her best book, which makes me not want to pick up any other. this book truly left me heart broken, shattered, in tears but yearning for more! it talks about every aspect of a relationship, all the good, bad and everything in between. Colleen was not afraid, to tell the truth and nothing but the truth, really dives into your heart and soul. i highly recommend this for anyone who is a hopeless romantic. she is a great storyteller and has you attached til the very end. pretty sure i finished this book in 2 days if i didn't have a job/life i would've sat there all day and finishing it in one go!
Date published: 2017-09-09
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Definitely my favourite of hers. I hadn't read a book in about 2-3 years so when i walked into Chapters, I had absolutely no idea what i was looking for. One month later, and I've now read 4 of her books with a fifth currently in the mail on its way. This book gives you a sense of every emotion in your body. Every emotion you've ever felt and even some you didnt know you could feel. At first it starts off an over the top, head over heels love and first sight but then slowly turns into a nightmare. Come the final few pages, you start to realize what was missing all along and how it all ties together for a happy ending. This book has love, sex, fear, abuse, lust, everything. I highly recommend this book to anyone looking for a romance.
Date published: 2017-09-07
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Classic Colleen Hoover, i.e. YOU NEED TO READ THIS BOOK I feel like every time I review a Colleen Hoover book, I say the same thing: Colleen broke my heart into a million pieces, and then put it back together again. This novel is equal parts beautiful and heartbreaking, made even more poignant by the fact that it is so close to Colleen's heart. There were a few sentences in this book that completely shattered me all on their own. Every sentence is beautifully written and then pieced together to create something that feels so real you can't help but want to crawl into the book's pages and hug the characters one by one.
Date published: 2017-08-29
Rated 1 out of 5 by from no i really did not enjoy this book while it is interesting and though provokingm overall imo it was a bad book
Date published: 2017-08-25
Rated 1 out of 5 by from no i really did not enjoy this book while it is interesting and though provokingm overall imo it was a bad book
Date published: 2017-08-25
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Really great! Really enjoyed reading this. Just when you think things will end up a certain way, things change. Great plot.
Date published: 2017-08-24
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Loved it! This is one of my favourite Colleen Hoover book. It will keep you reading. it's AMAZING. So much emotion.!!
Date published: 2017-08-14
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Fave This is by far one of my favourite Colleen Hoover books, after Too Late. There are so many feels throughout this book. I found myself crying, laughing, and everything in between. l loved the story and the characters.
Date published: 2017-08-02
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Kept Me Reading! This was a GREAT read. It's events are totally unexpected and really keeps you guessing where the characters minds are at. It's well thought out and touches on some very important subject matter. I wasn't expecting it to turn out the way it did!
Date published: 2017-07-28
Rated 5 out of 5 by from favourite read This was my first Collen Hoover novel and it was great! probably one my favourite books of all time. It was happy and heartbreaking at the same time. I would definitely recommend! Just bought 3 more of her novels!
Date published: 2017-07-27
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Absolutely AMAZING This was the best novel I have read in a while. The story of the protagonist from her teen years to her adult life both were thrilling to read. The story took a turn for the worst and was no the happily ever after I expected but that made the novel all the more better! Using domestic abuse in the novel and how it really affects the family and wife involved was eye opening. #plumreview
Date published: 2017-07-20
Rated 5 out of 5 by from LOVED Another WIN for Colleen. this is my fav of her novels.. if you haven't read any of her books yet, then you are missing out.
Date published: 2017-07-18
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Amazing! Touching, raw and emotional. Hooked on Colleen's books
Date published: 2017-07-10
Rated 5 out of 5 by from I'm in awe I don't know what to say. I don't know where to start. I'm in awe. When it happened the first time, when I could see where this story was going, I was full of dread. And sadness. And I ached for her. I ached for Lily. I ached for Atlas, and there was a time or two that I even ached for Ryle. If I could put this book into words, I would say that it's real. There are so many love stories that wrap love up with a red bow, making it look so pretty. But this was real. And honest. Heartbreaking. I wasn't expecting to finish the story feeling the way I feel now, but I feel hopeful. For Lily, for her future with Atlas and Emerson. But most of all, I feel hope for the men and women that suffer abuse at the hands of their loved ones every day, all around the world. I hope they can find the courage that Lily felt and end the cycle. Colleen Hoover has written a wonderfully real and honest book, and I'm so glad that I decided to read this. And I'm so glad it ended with them. "You can stop swimming now, Lily. We finally reached the shore."
Date published: 2017-07-09
Rated 5 out of 5 by from WOW!!!! Oh my!!! This was my first book by colleen hoover that i read. LOVED IT I now have her book list to enjoy more of her books.
Date published: 2017-07-06
Rated 5 out of 5 by from An Amazingly Beautiful Novel! This is the first book I've ever read by Colleen Hoover and now I can't wait to read more. It's a very special novel that was just so well written, interesting and life-changing! Loved it from the beginning to the end.
Date published: 2017-06-28
Rated 5 out of 5 by from another colleen hoover book for the win! I absolutely love everything by colleen hoover This is my third book and it was amazing. It deals with deep issues that was tough to read but it’s the truth. We are so quick to judge from the outside but have no idea how hard it is to live it. Just because someone hurts us doesn’t mean we stop loving them!
Date published: 2017-06-26
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Wow! I couldn't put this book down because I HAD to know what was going to happen. Definitely worth the hype!
Date published: 2017-06-22
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Heartbreaking This book is so much more than a love story. It shows you how complicated love and relationships are. It truly is a heartbreaking story and I could not put it down. You feel so much for these characters. Well written and beautiful.
Date published: 2017-06-21
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Devoured this Book I couldn't put this book down. It is equal parts beautiful and heartbreaking at the same time. Get ready for a kick in the stomach with this one. It examines the difficult layers of relationship. Everyone is not just good or bad but many shades of grey.
Date published: 2017-06-19
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Amazing I sped through this book in a matter of 2 days, I couldn't put it down except when I had too. I am someone that has really been into thrillers and suspense novels lately and was unsure how I would feel with a romance based novel. However this floored me. I love the way Colleen writes, she captivates you and after finishing this I went and bought about 4 more of her books to read! It was definitely a page turner!
Date published: 2017-06-02
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Heart-Wrenching, Enlightening ** spoiler alert ** This was an excellently written, very clever book with an important message. Namely, that nothing important in life is binary. Reading this novel made me re-think some pre-conceptions I had about motherhood, being a parent, and the nature of strength. I would strongly recommend this novel for just about everyone. There is something here for you if you have doubted your upbringing, or parental units; if you have struggled to justify the actions of a loved one; and especially if you have made a life altering decision to protect someone you love.
Date published: 2017-05-25
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Beautiful I am a HUGE Colleen Hoover fan and I just loved this book. I just love her style. Its an easy read. Its very heartfelt romantic and heartbreaking. All the feels.
Date published: 2017-05-18
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Heartbreaking & Beautiful I was so enthralled by this book, I finished it in one day
Date published: 2017-05-16
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Amazing This was really good and heartbreaking at the same time.
Date published: 2017-05-13
Rated 5 out of 5 by from loved it This book really touched my heart and i loved it.
Date published: 2017-05-06
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Beautiful novel I loved everything about "It Ends With Us" Lily is the most amazing character that Colleen has ever written. Colleen tackled the issue of domestic violence in the most beautiful and honest way I have ever seen domestic violence represented in any media form. In no way did she glamourize domestic violence and instead showed the struggles a victim can face while in a violent relationship. Overall, this book is the most amazing and beautiful book I have read.
Date published: 2017-04-23
Rated 4 out of 5 by from A Great Message This wasn't expected. This book probably will be triggering for some, but I think it sends out an important message without at all making any victim feel as if they're in the wrong. The thing that makes this book so special is how real it all seems, like it isn't fiction and how you could very well imagine someone experiencing the same motions as Lily throughout the whole book. I think everyone should read this book - you fall in love along side Lily, you fall apart when she falls apart, and you're put back together when she stands up and fights for herself. What more could you want?
Date published: 2017-04-22
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Love it I loved this book! It was real and raw.
Date published: 2017-04-22
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Pleasant surprise When I first started reading this book I instantly thought "ugh another cheesy romance", after reading it further you can really see the story stray from that. Like a lot of other reviewers you get so caught up in the reality and grittiness of the story that you become truly torn about how you want it to end. My only issue with this book is that it isn't part of a series. I would love it if there was a book (or two) to continue the story.
Date published: 2017-04-10
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Beautiful Story I loved every single pages. Colleen Hoover made you fall in love with every character, so the ending was near, you can't help but feel SUPER TORN between who you want to rule for.
Date published: 2017-04-06
Rated 5 out of 5 by from heartbreakingly beautiful so beautifully written. made me check out her other books too.
Date published: 2017-04-06
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Good read This is the first book I've read by Colleen Hoover and I'm looking forward to checking out some of her other books.
Date published: 2017-03-30
Rated 5 out of 5 by from A great read!!! I was given this book to read and when i started i couldn't put it down. This book is a book that you get drawn into the story and characters.
Date published: 2017-03-29
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Awsome book! The story was great. Love the love story at first I was like it not really interesting but I keep reading like when you almost got at the end it so so so good. You will fall in love with this book
Date published: 2017-03-21
Rated 5 out of 5 by from New favourite author! This book really is a masterpiece. It was a huge hit at book club and everyone had so much to say. We love Lily so much and we feel like with everything she’s gone through, she’s such a strong character, bold and brave. I don’t even know where to begin when it comes to the feels. There were tears, moments where my heart would stop, break or swoon.
Date published: 2017-03-13
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Not Quite A Romance This was a really important book that needed to be written and that was a tough but necessary read. Though it's often found in the romance section because the author is considered a romance author I wouldn't consider this romance. Also the author has a thing against trigger warnings but I think they are necessary for this book so, trigger warning: domestic violence, sexual assault. #plumreview
Date published: 2017-03-06
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Great novel! Once again Colleen has written a great novel!
Date published: 2017-03-06
Rated 5 out of 5 by from A down to earth book I bought this as a Valentine gift to myself(LOL). It was really good and very beautifully written. A life story with real endings, not like fairytales. I totally recommend.
Date published: 2017-03-03
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Amazing book ** Spoilers *** I'm going to be honest I thought this book was going to be a really shitty young adult romance but I did not expect it to be such an amazing story. I am glad I gave this book a chance. I thought this book was going to be like the Ugly Love like Colleen wrote which I didn't not like. It Ends with us is an amazing book. The story, the writing, the characters were amazing. Colleen did an amazing job. I feel like I could connect a lot with Lily because I know what it's like to be abused by someone. In the beginning I felt like Ryle was a was not right for Lily because all he wanted to do is have sex with her. Though out the first half of the book I did not think that he was going to be abuser. But after the first time he hit her I was like no! Run girl before he comes and gets you! I do feel bad for Lily. I was happy in the end when she did end up with Atlas. The only thing I did not like was the letters to Ellen, I kind found it cheesy but it did give me an insight on Atlas story. I think what Colleen was trying to show was that someone we look for the wrong when the right is in front of us. Also it shows how lily ended up divorcing her Ryle, something that her mother could never do. Lily was able to break the circle of abuse. Which I was proud of! This has to be my favourite book of 2017. I can't wait to read more of her books.
Date published: 2017-02-27
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Incredible!! The characters colleen hoover creates are so real and it leaves you feeling all kinds of emotions.
Date published: 2017-02-26
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Everyone Should Read This I can't even put into words what an amazing read "It Ends With Us." is. I've read quite a few of Colleen's other novels, and this is honestly unlike anything she's ever written before. I can't even say too much about it without spoiling anything, and this is honestly one of those books that the less you know going into it the better. I can however say that this is one of the most gripping and honest romance novels I've ever read, and I applaud Colleen Hoover for choosing to tackle such a difficult subject. Please go ahead and read this, I can promise you won't be disappointed.
Date published: 2017-02-22
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Colleen's best yet!! Colleen Hoover can do no wrong, but this book completely blew me away. It easily stole the top spot as my all time fave CoHo book. If you haven't read any of Colleen's work you definitely should!!
Date published: 2017-02-22
Rated 4 out of 5 by from 3.5 Stars A good read with a heavy subject matter. This is the first book I have read by Hoover but has made me a fan.
Date published: 2017-02-21
Rated 5 out of 5 by from LOVED IT! Another amazing work from Colleen Hoover <3 <3 #plumreview
Date published: 2017-02-20
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Amazing Another strong work by Colleen Hoover. This one was hard to put down and stayed with me long after finishing it.
Date published: 2017-02-09
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Powerful Wow. What a way to start my 2017 reading year! This. Book. Was. Incredible. I'm still reeling with emotion, and I finished this one a couple of days ago. This story was so powerful and it will be a book that stays with me for the rest of my life. I think absolutely everyone should read It Ends With Us. This book was just so smart. The way that the story unfolds is so natural and realistic and really makes you think. Lily has also become one of my favourite characters I've ever read. Throughout her whole journey I had nothing but respect for her and her situation. So yes, I love love LOVE this book! I highly recommend that everyone read this, regardless of whether you enjoy Colleen Hoover's books or not. I've come to believe that It Ends With Us is a cut above the rest. This book broke my heart and made it sing, all in a couple of sittings.
Date published: 2017-02-02
Rated 5 out of 5 by from I Loved It This book was heartbreakingly beautiful!
Date published: 2017-02-01
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Great book I was great. No words. I was really hoping for her husband to pull through and change but I also knew and wanted her to end up with atlas. I was really just sad for her husband(ex-husband) (i forgot his name) in the end because of all he still had to go through in his life and that he lost her in the end. Maybe he learned from it for the next girl. I want a happy ending for him too but I was totally fine with how Colleen did it.
Date published: 2017-01-30
Rated 5 out of 5 by from LOVED IT! I fell in love with the story and binged read the book within 48 hours (that's how amazing it was). Not only was the story incredible, but the actual message was so important. I was so proud of Lily's character at the end and what she chose because at the end of the day one of the hardest things to do is let go of love even when it is toxic for you!
Date published: 2017-01-21
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Speechless!! This was my first book of Colleen Hoover & definitely wont be the last. This is definitely the most moving book I've read in a while, finished it in less then 2 days. The ending left me with so many mixed emotions. What a heart wrenching novel.
Date published: 2017-01-21
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Incredible Any book by Colleen Hoover is worth 5 stars in my eyes lol
Date published: 2017-01-18
Rated 3 out of 5 by from Good book I thought it was interesting.
Date published: 2017-01-18
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Heartbreaking I cried, and when I think about it, I don't know why I cried. Colleen Hoover is a beautiful writer, and when her books deal with deeper themes like this one did, I get extremely emotional
Date published: 2017-01-13
Rated 5 out of 5 by from better than expected this was my first colleen hoover book and it was much better than I expected. This isn't NA there is a message to the story.
Date published: 2017-01-12
Rated 5 out of 5 by from WOW! Couldn't put it down! Just finished reading this book and discovered a fabulous author! I fell in love with the characters! What a heart wrenching story... I wish this story could go on! Will now search for another Colleen Hoover book!
Date published: 2017-01-10
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Loved this Loved this! It's far-fetched but so realistic at the same time.
Date published: 2017-01-04
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Best book ever Reading Colleen Hoover's books brings me so much and It Ends With Us was no exception. I loved it so much!!!
Date published: 2017-01-02
Rated 5 out of 5 by from MY FAVORITE READ OF 2016. It took me a little over 5 hours to finish this book. In that time I casually cried four times, and sobbed twice. This books is everything I hoped it would be and more. Lily's character was strong, and was someone you can look up to. Ryle's character was so frustrating for me, and to many others I'm sure, because you wanted to love him! But he was so unintentionally destructive, and it just makes you so sad. Atlas was the PERFECT character. Seriously, the book ended just as I hoped. I hope Colleen writes a companion to this one so that we get more of Atlas. I need more. (This book is primarily about dealing with domestic abuse.)
Date published: 2017-01-02
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Another great story! Again, a book by Colleen Hoover that made me laugh and cry and fall in love with the characters. This story touched my heart on a personal level and I thank the author for writing it. I was finished it in a day and will rave to everyone I know how wonderful it is.
Date published: 2016-12-29
Rated 5 out of 5 by from AMAZING! A friend had recommended this novel! She told me to not read the back of the book, to just jump right into it, and I did! I read it in one day, I could not put the book down! i fell in love with the characters right away! I would definitely read this book again!
Date published: 2016-12-28
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Very powerful A beautiful, powerful, heart-breaking story of domestic abuse and breaking cycles. Once again, Colleen Hoover's writing is like candy and this one was hard to put down.
Date published: 2016-12-26
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Powerful fiction Super powerful, brought up issues normally untouched in such depth by other romance novels. Worth the read.
Date published: 2016-12-26
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Another favourite this summer This book tore my heart out. I cried and that doesn't happen much while I read. Must read! #plumreview
Date published: 2016-12-21
Rated 4 out of 5 by from Tragically Romantic Whenever I see Colleen Hoover's name on the cover of anything I MUST read it. I love her writing style and the characters she creates are so vivid, and It Ends With Us was no exception. This novel grabbed me from the beginning and it kept me on my toes the entire time, teetering back and forth on my feelings for the characters and the emotions. Oh, the emotions! I cried, I laughed, I feel in love, and hard my heart broken all at once. I was sad for it to end; I would love it there was a sequel!
Date published: 2016-12-15
Rated 5 out of 5 by from loved this!!! This book blew my mind! Honestly Amazing!!
Date published: 2016-12-12
Rated 5 out of 5 by from must read this books was simply amazing
Date published: 2016-11-19
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Heartbreakingly Beautiful This book is unlike any other Colleen Hoover book - it will literally break your heart and then put it back together again. A must read for everyone and anyone!
Date published: 2016-11-15
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Beyond words! The first thing I want to say is, Colleen Hoover, I have so much respect for you for writing this novel and not ever deleting it as you were writing. I read the Author's Note immediately after finishing the book and the book alone was so powerful, but I think readers should also read the note at the end as well. This book and the writer's skills did a great job of showing Lily's mother's relationship with her father and Lily's experience and point of view of it and then her position when she felt herself possibly falling into the same position as her mother was previously in, and understanding her actions. I have so much respect for Colleen and her mother after reading this book. And I don't feel like I've even completely said all that I've wanted to about this book. You just have to read it. Everyone should read this. There are so many adjectives to describe this book and yet, to me, words are not enough to describe the rawness, the heartbreaking intensity, and the pure need of this book in the world. Thank you Colleen for writing this book.
Date published: 2016-11-12
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Amazing.. This book was truly such an amazing read. From the moment I started reading this book, I couldn't put it down. Finished reading it in 8 hours! So many feels reading this book. This was such a powerful read and great insight for those who have experience domestic abuse, that involves love, complication, confusion, and strength.
Date published: 2016-11-11
Rated 5 out of 5 by from An Amazing Book with Wonderful Insight to Something We Cannot Begin To Comprehend Oh. My. God. Once again Colleen Hoovers words have made me laugh, cry, broken my heart and made me fall in love with her characters. I fell in love with Lily and Ryle and immediately anticipated and welcomed reading they're love story. I also fell in love with Lily and Atlas and how they supported and loved one another is something I one day hope to experience. I'm not going to get into a lot of how I felt about this book because I know I'd end up spoiling it for someone. And by someone I mean my best friend who would hate me forever. However I will definitely be reviewing this soon on my blog with full spoilery thoughts. Well done coho. Well done
Date published: 2016-11-11
Rated 5 out of 5 by from An Important Read This novel is an important piece of fiction. Hoover does an amazing job of exploring the subject of domestic abuse. One of my absolute favorite parts of It Ends With Us, is when Hoover discusses the subject of leaving an abusive partner. The novel explores the vast expanse of grey that exists within a domestically abusive relationship, and you find yourself realizing how very possible it is to have your very black and white perceptions turned on the head.
Date published: 2016-11-11
Rated 5 out of 5 by from a powerful read I absolutely love everything Colleen Hoover writes, this book was no different, but at times it was hard to stomach, which is a good thing, these are topics that need to be discussed. it was such a powerful and moving story about a woman who needs to put herself first in a dangerous situation with a man she loves. This book puts a voice to the women who are often in domestic violence relationships and their side of the story of the battle between love for yourself and love for the abuser, which can sometimes be blinding. A very powerful and touching book that is a must read.
Date published: 2016-11-10
Rated 5 out of 5 by from So powerful, a story that will stick with you Well I couldn't put this book down for the past 24 hours and it brought me to tears so if that's not 5 stars then I don't know what is. What a truthful view of abuse from the perspective of total love and complication. It's so easy to be a judge on the outside and say you know your limits, but it's hard when it happens to you and you're forced to make that decision. So glad I finally got to read this and understand the great reviews it got.
Date published: 2016-11-07
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Epic novel Any novel I read now will pail in comparison to this novel. It's the naked truth and isn't a typical glorified love story. Beautifully written and heartbreakingly eye opening.
Date published: 2016-11-04
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Heartbreakingly Beautiful This book is so emotional and raw and absolutely addicting. It makes you feel so many emotions and it's beautifully written. If the plot wasn't so harshly realistic and sad I would have read it all in one sitting. But it gets to your emotions so much you almost need a break from time to time. Colleen Hoover's best novel to date. Excellent! Like the review on the novel states "anyone with a heartbeat should read this book"
Date published: 2016-11-04
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Colleen does it again! You want the naked truth? You NEED to read this book. That is all. 59/10 would recommend.
Date published: 2016-09-05
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Emotional yet necessary As a proud CoHort I preordered this baby once it was available to preorder. Colleen is an auto-buy author for me so my review will be skewed because I flove this woman, her writing and her characters. Naked truth? I read the author's note before reading the book. I love spoilers so there's that. Do not do what I did if you do not love spoilers. Whether you go in blindly or have a hint of what the storyline centres around, you will still have major feelings during and after reading this story. I wasn't a crying mess but I felt all the emotions that were flowing out of the pages. This book will make you open your eyes to people around you; show you that empathy and support will go further than you can imagine. Be bold and brave.
Date published: 2016-08-03
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Review from This is the Story of My(Reading) Life I actually first read It Ends With Us a few months ago. It's pretty simple, when a CoHo book shows up in your hands there's no waiting. That first read left me emotionally drained. So I failed to write a review. Making a reread in order. And I'm so glad it worked out this way as my second read was able to give me some much-needed perspective well knowing what was to come. Still being emotionally immersed in the story I was now able to step outside it and think about everything this story made me feel; my reactions to the raw situations and most importantly the happy ones. What I mean to really say is that It Ends With Us needs to be read twice. That first read is a prelude to what the second read will really offer you. Still, no matter how many times I read this book it will never take away from how much I love it and appreciate its existence. The first rule of reading It Ends With Us is not spoiling It Ends With Us. This a book and story that everyone needs to discover for themselves. It is a story about Lily meeting a boy, Ryle and how their love unfolds. It is a story about Lily's past with a different boy shaping her future. It is a story about Lily's childhood mirroring her adult years in a way she never thought she'd let it. It Ends With Us is a raw and scary story saturated in Colleen Hoover's personal experience. Which is both moving and profound. It Ends With Us showcases the importance of having a supportive and caring support system. Ultimately this is a story that will have readers discussing a lot of important topics. Naked truth, It Ends With Us was eye opening and has changed my life in less than 400 pages. This one line resonated with me, as I'm sure it will many people; as well as setting the tone for the book(actually the whole first chapter is a brilliant use of foreshadowing; after you've read the book go back and reread it and you'll see what I mean). "Ryle looks over at me with a thoughtful expression. "Lily," he says pointedly. "There is no such thing as bad people. We're all just people who sometimes do bad things." pg.17 Lily's relationship is far from black and white. And the opinions I had before I read this book have drastically changed(on some aspects). It is so easy for someone outside of the situation to have an opinion. It is much different to be living through that situation. And I really understood those differences through what Lily experiences. Beyond everything else, It Ends With Us is a deeply emotional story that is an important one. Tragically bad things happen and books like this one tell that story that many people are living. But also it doesn't have to end tragically; there can be a happy ending and that not everyone is alone.
Date published: 2016-08-03
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Colleen's Best Book Yet! This book was just breath-taking and heart-wrenching all at once. Ever since I've read Colleen Hoover's books they never disappointed me. But It Ends With Us blew it out of the water. I was literally crying at the end and wishing it didn't end but, at the same time happy for Lily and the choices she had to make. I could not put this book down! Colleen you did it again with this strong powerful book that will be talked about. Now I have an epic book hangover and just want to re-read it again. Everyone needs to read this books. It Ends With Us is not just about love it's also about what can really happen in homes today. Hoover did an amazing job writing about this because it is still happening in homes today. I went in without knowing what was going to happen because it just made me love Hoover's writing more as she developed this story. This is Colleen Hoovers best book hands down because it was just phenomenal from the start. It had love, grief, sadness, fear and so many emotions that you see our main character Lily go through. While the story of the subject is hard to discuss, Colleen blew my expectations. Lily's strength over the course of the book was what you call a true heroine and what you want to see happen after what she goes through. She felt real the way she took control of her own life. I literally wanted to give her a big hug. While there was a the question of Ryle and Atlas that it is not the focus of the book. This is different than any other book Colleen has every written. As many of you know I love reading Romance books and this book was deeper and represented more because of the strong message. I will say that writing this review has been hard because I still want to re-read it for a second or even third time as I still think about it. Everything about It Ends With Us stood out to me. The title fits it perfectly as well. Going into this book as one of my most anticipated has now turned it into my top favorites of 2016 because like always I was not able to put it down. Be sure to pick up this incredible book!
Date published: 2016-07-29

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It Ends with Us Chapter One As I sit here with one foot on either side of the ledge, looking down from twelve stories above the streets of Boston, I can’t help but think about suicide. Not my own. I like my life enough to want to see it through. I’m more focused on other people, and how they ultimately come to the decision to just end their own lives. Do they ever regret it? In the moment after letting go and the second before they make impact, there has to be a little bit of remorse in that brief free fall. Do they look at the ground as it rushes toward them and think, “Well, crap. This was a bad idea.” Somehow, I think not. I think about death a lot. Particularly today, considering I just—twelve hours earlier—gave one of the most epic eulogies the people of Plethora, Maine, have ever witnessed. Okay, maybe it wasn’t the most epic. It very well could be considered the most disastrous. I guess that would depend on whether you were asking my mother or me. My mother, who probably won’t speak to me for a solid year after today. Don’t get me wrong; the eulogy I delivered wasn’t profound enough to make history, like the one Brooke Shields delivered at Michael Jackson’s funeral. Or the one delivered by Steve Jobs’s sister. Or Pat Tillman’s brother. But it was epic in its own way. I was nervous at first. It was the funeral of the prodigious Andrew Bloom, after all. Adored mayor of my hometown of Plethora, Maine. Owner of the most successful real-estate agency within city limits. Husband of the highly adored Jenny Bloom, the most revered teaching assistant in all of Plethora. And father of Lily Bloom—that strange girl with the erratic red hair who once fell in love with a homeless guy and brought great shame upon her entire family. That would be me. I’m Lily Bloom, and Andrew was my father. As soon as I finished delivering his eulogy today, I caught a flight straight back to Boston and hijacked the first roof I could find. Again, not because I’m suicidal. I have no plans to scale off this roof. I just really needed fresh air and silence, and dammit if I can’t get that from my third floor apartment with absolutely no rooftop access and a roommate who likes to hear herself sing. I didn’t account for how cold it would be up here, though. It’s not unbearable, but it’s not comfortable, either. At least I can see the stars. Dead fathers and exasperating roommates and questionable eulogies don’t feel so awful when the night sky is clear enough to literally feel the grandeur of the universe. I love it when the sky makes me feel insignificant. I like tonight. Well . . . let me rephrase this so that it more appropriately reflects my feelings in past tense. I liked tonight. But unfortunately for me, the door was just shoved open so hard, I expect the stairwell to spit a human out onto the rooftop. The door slams shut again and footsteps move swiftly across the deck. I don’t even bother looking up. Whoever it is more than likely won’t even notice me back here straddling the ledge to the left of the door. They came out here in such a hurry, it isn’t my fault if they assume they’re alone. I sigh quietly, close my eyes and lean my head against the stucco wall behind me, cursing the universe for ripping this peaceful, introspective moment out from under me. The least the universe could do for me today is ensure that it’s a woman and not a man. If I’m going to have company, I’d rather it be a female. I’m tough for my size and can probably hold my own in most cases, but I’m too comfortable right now to be on a rooftop alone with a strange man in the middle of the night. I might fear for my safety and feel the need to leave, and I really don’t want to leave. As I said before . . . I’m comfortable. I finally allow my eyes to make the journey to the silhouette leaning over the ledge. As luck would have it, he’s definitely male. Even leaning over the rail, I can tell he’s tall. Broad shoulders create a strong contrast to the fragile way he’s holding his head in his hands. I can barely make out the heavy rise and fall of his back as he drags in deep breaths and forces them back out when he’s done with them. He appears to be on the verge of a breakdown. I contemplate speaking up to let him know he has company, or clearing my throat, but between thinking it and actually doing it, he spins around and kicks one of the patio chairs behind him. I flinch as it screeches across the deck, but being as though he isn’t even aware he has an audience, the guy doesn’t stop with just one kick. He kicks the chair repeatedly, over and over. Rather than give way beneath the blunt force of his foot, all the chair does is scoot farther and farther away from him. That chair must be made from marine-grade polymer. I once watched my father back over an outdoor patio table made of marine-grade polymer, and it practically laughed at him. Dented his bumper, but didn’t even put a scratch on the table. This guy must realize he’s no match for such a high-quality material, because he finally stops kicking the chair. He’s now standing over it, his hands clenched in fists at his sides. To be honest, I’m a little envious. Here this guy is, taking his aggression out on patio furniture like a champ. He’s obviously had a shitty day, as have I, but whereas I keep my aggression pent up until it manifests in the form of passive-aggressiveness, this guy actually has an outlet. My outlet used to be gardening. Any time I was stressed, I’d just go out to the backyard and pull every single weed I could find. But since the day I moved to Boston two years ago, I haven’t had a backyard. Or a patio. I don’t even have weeds. Maybe I need to invest in a marine-grade polymer patio chair. I stare at the guy a moment longer, wondering if he’s ever going to move. He’s just standing there, staring down at the chair. His hands aren’t in fists anymore. They’re resting on his hips, and I notice for the first time how his shirt doesn’t fit him very well around his biceps. It fits him everywhere else, but his arms are huge. He begins fishing around in his pockets until he finds what he’s looking for and—in what I’m sure is probably an effort to release even more of his aggression—he lights up a joint. I’m twenty-three, I’ve been through college and have done this very same recreational drug a time or two. I’m not going to judge this guy for feeling the need to toke up in private. But that’s the thing—he’s not in private. He just doesn’t know that yet. He takes in a long drag of his joint and starts to turn back toward the ledge. He notices me on the exhale. He stops walking the second our eyes meet. His expression holds no shock, nor does it hold amusement when he sees me. He’s about ten feet away, but there’s enough light from the stars that I can see his eyes as they slowly drag over my body without revealing a single thought. This guy holds his cards well. His gaze is narrow and his mouth is drawn tight, like a male version of the Mona Lisa. “What’s your name?” he asks. I feel his voice in my stomach. That’s not good. Voices should stop at the ears, but sometimes—not very often at all, actually—a voice will penetrate past my ears and reverberate straight down through my body. He has one of those voices. Deep, confident, and a little bit like butter. When I don’t answer him, he brings the joint back to his mouth and takes another hit. “Lily,” I finally say. I hate my voice. It sounds too weak to even reach his ears from here, much less reverberate inside his body. He lifts his chin a little and nudges his head toward me. “Will you please get down from there, Lily?” It isn’t until he says this that I notice his posture. He’s standing straight up now, rigid even. Almost as if he’s nervous I’m going to fall. I’m not. This ledge is at least a foot wide, and I’m mostly on the roof side. I could easily catch myself before I fell, not to mention I’ve got the wind in my favor. I glance down at my legs and then back up at him. “No, thanks. I’m quite comfortable where I am.” He turns a little, like he can’t look straight at me. “Please get down.” It’s more of a demand now, despite his use of the word please. “There are seven empty chairs up here.” “Almost six,” I correct, reminding him that he just tried to murder one of them. He doesn’t find the humor in my response. When I fail to follow his orders, he takes a couple of steps closer. “You are a mere three inches from falling to your death. I’ve been around enough of that for one day.” He motions for me to get down again. “You’re making me nervous. Not to mention ruining my high.” I roll my eyes and swing my legs over. “Heaven forbid a joint go to waste.” I hop down and wipe my hands across my jeans. “Better?” I say as I walk toward him. He lets out a rush of air, as if seeing me on the ledge actually had him holding his breath. I pass him to head for the side of the roof with the better view, and as I do, I can’t help but notice how unfortunately cute he is. No. Cute is an insult. This guy is beautiful. Well-manicured, smells like money, looks to be several years older than me. His eyes crinkle in the corners as they follow me, and his lips seem to frown, even when they aren’t. When I reach the side of the building that overlooks the street, I lean forward and stare down at the cars below, trying not to appear impressed by him. I can tell by his haircut alone that he’s the kind of man people are easily impressed by, and I refuse to feed into his ego. Not that he’s done anything to make me think he even has one. But he is wearing a casual Burberry shirt, and I’m not sure I’ve ever been on the radar of someone who could casually afford one. I hear footsteps approaching from behind, and then he leans against the railing next to me. Out of the corner of my eye, I watch as he takes another hit of his joint. When he’s finished, he offers it to me, but I wave it off. The last thing I need is to be under the influence around this guy. His voice is a drug in itself. I kind of want to hear it again, so I throw a question in his direction. “So what did that chair do to make you so angry?” He looks at me. Like really looks at me. His eyes meet mine and he just stares, hard, like all my secrets are right there on my face. I’ve never seen eyes as dark as his. Maybe I have, but they seem darker when they’re attached to such an intimidating presence. He doesn’t answer my question, but my curiosity isn’t easily put to rest. If he’s going to force me down from a very peaceful, comfortable ledge, then I expect him to entertain me with answers to my nosy questions. “Was it a woman?” I inquire. “Did she break your heart?” He laughs a little with that question. “If only my issues were as trivial as matters of the heart.” He leans into the wall so that he can face me. “What floor do you live on?” He licks his fingers and pinches the end of his joint, then puts it back in his pocket. “I’ve never noticed you before.” “That’s because I don’t live here.” I point in the direction of my apartment. “See that insurance building?” He squints as he looks in the direction I’m pointing. “Yeah.” “I live in the building next to it. It’s too short to see from here. It’s only three stories tall.” He’s facing me again, resting his elbow on the ledge. “If you live over there, why are you here? Your boyfriend live here or something?” His comment somehow makes me feel cheap. It was too easy—an amateurish pickup line. From the looks of this guy, I know he has better skills than that. It makes me think he saves the more difficult pickup lines for the women he deems worthy. “You have a nice roof,” I tell him. He lifts an eyebrow, waiting for more of an explanation. “I wanted fresh air. Somewhere to think. I pulled up Google Earth and found the closest apartment complex with a decent rooftop patio.” He regards me with a smile. “At least you’re economical,” he says. “That’s a good quality to have.” At least? I nod, because I am economical. And it is a good quality to have. “Why did you need fresh air?” he asks. Because I buried my father today and gave an epically disastrous eulogy and now I feel like I can’t breathe. I face forward again and slowly exhale. “Can we just not talk for a little while?” He seems a bit relieved that I asked for silence. He leans over the ledge and lets an arm dangle as he stares down at the street. He stays like this for a while, and I stare at him the entire time. He probably knows I’m staring, but he doesn’t seem to care. “A guy fell off this roof last month,” he says. I would be annoyed at his lack of respect for my request for silence, but I’m kind of intrigued. “Was it an accident?” He shrugs. “No one knows. It happened late in the evening. His wife said she was cooking dinner and he told her he was coming up here to take some pictures of the sunset. He was a photographer. They think he was leaning over the ledge to get a shot of the skyline, and he slipped.” I look over the ledge, wondering how someone could possibly put themselves in a situation where they could fall by accident. But then I remember I was just straddling the ledge on the other side of the roof a few minutes ago. “When my sister told me what happened, the only thing I could think about was whether or not he got the shot. I was hoping his camera didn’t fall with him, because that would have been a real waste, you know? To die because of your love of photography, but you didn’t even get the final shot that cost you your life?” His thought makes me laugh. Although I’m not sure I should have laughed at that. “Do you always say exactly what’s on your mind?” He shrugs. “Not to most people.” This makes me smile. I like that he doesn’t even know me, but for whatever reason, I’m not considered most people to him. He rests his back against the ledge and folds his arms over his chest. “Were you born here?” I shake my head. “No. Moved here from Maine after I graduated college.” He scrunches up his nose, and it’s kind of hot. Watching this guy—dressed in his Burberry shirt with his two-hundred-dollar haircut—making silly faces. “So you’re in Boston purgatory, huh? That’s gotta suck.” “What do you mean?” I ask him. The corner of his mouth curls up. “The tourists treat you like a local; the locals treat you like a tourist.” I laugh. “Wow. That’s a very accurate description.” “I’ve been here two months. I’m not even in purgatory yet, so you’re doing better than I am.” “What brought you to Boston?” “My residency. And my sister lives here.” He taps his foot and says, “Right beneath us, actually. Married a tech-savvy Bostonian and they bought the entire top floor.” I look down. “The entire top floor?” He nods. “Lucky bastard works from home. Doesn’t even have to change out of his pajamas and makes seven figures a year.” Lucky bastard, indeed. “What kind of residency? Are you a doctor?” He nods. “Neurosurgeon. Less than a year left of my residency and then it’s official.” Stylish, well spoken, and smart. And smokes pot. If this were an SAT question, I would ask which one didn’t belong. “Should doctors be smoking weed?” He smirks. “Probably not. But if we didn’t indulge on occasion, there would be a lot more of us taking the leap over these ledges, I can promise you that.” He’s facing forward again with his chin resting on his arms. His eyes are closed now, like he’s enjoying the wind against his face. He doesn’t look as intimidating like this. “You want to know something that only the locals know?” “Of course,” he says, bringing his attention back to me. I point to the east. “See that building? The one with the green roof?” He nods. “There’s a building behind it on Melcher. There’s a house on top of the building. Like a legit house, built right on the rooftop. You can’t see it from the street, and the building is so tall that not many people even know about it.” He looks impressed. “Really?” I nod. “I saw it when I was searching Google Earth, so I looked it up. Apparently a permit was granted for the construction in 1982. How cool would that be? To live in a house on top of a building?” “You’d get the whole roof to yourself,” he says. I hadn’t thought of that. If I owned it I could plant gardens up there. I’d have an outlet. “Who lives there?” he asks. “No one really knows. It’s one of the great mysteries of Boston.” He laughs and then looks at me inquisitively. “What’s another great mystery of Boston?” “Your name.” As soon as I say it, I slap my hand against my forehead. It sounded so much like a cheesy pickup line; the only thing I can do is laugh at myself. He smiles. “It’s Ryle,” he says. “Ryle Kincaid.” I sigh, sinking into myself. “That’s a really great name.” “Why do you sound sad about it?” “Because, I’d give anything for a great name.” “You don’t like the name Lily?” I tilt my head and cock an eyebrow. “My last name . . . is Bloom.” He’s quiet. I can feel him trying to hold back his pity. “I know. It’s awful. It’s the name of a two-year-old little girl, not a twenty-three-year-old woman.” “A two-year-old girl will have the same name no matter how old she gets. Names aren’t something we eventually grow out of, Lily Bloom.” “Unfortunately for me,” I say. “But what makes it even worse is that I absolutely love gardening. I love flowers. Plants. Growing things. It’s my passion. It’s always been my dream to open a florist shop, but I’m afraid if I did, people wouldn’t think my desire was authentic. They would think I was trying to capitalize off my name and that being a florist isn’t really my dream job.” “Maybe so,” he says. “But what’s that matter?” “It doesn’t, I suppose.” I catch myself whispering, “Lily Bloom’s” quietly. I can see him smiling a little bit. “It really is a great name for a florist. But I have a master’s degree in business. I’d be downgrading, don’t you think? I work for the biggest marketing firm in Boston.” “Owning your own business isn’t downgrading,” he says. I raise an eyebrow. “Unless it flops.” He nods in agreement. “Unless it flops,” he says. “So what’s your middle name, Lily Bloom?” I groan, which makes him perk up. “You mean it gets worse?” I drop my head in my hands and nod. “Rose?” I shake my head. “Worse.” “Violet?” “I wish.” I cringe and then mutter, “Blossom.” There’s a moment of silence. “Goddamn,” he says softly. “Yeah. Blossom is my mother’s maiden name and my parents thought it was fate that their last names were synonyms. So of course when they had me, a flower was their first choice.” “Your parents must be real assholes.” One of them is. Was. “My father died this week.” He glances at me. “Nice try. I’m not falling for that.” “I’m serious. That’s why I came up here tonight. I think I just needed a good cry.” He stares at me suspiciously for a moment to make sure I’m not pulling his leg. He doesn’t apologize for the blunder. Instead, his eyes grow a little more curious, like his intrigue is actually authentic. “Were you close?” That’s a hard question. I rest my chin on my arms and look down at the street again. “I don’t know,” I say with a shrug. “As his daughter, I loved him. But as a human, I hated him.” I can feel him watching me for a moment, and then he says, “I like that. Your honesty.” He likes my honesty. I think I might be blushing. We’re both quiet again for a while, and then he says, “Do you ever wish people were more transparent?” “How so?” He picks at a piece of chipped stucco with his thumb until it breaks loose. He flicks it over the ledge. “I feel like everyone fakes who they really are, when deep down we’re all equal amounts of screwed up. Some of us are just better at hiding it than others.” Either his high is setting in, or he’s just very introspective. Either way, I’m okay with it. My favorite conversations are the ones with no real answers. “I don’t think being a little guarded is a negative thing,” I say. “Naked truths aren’t always pretty.” He stares at me for a moment. “Naked truths,” he repeats. “I like that.” He turns around and walks to the middle of the rooftop. He adjusts the back on one of the patio loungers behind me and lowers himself onto it. It’s the kind you lie on, so he pulls his hands behind his head and looks up at the sky. I claim the one next to him and adjust it until I’m in the same position as him. “Tell me a naked truth, Lily.” “Pertaining to what?” He shrugs. “I don’t know. Something you aren’t proud of. Something that will make me feel a little less screwed up on the inside.” He’s staring up at the sky, waiting on me to answer. My eyes follow the line of his jaw, the curve of his cheeks, the outline of his lips. His eyebrows are drawn together in contemplation. I don’t understand why, but he seems to need conversation right now. I think about his question and try to find an honest answer. When I come up with one, I look away from him and back up to the sky. “My father was abusive. Not to me—to my mother. He would get so angry when they fought that sometimes he would hit her. When that happened, he would spend the next week or two making up for it. He would do things like buy her flowers or take us out to a nice dinner. Sometimes he would buy me stuff because he knew I hated it when they fought. When I was a kid, I found myself looking forward to the nights they would fight. Because I knew if he hit her, the two weeks that followed would be great.” I pause. I’m not sure I’ve ever admitted that to myself. “Of course if I could, I would have made it to where he never touched her. But the abuse was inevitable with their marriage, and it became our norm. When I got older, I realized that not doing something about it made me just as guilty. I spent most of my life hating him for being such a bad person, but I’m not so sure I’m much better. Maybe we’re both bad people.” Ryle looks over at me with a thoughtful expression. “Lily,” he says pointedly. “There is no such thing as bad people. We’re all just people who sometimes do bad things.” I open my mouth to respond, but his words strike me silent. We’re all just people who sometimes do bad things. I guess that’s true in a way. No one is exclusively bad, nor is anyone exclusively good. Some are just forced to work harder at suppressing the bad. “Your turn,” I tell him. Based on his reaction, I think he might not want to play his own game. He sighs heavily and runs a hand through his hair. He opens his mouth to speak, but then clamps it shut again. He thinks for a bit, and then finally speaks. “I watched a little boy die tonight.” His voice is despondent. “He was only five years old. He and his little brother found a gun in his parents’ bedroom. The younger brother was holding it and it went off by accident.” My stomach flips. I think this may be a little too much truth for me. “There was nothing that could be done by the time he made it to the operating table. Everyone around—nurses, other doctors—they all felt so sorry for the family. ‘Those poor parents,’ they said. But when I had to walk into the waiting room and tell those parents that their child didn’t make it, I didn’t feel an ounce of sorrow for them. I wanted them to suffer. I wanted them to feel the weight of their ignorance for keeping a loaded gun within access of two innocent children. I wanted them to know that not only did they just lose a child, they just ruined the entire life of the one who accidentally pulled the trigger.” Jesus Christ. I wasn’t prepared for something so heavy. I can’t even conceive how a family moves past that. “That poor boy’s brother,” I say. “I can’t imagine what that’s going to do to him—seeing something like that.” Ryle flicks something off the knee of his jeans. “It’ll destroy him for life, that’s what it’ll do.” I turn on my side to face him, lifting my head up onto my hand. “Is it hard? Seeing things like that every day?” He gives his head a slight shake. “It should be a lot harder, but the more I’m around death, the more it just becomes a part of life. I’m not sure how I feel about that.” He makes eye contact with me again. “Give me another one,” he says. “I feel like mine was a little more twisted than yours.” I disagree, but I tell him about the twisted thing I did a mere twelve hours ago. “My mother asked me two days ago if I would deliver the eulogy at my father’s funeral today. I told her I didn’t feel comfortable—that I might be crying too hard to speak in front of a crowd—but that was a lie. I just didn’t want to do it because I feel like eulogies should be delivered by those who respected the deceased. And I didn’t much respect my father.” “Did you do it?” I nod. “Yeah. This morning.” I sit up and pull my legs beneath me as I face him. “You want to hear it?” He smiles. “Absolutely.” I fold my hands in my lap and inhale a breath. “I had no idea what to say. About an hour before the funeral, I told my mother I didn’t want to do it. She said it was simple and that my father would have wanted me to do it. She said all I had to do was walk up to the podium and say five great things about my father. So . . . that’s exactly what I did.” Ryle lifts up onto his elbow, appearing even more interested. He can tell by the look on my face that it gets worse. “Oh, no, Lily. What did you do?” “Here. Let me just reenact it for you.” I stand up and walk around to the other side of my chair. I stand tall and act like I’m looking out over the same crowded room I was met with this morning. I clear my throat. “Hello. My name is Lily Bloom, daughter of the late Andrew Bloom. Thank you all for joining us today as we mourn his loss. I wanted to take a moment to honor his life by sharing with you five great things about my father. The first thing . . .” I look down at Ryle and shrug. “That’s it.” He sits up. “What do you mean?” I take a seat on my lounge chair and lie back down. “I stood up there for two solid minutes without saying another word. There wasn’t one great thing I could say about that man—so I just stared silently at the crowd until my mother realized what I was doing and had my uncle remove me from the podium.” Ryle tilts his head. “Are you kidding me? You gave the anti-eulogy at your own father’s funeral?” I nod. “I’m not proud of it. I don’t think. I mean, if I had my way, he would have been a much better person and I would have stood up there and talked for an hour.” Ryle lies back down. “Wow,” he says, shaking his head. “You’re kind of my hero. You just roasted a dead guy.” “That’s tacky.” “Yeah, well. Naked truth hurts.” I laugh. “Your turn.” “I can’t top that,” he says. “I’m sure you can come close.” “I’m not sure I can.” I roll my eyes. “Yes you can. Don’t make me feel like the worst person out of the two of us. Tell me the most recent thought you’ve had that most people wouldn’t say out loud.” He pulls his hands up behind his head and looks me straight in the eye. “I want to fuck you.” My mouth falls open. Then I clamp it shut again. I think I might be speechless. He shoots me a look of innocence. “You asked for the most recent thought, so I gave it to you. You’re beautiful. I’m a guy. If you were into one-night stands, I would take you downstairs to my bedroom and I would fuck you.” I can’t even look at him. His statement makes me feel a multitude of things all at once. “Well, I’m not into one-night stands.” “I figured as much,” he says. “Your turn.” He’s so nonchalant; he acts as if he didn’t just stun me into silence. “I need a minute to regroup after that one,” I say with a laugh. I try to think of something with a little shock value, but I can’t get over the fact that he just said that. Out loud. Maybe because he’s a neurosurgeon and I never pictured someone so educated throwing around the word fuck so casually. I gather myself . . . somewhat . . . and then say, “Okay. Since we’re on the subject . . . the first guy I ever had sex with was homeless.” He perks up and faces me. “Oh, I’m gonna need more of this story.” I stretch my arm out and rest my head on it. “I grew up in Maine. We lived in a fairly decent neighborhood, but the street behind our house wasn’t in the best condition. Our backyard butted up to a condemned house adjacent to two abandoned lots. I became friends with a guy named Atlas who stayed in the condemned house. No one knew he was living there other than me. I used to take him food and clothes and stuff. Until my father found out.” “What’d he do?” My jaw tightens. I don’t know why I brought this up when I still force myself not to think about it on a daily basis. “He beat him up.” That’s as naked as I want to get about that subject. “Your turn.” He regards me silently for a moment, as if he knows there’s more to that story. But then he breaks eye contact. “The thought of marriage repulses me,” he says. “I’m almost thirty years old and I have no desire for a wife. I especially don’t want children. The only thing I want out of life is success. Lots of it. But if I admit that out loud to anyone, it makes me sound arrogant.” “Professional success? Or social status?” He says, “Both. Anyone can have children. Anyone can get married. But not everyone can be a neurosurgeon. I get a lot of pride out of that. And I don’t just want to be a great neurosurgeon. I want to be the best in my field.” “You’re right. It does make you sound arrogant.” He smiles. “My mother fears I’m wasting my life away because all I do is work.” “You’re a neurosurgeon and your mother is disappointed in you?” I laugh. “Good lord, that’s insane. Are parents ever really happy with their children? Will they ever be good enough?” He shakes his head. “My children wouldn’t be. Not many people have the drive I do, so I’d only be setting them up for failure. That’s why I’ll never have any.” “I actually think that’s respectable, Ryle. A lot of people refuse to admit they might be too selfish to have children.” He shakes his head. “Oh, I’m way too selfish to have children. And I’m definitely way too selfish to be in a relationship.” “So how do you avoid it? You just don’t date?” He cuts his eyes to me, and there’s a slight grin affixed to his face. “When I have time, there are girls who satisfy those needs. I don’t lack for anything in that department, if that’s what you’re asking. But love has never appealed to me. It’s always been more of a burden than anything.” I wish I looked at love like that. It would make my life a hell of a lot easier. “I envy you. I have this idea that there’s a perfect man out there for me. I tend to become jaded easily, because no one ever meets my standards. I feel like I’m on an infinite search for the Holy Grail.” “You should try my method,” he says. “Which is?” “One-night stands.” He raises an eyebrow, like it’s an invitation. I’m glad it’s dark, because my face is on fire. “I could never sleep with someone if I didn’t see it going anywhere.” I say this out loud, but my words lack conviction when I say it to him. He drags in a long, slow breath, and then rolls onto his back. “Not that kind of girl, huh?” He says this with a trace of disappointment in his voice. I match his disappointment. I’m not sure I’d even want to turn him down if he made a move, but I might have just thwarted that possibility. “If you wouldn’t sleep with someone you just met . . .” His eyes meet mine again. “Exactly how far would you go?” I don’t have an answer for that. I roll onto my back because the way he’s looking at me makes me want to rethink one-night stands. I’m not necessarily against them, I suppose. I’ve just never been propositioned for one by someone I would consider it with. Until now. I think. Is he even propositioning me? I’ve always been terrible at flirting. He reaches out and grabs the edge of my lounge chair. In one swift movement and with very minimal effort, he drags my chair closer to him until it bumps his. My whole body stiffens. He’s so close now, I can feel the warmth of his breath cutting through the cold air. If I were to look at him, his face would be mere inches from mine. I refuse to look at him, because he’d probably kiss me and I know absolutely nothing about this guy, other than a couple of naked truths. But that doesn’t weigh on my conscience at all when he rests a heavy hand on my stomach. “How far would you go, Lily?” His voice is decadent. Smooth. It travels straight to my toes. “I don’t know,” I whisper. His fingers begin to crawl toward the hem of my shirt. He begins to slowly inch it upward until a slither of my stomach is showing. “Oh, Jesus,” I whisper, feeling the warmth from his hand as he slides it up my stomach. Against my better judgment, I face him again and the look in his eyes completely captivates me. He looks hopeful and hungry and completely confident. He sinks his teeth into his bottom lip as his hand begins to tease its way up my shirt. I know he can feel my heart thrashing around in my chest. Hell, he can probably hear it. “Is this too far?” he asks. I don’t know where this side of me is coming from, but I shake my head and say, “Not even close.” With a grin, his fingers brush the underneath of my bra, lightly trickling over my skin that is now covered in chills. As soon as my eyelids fall shut, the piercing of a ring rips through the air. His hand stiffens when we both realize it’s a phone. His phone. He drops his forehead to my shoulder. “Dammit.” I frown when his hand slips out from beneath my shirt. He fumbles in his pocket for his phone, standing up and walking several feet away from me to take the call. “Dr. Kincaid,” he says. He listens intently, his hand gripping the back of his neck. “What about Roberts? I’m not even supposed to be on call right now.” More silence is followed with, “Yeah, give me ten minutes. On my way.” He ends the call and slides his phone back in his pocket. When he turns to face me, he looks a little disappointed. He points to the door that leads to the stairwell. “I have to . . .” I nod. “It’s fine.” He considers me for a moment, and then holds up a finger. “Don’t move,” he says, reaching for his phone again. He walks closer and holds it up as if he’s about to snap a picture of me. I almost object, but I don’t even know why. I’m fully clothed. It just doesn’t feel that way for some reason. He snaps a picture of me lying in the lounge chair, my arms relaxed above my head. I have no idea what he plans to do with that picture, but I like that he took it. I like that he had the urge to remember what I look like, even though he knows he’ll never see me again. He stares at the photo on his screen for a few seconds and smiles. I’m half-tempted to take a picture of him in return, but I’m not sure I want a reminder of someone I’ll never see again. The thought of that is a little depressing. “It was nice meeting you, Lily Bloom. I hope you defy the odds of most dreams and actually accomplish yours.” I smile, equally saddened and confused by this guy. I’m not sure that I’ve ever spent time with someone like him before—someone of a completely different lifestyle and tax bracket. I probably never will again. But I’m pleasantly surprised to see that we aren’t all that different. Misconception confirmed. He looks down at his feet for a moment as he stands in somewhat of an unsure pose. It’s as if he’s suspended between the desire to say something else to me and the need to leave. He glances at me one last time—this time without so much of a poker face. I can see the disappointment in the set of his mouth before he turns and walks in the other direction. He opens the door and I can hear his footsteps fade as he rushes down the stairwell. I’m alone on the rooftop once again, but to my surprise, I’m a little saddened by that now.

Editorial Reviews

Colleen Hoover may have written her best novel yet. Hoover's latest novel, It Ends With Us---is a heartrending and powerful exploration of the different sides of domestic abuse. It is one of the most honest and inclusive novels written about the issue that I have ever read. It was an emotional rollercoaster that kept me reading past my bedtime.