Love Lives Here: A Story Of Thriving In A Transgender Family by Amanda Jette KnoxLove Lives Here: A Story Of Thriving In A Transgender Family by Amanda Jette Knox

Love Lives Here: A Story Of Thriving In A Transgender Family

byAmanda Jette Knox

Paperback | July 30, 2019

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An inspirational story of accepting and embracing two trans people in a family--a family who shows what's possible when you "lead with love."

All Amanda Jetté Knox ever wanted was to enjoy a stable life. She never knew her biological father, and while her mother and stepfather were loving parents, the situation was sometimes chaotic. At school, she was bullied mercilessly, and at the age of fourteen, she entered a counselling program for alcohol addiction and was successful.

While still a teenager, she met the love of her life. They were wed at 20, and the first of three children followed shortly. Jetté Knox finally had the stability she craved--or so it seemed. Their middle child struggled with depression and avoided school. The author was unprepared when the child she knew as her son came out as transgender at the age of eleven. Shocked, but knowing how important it was to support her daughter, Jetté Knox became an ardent advocate for trans rights.

But the story wasn't over. For many years, the author had coped with her spouse's moodiness, but that chronic unhappiness was taking a toll on their marriage. A little over a year after their child came out, her partner also came out as transgender. Knowing better than most what would lie ahead, Jetté Knox searched for positive examples of marriages surviving transition. When she found no role models, she determined that her family would become one.

The shift was challenging, but slowly the family members noticed that they were becoming happier and more united. Told with remarkable candour and humour, and full of insight into the challenges faced by trans people, Love Lives Here is a beautiful story of transition, frustration, support, acceptance, and, of course, love.
AMANDA JETTÉ KNOX is an award-winning writer, human rights advocate, and public speaker. She is the recipient of the 2014 Joan Gullen Journalism Award for Media Excellence in small print. Her work, and her family's journey so far, has been featured on CBC, The Globe and Mail, Chatelaine, Upworthy, Buzzfeed, Us Weekly, Uproxx, Ottawa Fa...
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Title:Love Lives Here: A Story Of Thriving In A Transgender FamilyFormat:PaperbackProduct dimensions:288 pages, 9.04 × 6.16 × 0.79 inShipping dimensions:9.04 × 6.16 × 0.79 inPublished:July 30, 2019Publisher:Penguin CanadaLanguage:English

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ISBN - 10:0735235171

ISBN - 13:9780735235175

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Rated 5 out of 5 by from Everyone needs to read this book! It's rare to find a book that's both educational and completely absorbing from the first page to the last. Love Lives Here is both of those things and more. Amanda writes in a beautiful yet direct and honest way about her life - from the trauma of rejection and bullying that leaves lifelong scars, to finding love and becoming a young mother of three, to navigating a new understanding of gender with her transgender daughter and wife, and finally acknowledging her own sexual orientation. She does it all in a way that makes it feel like you're crying, laughing and learning with a good friend - it's an amazing read. As the parent of a trans young adult, I'm so grateful that Amanda has put this story of love out into the world.
Date published: 2019-08-12
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Powerful and Important This is one of the most important and powerful books I've read in a long time. I was sucked in from the first page and couldn't put it down. She inspires, provides tools, and tells stories that will leave you crying tears of joy and pain. I highly recommend it and will be passing along my copy and purchasing copies for others. It's a message so many people need to hear, and Amanda tells it so well.
Date published: 2019-08-12
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Beautifully real This book is the most beautiful and real book I have ever read. It exemplifies what love is on all counts. It opened my eyes to the struggle trans people face whether that is medically, financially, and emotionally. It has educated me on gender and how our normal conversations and assuming everyone’s gender can be damaging. This book is real with its love and real in its struggle. It is absolutely amazing. This book made my heart so happy. I feel educated, love, passion, and encouragement to do better.
Date published: 2019-08-06
Rated 5 out of 5 by from A story of love For those who have been bullied or were a bully at one time. For those looking to learn about LGBT issues or those supporting them in their family or dealing with it themselves. This book will make you cry, will make you laugh and may make you rethink feelings you may have thought you had. A story of Love, acceptance and fighting. A story of change and how things which may once seem doomed can get better. And a story of rising above discrimination, judgement, harassment and negativity and learning how to Lead With Love.
Date published: 2019-08-05
Rated 5 out of 5 by from An incredible Story! I ran out to the store the moment I heard it was on the shelf. An incredible story about an incredible family written by an incredible person. Thank you for sharing your story.
Date published: 2019-08-05
Rated 5 out of 5 by from This book leads with love Love Lives Here is more than the story of a family in which a rainbow of people thrive, though it is that, too. Jetté Knox is, first and foremost, a writer. She does a brilliant job of imbuing every important moment in her family’s life with physicality, so that the reader feels fully present in the space and the emotion of the moment. That’s the key that brings the reader into the story. Her wit, her drive, her honesty, and her empathy — and that of her whole family — are icing on the cake. This is a book you won’t want to stop reading, a story you won’t want to stop hearing, and a reality you believe may one day exist for all families.
Date published: 2019-08-04
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Love Definitely Lives Here! Amanda is a gifted writer who infuses humour and raw emotion into her story. She allows us to laugh with her when she laughs at herself, and gives us permission to cry with her when she shares her pain. This book is a testament to the strength of love, and how anything can be overcome when a family works together. As a parent of a transgender person, I could relate to Amanda's strength in supporting her child while at the same time experiencing fear and worry about her child's safety out in the world. This story is engaging and gripping from the first sentence to the last, while at the same time full of love and genuine emotion. I thoroughly enjoyed Amanda's book, I couldn't put it down until I finished reading it, and I found myself wanting more. I LOVED THIS BOOK!
Date published: 2019-07-31
Rated 5 out of 5 by from We Can All Use A Bit More Love In Our Lives What a remarkably honest, heartfelt and educational story about how love conquers all. Lead with love, indeed!
Date published: 2019-07-29
Rated 5 out of 5 by from Love expands right into your own life from this book Love clearly lives with Amanda and Zoë and this book is a testament to that love, but not only does she share her story in this memoir, she teaches us ALL more about love. She teaches us to love ourselves a bit more, even if we’ve been imperfect at times in our lives. She teaches us to see that it’s OK to have thought something, to learn, and to adjust. She teaches us that we’re all just doing our best to be our authentic selves in the world and that loving each other through it all is the best path forward. This compelling book was one I couldn’t put down until I’d made it from beginning to end. I chuckled knowingly as she shared experiences I too have been through, I cried as I travelled through some really difficult moments with her family, and most of all my heart filled with love for her and her family and the journey they’ve taken and where they’ve arrived. What a joy this book was to read.
Date published: 2019-07-29
Rated 5 out of 5 by from A must read! I was so happy that Chapters sent my pre-order a little early! I read it in one sitting. It made me cry at times but by the end they were happy tears. It's a wonderful story of how love endures and what defines family. It was exactly the uplifting read I needed.
Date published: 2019-07-27

From the Author

An inspirational story of accepting and embracing two trans people in a family--a family who shows what's possible when you "lead with love."All Amanda Jetté Knox ever wanted was to enjoy a stable life. She never knew her biological father, and while her mother and stepfather were loving parents, the situation was sometimes chaotic. At school, she was bullied mercilessly, and at the age of fourteen, she entered a counselling program for alcohol addiction and was successful. While still a teenager, she met the love of her life. They were wed at 20, and the first of three children followed shortly. Jetté Knox finally had the stability she craved--or so it seemed. Their middle child struggled with depression and avoided school. The author was unprepared when the child she knew as her son came out as transgender at the age of eleven. Shocked, but knowing how important it was to support her daughter, Jetté Knox became an ardent advocate for trans rights.But the story wasn't over. For many years, the author had coped with her spouse's moodiness, but that chronic unhappiness was taking a toll on their marriage. A little over a year after their child came out, her partner also came out as transgender. Knowing better than most what would lie ahead, Jetté Knox searched for positive examples of marriages surviving transition. When she found no role models, she determined that her family would become one. The shift was challenging, but slowly the family members noticed that they were becoming happier and more united. Told with remarkable candour and humour, and full of insight into the challenges faced by trans people, Love Lives Here is a beautiful story of transition, frustration, support, acceptance, and, of course, love.

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She told me in the car.   Or rather, she didn’t tell me. Because it’s what wasn’t said that gave it all away—the space between our words leaving a silence where you could almost hear our hearts break.    It’s funny how much we remember about important moments. That night, a warm summer rain was tapping lightly against the car windows and I could smell the air conditioner as it worked overtime to push out the mugginess of early July. I could hear the splash of puddles as we made our way down the road toward our suburban neighbourhood. I remember how a bright-green grocery store sign lit up the car’s interior as I turned and asked that one pivotal question, and how our ten-minute ride home ended up taking well over an hour.    Whenever I think about the night my life changed forever, I’m thrust backwards into sensory overload. The sights, the smells, the sounds are forever a part of the memory. It’s only one piece of a much larger story, but I recall it as clearly as I do my chil­dren’s first breaths or my grandmother’s last.    I suppose this makes sense, since that night was both the start of a new life and the end of an old one.    By any measure, it had been a terrible date night. Unbelievably so, even for us. And hey, we knew terrible. Back then, I had a mopey, moody partner. This made everything—including date nights—a lot less fun. How do you have a good time when some­one is lugging around misery like a millstone? The person I married barely smiled, even at the best of times. But after more than two decades together, I had come to accept this as our reality. Some people are just not the smiley types, you know?    Oh, you know. We all know people like this: the ones you can’t coax a grin out of no matter how hard you try. For years, I figured that if I led by example—if I just smiled more, modelled joy or exuded gratitude—the moodiness would disappear. The cloud would lift.    After trying those techniques for so long, and failing spec­tacularly to get the result I was hoping for, I probably should have known better. Sadly, I’m a killer optimist. I always see a way to let the light in. I’m Charlie Brown running for the football Lucy is holding for me with a mischievous glint in her eye. Damn it, I was going to get the person I’d married to love life, even if it took another two decades. Just watch me.    That’s why I’d suggested we go for coffee and cinnamon buns. What kind of person can eat a cinnamon bun without cracking a smile? I was sure I had a foolproof plan as we made our way to Quitters, a quaint hipster establishment owned by the famed musician Kathleen Edwards. In 2014, she had pur­posefully stepped away from the spotlight to return to Ottawa and open a coffee shop. Her decision garnered much local atten­tion. Who walks away from a career full of accolades to make espressos in the suburbs? People like Kathleen, that’s who. Those who seem able to shift from one life to another with much grace and little fear. In hindsight, it seems only fitting that a place that symbolizes so much change would serve as the back­drop to our own seismic shift.    That night, we sat along the back wall in mismatched chairs, a candle dancing on the table between us. I was probably smiling too much and drinking my coffee too fast, which I always do when I’m nervous and fidgety. I know for certain I was asking what was wrong. Because that’s what you do on a date night, right? One of you mopes, and the other tries to prod out the cause. They make movies about people like us and release them on Valentine’s Day.    “I wish you would just tell me what’s going on with you,” I said. We sang this little song on a regular basis; we both knew the words.    The person I loved stared out the window. It was nearly dark out; the dim candlelight between us was casting shadows on both our faces. Neither of us was smiling now.    “It’s nothing. It’s not important.” This was the reply that always followed my prodding.    “It is important, and I don’t buy that it’s nothing,” I coun­tered, just as I always did. “If it were nothing, you wouldn’t be this unhappy all the time.”    Unhappy. So unhappy. I was tired of it. Twenty-two years later, it was time to figure out what the hell was going on.    After years spent emotionally propping up our family—like Atlas with an impressive muffin top—I had reached my limit. All that emotional lifting was exhausting and left little room for compassion. Dealing with a spouse in an Eeyore-like state—anger or melancholy oozing out of every pore—and feeling like I had to crank up my own happiness to shield the kids from it all, my magical well of giving a damn had run dry. And there, at the bottom, sat the bitter little troll I’d become. Because once I had used up all my overcompensating smiles and excessive happiness, once I had tried to make things better yet again, I would land with a thunk on the cold, hard floor of failure. With that, my patience would unravel and the troll would start shouting angrily from the bottom of the well.    “We have a great life!” I often said when I’d reached my breaking point, my voice filled with frustration. “Three amaz­ing kids, a nice home and full bellies. What more could you ask for? Some people would kill for this life! I just don’t get you.” It was a script I’d memorized.    But not this time. For some reason, I went rogue. For some reason, on this night—in this place of coffee and big changes—I held it together. Somewhere deep down, I must have had a spe­cial reserve of patience for this occasion—vintage, stored in fancy bottles with dust on them. I pulled some of that patience out of the cellar and stayed surprisingly calm.    That was a good thing. Because as it turns out, it’s hard to open up to someone if that someone is frustrated. This is espe­cially true if you are holding back on sharing a life-altering secret out of fear of your entire world falling apart.    I’m glad I drew from my reserve that night. By not getting angry, I changed the pattern. I likely saved us another twenty-two years of dysfunctional dancing. Unfortunately, I took what nor­mally would have been a bad evening and turned it into a truly terrifying one. Because what would be revealed in the car on the ride home would shatter the life I thought we had. In just a few minutes, I would be staring at the rubble beneath my feet and wondering what the hell I had just done.    But hey, at least I had good intentions.